I've got that song stuck in my head. Its nature for me to think ahead. I was really bad this morning. My alarm went off at 9 a.m, and normally I take a while to get out of bed but for some reason I just woke up and went straight downstairs to get breakfast. My brain went on overload after that. I was just reading formulas, and my brain wouldnt process anything. I open my textbooks to start work and just the look of numbers drove me insane. I go upstairs to take a break and try to sleep but I can't. I spend my time complaining to Kenneth and Rae. I don't know why. I've been procrastinating a lot, especially for Maths. It's like I've already given up on it. I am gonna study on the weekend because I must. I must try my best and get a decent mark so maybe the 1 unit they choose is fairly good, not that I think it would but still, I should try my best. Rae made me go out and have a walk, and I thank her for that. I went round the block twice for 30 minutes, and I felt better after that.
I went out for a bit to get Clarinase (meds for colds and fevers) cause Dad says I might be coming down with a virus. That's why I'm getting cold easily and headaches. So I need to take one of that tonight. I also decided to buy a new top, and I went to the Dollings' hotel to get the money Chris wanted to give me. Aha, it was a rather good short time, but I blew so much money -__-. So besides spending my own money, I owe Chris money which I can only give some time next year haha :P
I feel that I might not get that UAI I wanted/need but I'm still trying my best, and doing what I can now. There are other options right? I can still go to Sydney and learn. Even if its to get into hotel management and then doing a post-graduate, I'll do it. I have time haha. There are other ways to get to where I want so I just have to live for today, not think too much about the future. So tomorrow, I will study. I will do questions, even if they're easy. I have to haha, at least I need to put in an effort. I'm not too worried about the other papers so its just Math that is my weak point. Just try my best and hope for the best. Ta xx
Everybody needs to start their own fire
