Mada Mada Dane
Shaz FM: Over and Over by Nelly ft. Tim McGraw
Feeling: Great yet something's holding me back

Hah. You'd think that me telling people that mum was taking my laptop (which means no internet for those who couldnt be bothered to think that) and that I was in Sydney for Drama. Well,I'm back and I've got my computer back with internet and all but don't expect me to blog in everytime cause I've got 9 assignments in the next 5 weeks so excuse me if I forget lol. Btw, incase you're wondering whatever this entry's title is,its japanese and it means 'its not over yet'.

Things are going great here I'm supposing. I'm more open to other people so I'm working up more relationships with the new students and as well as my current friends. I'm doing good but there's still the whole Oliver thing. Lol I'm sorry to say it but yeah he asked me out but we havent done anything. Its been 5 weeks and nothing has happened. Im gonna be good since I did say yes,sorta. I will go out with him on a date then say that it wont work because it wont. He's really nice and a great friend but that's just what he is..a friend. I don't think it'd work out if I went out with him. I'll just be pretending and that would lose me a lot of friends,from parties who dont like Oliver and those who think I like playing with people's hearts.

I've got other people to think about as well. There's Tom and what's happening in Melbourne, Alex and her problem and all the other people involved with it. *sigh* It's hard to be neutral when you love both parties, and you just wanna be there for both of them and help them work it out. When I talked to Tom, its true when schools feed on gossip. It's sickening but that's the way of like. True,in small schools gossip can spread before the whole day is done but like he said, smaller schools are so much better then big ones. You build up a more tight knit relationship with people and that's the beauty of it. Sometimes you wish you get more privacy but you just move on and deal with it. Hah,I'm thinking back when Chris and Rae both agreed that I was a depressed suicidal but they dont' have any idea what they're talking about.

I've changed homestays. I must say I like this place better. Not only because the family is nice and that its nearer to school so I can walk, but I like the room so much better. It has a more comfortable feeling. I've even got a TV and a phone in here but its not like I use it a lot :P. I like it better cause I feel like I've got freedom. I may be the youngest here but the others work so I take my time coming back from school, talking to people who wait for the school buses and hug them. If I so came late from school like,even 10 minutes from my old homestay, A. Angeline would freak out and I'll feel bad. I may be 16 but these people treat me with more respect :P

For school,as I said Ive got like 9 assignments to do. Drama,Maths,Chinese,Business Studies, English, Ext. English and Art. Drama is a research paper and physical performance, maths there is an assessment maths test, Chinese is all we've learnt till now, Business Studies is based on a Stimulus Booklet, English is an interview on the theme "The Outsider" along with a folio work of 4 pieces, Ext. English is a 1500-2000 essay on the historical author-created work of Christopher Marlowe and his Dr.Faustus on the Elizabethan society. Art is practical pieces to do with the "elements". I've got quite a lot to do in 5 weeks. Besides that, I do piano, dance and also the school play. Busy,busy,busy. At least we get a booklet on when our assignments are due for the whole of Year 11 so I know what's happening next term and term 3 as well. Hah,I've got holiday homework for Business. Fun.

My plan for the weekend? Tomorrow,Im meeting up with Yani who I havent seen in ages. She starts college in April and I found out Hae Jin is coming down here as well so we all get to meet up. After Yani,I have my friend, Olivia's birthday party and sleepover. I'm gonna finish my homework tonight which is an english and art essay. Might even get a move on my Drama assignment which is due in about a week. That's it for now. Ta xx

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5:18 pm