Death is not the end of you
Shaz FM: Time of our lives by Paul Van Dyk
Feeling: Tired

Mm,just a little entry here. Got an email from my uncle. There is another loss in our family..do you remember the last entry I had when my grand-aunt passed away? Her son-in-law just passed yesterday..about the same time I was having assembly..12.30 pm. So sad. I feel bad for my dad's cousin cause she's lost two of the most important people in her life in less than a year..I am sad that ive lost people in my family but that's all I can say because I never really knew him that well. I would see him a few times but I never..Time is short so I try to make the best of it,though sometimes I feel like giving up and cry but that isnt something I should do. I'm loving it here in Singapore though time can be boring but I'm making the most of it. Whenever I come home to KL,there wouldnt be a time where my mum would be worried about my brother's health. I worry about him too cause I dunno how much pain he can take..if im not going out to see other people or doing my own thing, i'm spending my time at home keeping him company :) My grandmother as well. She's 87 and I dont know if she'll make it to her 88th so im gonna sleep in her house,keep her company for a few days. She loves me for it.

Heh,ive come close to crying like 4 times yesterday alone. So weird, I havent cried in a while. I remember how I had those moments 3 times last year. Will it happen again? Dunno.

Today wasnt such a bad day. Besides dancing yesterday till my feet hurt and coming home around 7, I was so worn down the entire day. Even writing felt like a pain. I saw Nick Carlton today. He looks pretty good. Melbourne get a holiday already pfft. One sorta thing I realised throughout this day is that people change in unexpected ways. Anthony has really been killing me with his attitude lately but today we were actually having a decent conversation. I find it amazing how I'm able to talk to heaps of people here without looking stupid or desperate for friends. I look at the way things are and somehow I feel left out. Like I'll hang out with a bunch of people but then I hear they're doing something and Im never asked, that's what kills me sometimes. Heh, you're probably thinking "Get over yourself" or "Maybe they think you wouldnt wanna come". Yeah it maybe that, but it does hurt when you hear everyone's got plans except you. That's just how sometimes you feel like you're not apart of things but still loved at the same time. *sigh*

Its gonna be a long weekend and I'm supposed to go out on sunday cause no one's gonna be here at home so I'm trying to hang with people but everyone seems to be busy. Maybe I'll just go wander round Orchard or something,maybe even go to the library..or I could just stay home and do assignments. Hehheh,that's it for now. Ta.

"Close my eyes,let the whole thing pass me by,there is no time to waste..asking why.."

I wished upon the stars at
4:33 pm