Pieces
Shaz FM:Hero by Mariah Carey
Feeling: Depressed

Hey all. Today i went out with Oli,Kath and Anthony to watch Fantastic Four. It was a wicked movie. A bit weird and short but good nevertheless. We had a few good laughs. The movie planning beforehand was shit. I felt so uncomfortable with Anthony.Lol we were close friends before camp but now I figure its too hard to piece back together. I will make the first move in asking him why we've become like this already. Just right now,Im feeling rather glum.

After that,we walked to Borders and ate at NYEC. OMG,how uncomfortable again. Oli and Kath walked off and it was just the two of us. OMG,most of the time we were just drinking water,not talking. I dunno anymore.I feel weird around him. Alex came by and we did the usual gossip and chat session. We decided to walk to Far East Plaza to take neoprints. Oli went off home cause she was late. I was trailing behind the others. Kath was leading the way,Alex and Anthony were busy in discussion and I just stared into space and walked along. I think my face showed how i was feeling because Alex and Oli asked me numerous times whether I was ok.

On the way back home,i was listening to songs which suited my mood.Im having one of those days where Im feeling depressed without no apparent reason. This is the 2nd time its happened since Ive come back from Singapore. All I did during the MRT was listen to these songs and think about all the shit that's happened and happening right now. What people do,what people's done,how other people see me,how other people see others etc. I got home and quietly went up to my room. I continued listening to all these songs and well,a few tears rolled down but all I wanna do now is have someone to hug or talk to or just cry my heart out. No,i do not have PMS because I have just finished it. Its pretty good that I dont complain about Singapore as much as some people do when they're going solo away from family. I try not to let people see how I feel but sometimes I just do,but rarely. Im always listening to what other people say,I give advice,seldomly asking people about myself nowadays. How things worked out today to be a sad one I dunno, but that's how things are so what can I do bout it. >_________< L8er xxx

I wished upon the stars at
8:38 pm