Get Right
Shaz FM:Slipping Away by Sum 41
Mood:Doing alright but something's just not right.

Today school was alright.Had the usual I-know-something look.Sat next to Ew-jun for the first period of bahasa.At one point he asked me,'I know something which you think I dont know".I was like 'Yeah,i thought so.Something to do with Ismadi.".He then said "Are we even talking about the same thing?".I seriously dunno but for some reason something's really bugging me.Was it really something that I see but might not actually be?I see Ew-Jun privately talking to Ismadi or Nurie.Why this bugs me?I go back to the time last year when something like this happened.To do with liking someone.It would be ew-jun,nurie and Rae.They were talking secretly about something they thought I didnt know.He was shocked when I told him what I knew.Maybe I'm not expected to be a loyal friend.Maybe I'm a blabbermouth.Maybe they dont trust me as much as I thought they would.These are ramblings which I dont expect to be heard.I dont want to lose these friends cause they're the best I've ever had.Anyway,it just comes back to that feeling I had then.

Rae,i dont think Im coping well without you.I keep going back to the time in Year 7 where people would look at me and i feel like they're thinking otherwise in their heads.I somehow feel like I have a fake laugh.Things are screwed.Im tired,and still I want to feel like this.Meh,I've got good friends but something feels wrong.I need a great hug,really I do.

Zehan is our class's SRC member.It was good competition but I hate it when someone says 'You've won,Shaza."Geez,stop it Mohammad.The same thing happened to me when I got nominated in Year 8.Hahah,its alright.Zae,Hani and Hariz came to my place for a bit cause it was raining heavily.Got some hw to do so Im gonna head on to it.Cyaz

I wished upon the stars at
9:19 pm