Shaz FM: Superman by Lazlo Bane
Feeling: Kinda Tired

The first thing I should really try to do is not aggravate my mother on the phone. She starts raising her voice and I always end up lowering the volume and putting the phone away from my ear. She's coming down tomorrow to help me pack as well as do preps for formal. I think I'm gonna let her do my face makeup but I wanna do the eyes. I'm gonna make her use my makeup too, cause I look at my previous photos and I look like a freaking ghost, cause her makeup is too light for me. I've been practising the eye makeup so I'm just going to do it my way. I am not allowing her to chaperone me to formal. Yeah that's right, my dad told her to. I'd look like the biggest loser ever. I told her that I paid the non-alcoholic price and that this is a Year 12 ONLY event but she thinks that someone will try and give me alcohol and get my drunk... 1) I know these people better than she does, 2) I trust them, 3) they're not really trusting me are they?

I've gone out with friends who've drank infront of me, and do they see me getting drunk? I've never gotten drunk in my life and I'm never going to. At most I've drank is 2 drinks, and even when there's heaps of alcohol, I'll pass. I went to my first house party and there were lots of alcohol there but I only drank a Breezer. There was sheisha but I didn't smoke it. My friends smoke and I don't. I'd really wish my parents would trust me. They've given me trust since Ive been here but don't burst my bubble now, when Im about to leave Singapore for life, to ruin it for all my friends there having fun. Another reason I don't want mum to go is cause I don't want her to see some of my classmates getting wasted. She being here means Im not going out to an afterparty or buying drinks for myself so I save money and keep her happy. I just have to tell her to stay home and relax, or go out to Orchard or something and leave me alone! :P

Only two full days left :O Oh yesterday was my last outing with my CB friends. It was quite an interesting night. Don't want to go into much detail but I'll definitely miss them heaps. I went to a Lolita shop. OMG, dressing up in that gear is the most fun. It's like escapism. I wanted to get a lolita dress so badly but I knew my parents would kill me. When I get to Sydney, Liam wants me to cosplay with his group of friends and I'd love to haha.

I think I should go to bed soon, especially if I wanna be awake tomorrow night. Ive already started charging my camera and stuff haha. Cheers xx

I wished upon the stars at
11:30 pm