Addled Rich Girl

2007-11-30T18:29:00.000+08:00

Moving

Like Rae, I've decided to move my blog because I'm getting bored of the layout I have already, and I don't feel like changing skins again so I've decided to move to Wordpress. All my entries after this will be done there so check it out!

http://iladys.wordpress.com/

2007-11-28T23:19:00.000+08:00

There is truth in your lies, doubt in your faith

Shaz FM: In Pieces by Linkin Park
Feeling: Full

Right~ What's new?

Saturday was spent having a quiet day in, until around 1 when we went to pick up Oichi and Chika, our friends from Japan who were down in KL for 2 days. Funny thing happened while we were waiting.

Our car broke down.

XD The funniest thing I thought. I had the craziest idea of wearing high heels so I was kinda suffering a little lol. After we picked them up, we went to the banana leaf shop to eat some local foods. A. Ann went home early that morning and she gave me RM200 \o/ After eating, we went home just to rest. In the evening, we went out a little to show them some of the sights. We stopped at the Padang just to let them take pictures, and it was kinda cool to just stand in the middle of the padang, taking in the air.

The next day was the awesome trek! Well not that awesome, we just went to Batu Caves, and climbed those steps! Oh and Dina got poo'ed on. It went into her hair and tshirt, but its meant to be good luck so good luck to her?

After that, we went to Eest to have dinner. Relaxed at home for a bit then followed mum to Pasar Malam. Monday was a good day. Woke up early to go to Bangsar Village cause Dina's friends were at Celebrity Fitness. Dina and me are kinda hoping to get a membership there, cause the facilities look amazing and the classes are something Im interested in, ranging from Line Dance, Hip Hop, Power Jam and Yoga. There is of course the other stuff available, the decent prices and the closeness of it all. Had lunch with her friends and went to the post office to send Kira's birthday present. She's sent the waffles (don't ask).

In the evening was my interview at RSGC. I was dolled up in a Baju Kebaya and went with dad. It was nerve-wrecking at first, then it got better. Really clicked with a few people so that was cool. Tuesday was spent visiting Tok Mummy and going to Sungei Wang. I've completed my Christmas shopping already lol. Im so happy and I still have a little money over to survive the week (decided to not ask my mum for allowance cause she only gave it to me on friday). I bought a shirt for Adam, a book for my dad, a CD for mum and a necklace for Dina.

And a newsflash. Mum's going for an operation. It's to do with her stomach lining expanding. The lining is the size of a 16-week baby so she needs to go for it. She's decided to go in on the 6th of December, the day after my 18th birthday, which is kinda scary. Not cause its after, but because its only a week away. She'll be in the hospital for 5 days, and me and Dina will be taking turns staying with her because she won't be able to do things much for herself, or the next month, but we decided it was the best time before we started going to Sydney because after that, when Dina starts school and me overseas, it'd be too stressful for my mother. Bec's still coming around the 10th so I'll just take her around the city and not stress my mother out too much. With this however, I think I might not have that 18th birthday party. Having a nice dinner with my family on the real date would be great for me. Perhaps I could have a get together with friends but where would I go? Can't have it at home cause mum needs to recover, so nyah~

Today was a quiet day just resting, and watching Dina play Assasin's Creed, which is a kickass game. And we found out an old friend of my parents' finally passed away yesterday night. She had been on a support system since friday but she was brain dead so her family pulled the plug. When I heard the story I was quite sad, and pissed off at the stupid MALAYSIAN GOVERNMENT. Seriously, when the trial comes, our country deserves it. She, her husband and his mother were driving home to KL. There were two parked trailers on the highway and she didn't see it (obviously no warning signs) so she crashed head first into a trailer. Her husband and mother-in-law suffered minor injuries but she got the brunt of the accident. Her husband called an ambulance. He demanded they drive to Pantai Ayer Keroh Hospital but it was a government ambulance and they had to go to a government hospital. The man is a doctor, there were no basics in the ambulance. They get to the hospital but there isn't a bed in the Emergency Room. He pleads to bring her to Pantai but by the time they got there, it was 3.15am. The accident occured around 12.40am. She was pronounced brain dead by then, no oxigen to the brain. I was quite upset for the family. The father was in denial for the first few days. I would be too, you know, if you wanted to go somewhere and you're a doctor yourself but you couldnt do anything about it. He waited for his family to come back from their studying overseas before they decided to pull the plug. The government deserve to be sued, it's gonna be a big case. What kind of COUNTRY doesnt have basic facilities in an ambulance!? And there are other things I could criticise about it but I won't.

Tomorrow Im meeting Ivan Chee, Ivan Chong and Ew-Jun at Megamall. It'd be good. I'm kinda thinking of changing blogging servers, like Rae cause I doubt Ill be changing skins in the near future anymore and Im kinda getting bored of my current one. Will post soon about it though. Cheers xx

2007-11-23T18:09:00.000+08:00

Happy Thanksgiving! Part 2

Shaz FM: Baby I Love You by Jennifer Lopez
Feeling: Somewhat annoyed but good

So where was I? Right, the wedding. Got there and there were heaps of people around already. I got confused with the setting. I've never been there before! So I was like, "Uh, is this the altar?" XD It was makeshift but the setting was beautiful. I spent a good 30 minutes practising on the piano silently. I'll admit I stuffed up on the song haha. It was hard! Cause there was this stair setting and the piano was facing the opposite direction of the altar. So I had to have someone tell me what to do and when to start/stop. Not my fault cause we didn't practice this at all! Luckily Nelson and Shufen were really sweet about it. I even got paid $50 for it :)

There was a reception after that and OMG, Shufen's wedding dress was beautiful! It was so simple but wow, I loved the detail so much. I took heaps of photos (Yet again, FB!). The dinner started around 8, and through the speeches and walkthroughs, the dinner didn't really end till like 11.30pm haha. It was good though. My table was awesome. We were having fun, making conversation and drinking wine. Hazel got kinda drunk after one glass lol. It was kinda funny cause she was laughing really loudly and we'd all look away laughing cause everyone was staring! The dinner was yummy too. For 40 tables, sharksfin and abalone would cost a bomb! We started getting drunk towards the end. Well not me really, I had about 2 glasses of wine and lots of coke. There were a lot of kampai and yamsing going on haha. Our table and the one on the opposite end were pulling all of the stops. It was a great night.

Got some pictures with the bride and groom, my guardians and my friends. I even held the bouquet haha. We didn't leave till 12.20am lol. Thank god I only needed to wake up like at 8 the next day. I managed to see Eliza before she went off to school. I went out to school for a bit to pick up formal photos as well as to make sure I get the school magazine plus the Year 12 DVD. U. Albert sent me to DFS to catch my bus. I was cursing a lot because I thought I wouldn't be able to bring back those two bags but somehow I survived. I was beat though. Luckily I had the ipod, but I think they were rushing, cause we didnt get water and they played the same thing 3 times running lawl. Got home, and just basically relaxed cause I was so tired!

Yesterday was a fairly quiet day. I didnt get out of bed till like 12.30pm, to go out with my mum and A. Ann to go eat Ikan Bakar. Yummeh! Oh funny story while we were having fun. Guess what happened to Dina? She got caught in the shower ~~naked~~ with a towel because the screw came loose! She was stuck in the shower for an hour and a half! O__O Michelle only found her after Dina didnt pick up the phone after 15 times calling XD It has to be funny when it doesn't happen to you. At least she got stuck, not have the whole thing crashing on you, like it did to me last year. It was a different door. So now the shower is doorless so if we want to shower, we go downstairs to my parents' room or Adam's. Stayed home and relaxed, until we had that thanksgiving dinner. Shiet, I've never been that stuffed in my life. I felt sick XD It was good though, but I felt sick. I went out with my mum, A. Ann and Maha (cousin) after that for drinks. Of course I didn't drink, because dad said I could go as long as I had no alcohol. The convo went a bit funny though:

Me: Ayah, can I go out with Mummy? She said to ask you.
Dad: Ok, but no alcohol.
M: It's ok! I can wait two weeks.
D: For what?
M: My birthday.
D: I know.

I'd be a bit worried if he didn't remember if it was my birthday (You should know why!). Went to Chilis and just chilled there for a bit. We were all exchanging old stories and drunk stories. NEWSFLASH! Stewardess' are wild creatures, including my mother. I was laughing so much it bloody killed me XD I think that's where my rebelness comes from. I know some of the people that mum mentioned and its so hard to imagine them doing those things, but hey! They were once just like us. It was a bit amusing imagining my mother drunk though XD, but much more hilarious hearing about my dad drunk. I have another story to add to my collection. The first story I heard was two years ago when my parents and Dina were in Japan. They had gone out for karaoke and dad was beyond drunk. He was singing horribly (he normally can sing pretty well) the YMCA song out in the street at 3am LOL! The new story is that one of my mum's friend who I know got my dad drunk on a flight lmao. Dad was supposed to meet mum at a transfer point on his flight. The first transfer, dad was on the flight with A. Rogaya, and he was drinking a lot of whisky, until she put vodka in his whisky lmao. When mum finally got on the flight, dad was wiped out cold XDDDD. God, I love my parents, despite their annoyances (Like that makes them parents without it). After that we went to La Bodega to have coffee. Hot chocolate ftw!

Today Dina and me went to Megamall. We had lunch then walked around for a bit. I got my gift for Kira \o/ We even went to watch Bee Movie, which was randomly hilarious. There are so many kinky jokes in there, its mad. No wonder it was given a rating of 3 stars. The review I read said that it was more an adult movie then a kids movie. I couldn't agree any less. Got a bit annoyed cause mum was nagging me about getting a picture frame for Adam and about the photo which she was supposed to do while I was in Singapore or at least me doing it before I leave. Put a small stop onto my great mood today. Dad's going to print the photo so I don't have to deal with it. I still want to check out the Gardens, the new mall next to MV, and Zara. Im thinking of doing that on Tuesday morning (as well as these two shops in Telawi), or I could just go to Sungei Wang *shrugs* We'll see.

We're having Louisiana dinner today, which is spicy salty goodness haha. It's A. Ann's last night in KL and it's gonna be a nice dinner. I might be spending some time with Ivan Chee and Ew-jun next week, maybe even Jian, seeing if they don't go Dota on me XD. Note! Carl's Junior is in KL, on the 3rd floor of MV. I'm sure you lot haven't had it yet so you must. The burgers are huge and can kill you :P That's all for now. Oh yeah, I have an interview with RSGC on Monday. Formal office attire pssh XD. Cheers xx

2007-11-22T19:54:00.000+08:00

Happy Thanksgiving! Part 1

Shaz FM: With Me by Sum-41
Feeling: Tired

11 days since I've last posted, and a lot has happened since then too -_- Ok so here goes:

You know last Monday was formal, yeah? A pretty awesome day I must say. Relaxed in the morning before me and mum went to Junction 8 to get me nails done. Didn't bother with hair cause I figured I could just go with the flow. Oosh (the place where the formal was being held) was bloody gorgeous! Everyone looked excellent and were all already sipping away on wine and beer. The food was bloody amazing as well. Ate so much pasta haha. The night seemed to go by slowly but fun at first then before you knew it, it was midnight. Some of my friends were beyond drunk XD Hilariousness. I did one vodka shot with Bec to represent our friendship over the last 2 years and had a little of cocktails but I wasnt drunk. I did however have the decency to bring Bec home after her drinking fest lol. Got home and just went to bed. Oh, I did my makeup too :P

The next day was spent walking around to random places and catching up with my mother. We watched The Game Plan ft. The Rock. OMG! The funniest movie I've seen in a while. He's a pretty good actor, and his singing is pretty good too. The storyline was sweet as well. After that, I went to Bec's place to eat dinner and hang before I went for my Linkin Park concert. HOLY CRAP, THAT WAS AWESOME! It started an hour later but DAMN! Worth all my money. Obviously I should have just spent like 30-50 dollars more and doshed it out in the mosh pit but I was only using my own money and I didnt have enough. I had a seated ticket but my booth was ghey. People didnt really want to stand up cause they had the chairs. I was a bit shy at first but then I thought 'Stuff this, Ive paid this much' and stood up and head banged and sang my way through the concert. So much for headbanging responsibly though, my head was aching the next day XD BUT IT WAS SO TOTALLY WORHT IT.

The next day, we woke up early (although my body refused to even get up) and packed a little. Damn, I don't know how much stuff I had. We filled 4 bags and still it wasn't enough! We each had a carry-on bag (we were flying), a suitcase and our handbags. Oh yeah, not forgetting my laptop bag -__-. Mind you, my handbag was one of those big leather bags which had a bit of my stuff in there too. Our flight got cancelled lol, but we managed to transfer to an earlier flight. Got home and just had a quiet night in because parents had a night out. The next night was used with a nice roast beef dinner. I spent the next few days, stressing out about playing the piano at Nelson and Shufen's wedding. I bought the book on friday and only started practising on saturday when the wedding was on Tuesday! I was happy I wasnt bringing my laptop down this time around. On Sunday, we went out for lunch at Eest, which was fabulous. After that, me and mum were dropped off at Sungei Wang to look for pressies for my cousins, Michelle and Danny. Btw, my aunt Ann is down, and has been for the past month. She's leaving this saturday though.

I was also looking for a wedding present. I was checking out some of the shops in Sungei Wang and damn~ I most definitely want to go shopping. I'm supposed to look for some christmas gifts. I got some money from SG so I can convert that and get some dosh.

Monday was travelling back to SG day. Took the 7.30am bus from MV. I didnt want to bring my iriver cause its USB-charged and the storage is shiet so I borrow Dina's ipod shuffle which helped. I had a book but I entertained myself by texting Rae. Arrived around 1pm and stayed in Orchard for a good 3 hours. Nelson came down cause he had to meet a friend so I just walked around. The night was a pretty nice one. Spent it watching TV with Eliza. The next day was tiring, but it had to be one of the best days I have had in my life.

Woke up at 6am with a nice wakeup text from Milan. I was already hearing voices at 6am downstairs. You know why? Because it's Nelson and Shufen's wedding day! They had a traditional chinese wedding start so it meant Nelson and his best men (otherwise known as 'the Brothers') had to go to Shufen's house. The men have to do anything the 'sisters' tell them to do. This included drinking something horrid with blue colouring, wasabi crackers, wearing old granny underwear over their suits and paying a sum of $699 to the sisters before Nelson got to see Shufen. I was out of the house by 7am cause I had to meet Dr. Lai Poh San, one of dad's close friends for a blood test (for Aus). I had to take the bus and MRT 15 stops from Toa Payoh to Dover. Dover is also the MRT station with the Singapore Polytechnic. I noticed in the morning that there were heaps of people off to work, and that those Poly students would be the same as me, all dressed up for a day in their course. Obviously Poly is different to Uni, but they wear normal clothes and even if they look simple, they all look good O__o

Anyway, took a drive to NUS (National University of Singapore) where Poh San showed me around. I was amazed at how huge the university was. They have a faculty for everything, dorms, gym and a HOSPITAL. Poh San was head of Research for the NUS Department of Paediatrics, and she's responsible for finding cures and treating those with diseases. This included the Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy (DMD) disease, which is the disease Adam has. Before we took the blood test, she worked with me through what their research does and what they find. She's a soft spoken person but the things she thought me were great. I felt like I knew more about my brother's condition, and how it came about and the things that they're doing. I've met her before but it was only that day that I really realised that this woman was yet another role model for me, just like Adam and my dad were. She opened my eyes to things that my parents have done, and being a foolish little young adult, I should really be more appreciative for what my parents have sacrificed to get us where we are now. They took my blood, but we did it as research, so that we didnt have to pay. This would also see if I might or might not be a carrier. It's a gene pool thing. Females do not get DMD but the son of a carrier has a 50% chance of developing the disease. It is currently an uncurable disease and DMD patients have a lower life span. I try not to get annoyed with my brother because I know he's suffering a little with the condition. Here's a bit of info on her research.

After all the tests, Poh San took me out for breakfast. Over it, we talked about travelling. Oh man, I was so interested and jealous(!) for the things she's seen and been to. She's gone to all those places, China, Cambodia, Europe, Taipei etc. The stories she told me were fascinating. I love travelling and the stories people tell. She's known my dad for a long time and I greatly appreciate having my parents as well, my parents. Despite their flaws, they're still great people and I can only strive to reach their level and teach what I've learnt to my own children, when the time comes. I finished with her around 11 so I had a bit of time to kill before I went back home. I decided to go to Marina Square to look around. Got a chrimbo present for Dina so now there's the rest of my family, Kira's birthday, Milan, Rae, my other friends rawr. I even watched a movie (Bratz lawl). I even had a little time to pay Bec a visit. After that, I rushed back home around 4 to get ready for the wedding. Was going earlier to test out the piano.

This concludes Part 1 of my recaps. I should go have my Thanksgiving dinner now. We have turkey and pumpkin pie. When you have an American Aunt, go with the flow! I'll post back after that on the wedding, yesterday and today :) Cheers xx.

2007-11-11T23:30:00.000+08:00

Wouldn't It Be Good

Shaz FM: Superman by Lazlo Bane
Feeling: Kinda Tired

The first thing I should really try to do is not aggravate my mother on the phone. She starts raising her voice and I always end up lowering the volume and putting the phone away from my ear. She's coming down tomorrow to help me pack as well as do preps for formal. I think I'm gonna let her do my face makeup but I wanna do the eyes. I'm gonna make her use my makeup too, cause I look at my previous photos and I look like a freaking ghost, cause her makeup is too light for me. I've been practising the eye makeup so I'm just going to do it my way. I am not allowing her to chaperone me to formal. Yeah that's right, my dad told her to. I'd look like the biggest loser ever. I told her that I paid the non-alcoholic price and that this is a Year 12 ONLY event but she thinks that someone will try and give me alcohol and get my drunk... 1) I know these people better than she does, 2) I trust them, 3) they're not really trusting me are they?

I've gone out with friends who've drank infront of me, and do they see me getting drunk? I've never gotten drunk in my life and I'm never going to. At most I've drank is 2 drinks, and even when there's heaps of alcohol, I'll pass. I went to my first house party and there were lots of alcohol there but I only drank a Breezer. There was sheisha but I didn't smoke it. My friends smoke and I don't. I'd really wish my parents would trust me. They've given me trust since Ive been here but don't burst my bubble now, when Im about to leave Singapore for life, to ruin it for all my friends there having fun. Another reason I don't want mum to go is cause I don't want her to see some of my classmates getting wasted. She being here means Im not going out to an afterparty or buying drinks for myself so I save money and keep her happy. I just have to tell her to stay home and relax, or go out to Orchard or something and leave me alone! :P

Only two full days left :O Oh yesterday was my last outing with my CB friends. It was quite an interesting night. Don't want to go into much detail but I'll definitely miss them heaps. I went to a Lolita shop. OMG, dressing up in that gear is the most fun. It's like escapism. I wanted to get a lolita dress so badly but I knew my parents would kill me. When I get to Sydney, Liam wants me to cosplay with his group of friends and I'd love to haha.

I think I should go to bed soon, especially if I wanna be awake tomorrow night. Ive already started charging my camera and stuff haha. Cheers xx

2007-11-07T21:12:00.000+08:00

Waiting

Shaz FM: Misery Business by Paramore
Feeling: So-so

Lol firstly Rae calls me up to try and congratulate me but I dont finish till friday! :P

Chinese exam was pretty good :) Although the BOS stuffed up the Listening CD, we're not disadvantaged so~

Migraines have been pretty bad lately. Hopefully they'll be all gone after exams haha so that I can enjoy my last few days here in Singapore. Just a short post to show what I've been up to. Should sleep early tonight and wake up early to study cause I've been blowing it off cause of my migraines <_< I HATE BEING SICK! Ta xx

2007-11-03T21:57:00.000+08:00

Love the only

Shaz FM: Whispers in the Dark by Skillet
Feeling: Stuffed!

I just had dinner so~ The last four days have been rather relaxed. Extension yesterday was fairly good but I really hurt my wrist because of it. Speed writing ftl! Thankfully my exam on tuesday doesn't require mass essay writing. It feels better today. I need to make sure that I'll be able to write essays next friday though when I have drama.

Yesterday, after Extension I went to Funan with Holly. I thought I had to install another 512mb RAM into my computer because when I had to reformat it at Toshiba, they said that it wasn't working and one of them wasn't covered by warranty. Holly helped me out by going to Challenger and we found out that both of them work. I was happy because I saved $100 but I was a bit bummed cause I had to carry my laptop all over the place haha. I had dinner with Holly and we caught up on things. She was also looking at small cheap HD-ready TVs when she goes off to college.

Today I just stayed at home and studied Chinese. I went out to Toa Payoh for a bit just to get dinner as well as to just have a look at things. I spent some money on make-up haha. I have $300 for the 11 days I'm here. I need to spend $45 of that for valedictory photos. And I think I need at least $200 for the last four days :/ I mean I'm going out on friday for sure. Then there's after the formal too, drinking, going out whatever. There's also cab money to think about. That reminds me, I've got a list going so I better relook at that, so I roughly know how much money I should leave aside. I've already started packing a bit, I've already filled a suitcase with most of my clothes. It's not that heavy so I'm thinking I'll leave that here to take back when I come back to Singapore for Nelson's wedding. I have one more hard suitcase, which I'll use to put most of my books and remaining gear. Mum's coming down next sunday with another suitcase, to take some things back. We'll sort it out then. My parents are going to Seoul, South Korea tomorrow night for 5 days. So lucky~ Hopefully mum buys me something haha.

I still think that 3 suitcases isnt enough lol. And I'm sure that my mum will be telling me off for the many things that I've bought, which I can all hide...except the big bag I bought lol. Tiramisu is waiting for me whee, so that's all for now. Ta xx

2007-10-30T10:01:00.000+08:00

Studying C.F

Shaz FM: Run To You by Whitney Houston
Feeling: So-so

C.F= Crime Fiction.

Which is our module for English Extension, which is on Friday, which I need to study for today and the days before the exam. I'm not that worried about it, like I was for Maths, because although I came out last in the class (there are only 8 of us), I topped the trials so I'm praying to god I get that sort of luck for the exams. Not that I'm simply hoping, I'm actually studying for it, cause extension will most likely top one of my English Advanced units. I also need to study for Chinese so I'm doing that for a week (exam on Tuesday arvo).

But of course there are things preventing me from studying today, like renovation works in the house, because in exactly 3 weeks, Nelson will be married o: So, they're painting, and making a new room/office for him. I'm going to Bec's house to study Chinese and Extension. Somehow, when I have someone to study with, even if we're studying different subjects, I actually put in the effort. I'm not sure what to study really. I think for Chinese, I'll just revise all my characters cause I haven't done so in a while. For Extension, I should continue doing that activity for my detective, then actually finish a storyline for it. Like I have my beginning and main story, but sometimes with these creative pieces, they might not give you a whole story, they might give you an ending, or a photo, or even write a letter to a detective, so I gotta prepare for that. Yep, I think I'll do that today, then tomorrow and Thursday will be for the analytical essay, which I need to thoroughly revise for. Need to look at my related texts again <_<

Right, I should get ready, hide all of my things and then head over to Bec's house to study. Might as well start a.s.a.p, although I told Bec I'd be at her house around lunch which is 2 hours away. It takes about an hour and a half to leave the house, take the bus to the MRT, take the train to her stop, then about a 20 minute bus ride but its worth it I guess. I get to relax a bit listening to my music, and I save up on money cause this week, I'm quite broke haha. That's it for now. Ta xx

2007-10-28T22:03:00.000+08:00

Get on with in

Shaz FM: Umbrella by Rihanna
Feeling: Tired

Its around 10pm now and I should be turning in early, cause I need the sleep and Im going to take a sleeping pill to really sleep cause I haven't been sleeping well lately. I've got three alarms incase I don't wake up. The weekend has been pretty productive I think. Yesterday, I did over 6 hours of maths revision, and I took a one hour walk. My legs killed me yesterday but today, it's just my stomach muscles woohoo. I didn't go out walking today cause I sorta got tired. I'm gonna continue walking tomorrow after maths is over and done with. I feel the stress but it's already too late to do much about it. Just have to sit it and go with the flow. Extension is on friday and I feel that I really need to work on that. So no more breaks. Gotta start working on it on Tuesday, and with Chinese and Drama as well. No more slacking haha.

Just a short post to show my dedication to maths, but to be honest, I'm done with the weird formulas and such. I don't even know what sort of stuff I'll learn in Uni, but at least I know it isn't all on this, if its like Business Studies, I'll be alright. I just hope that this doesn't pull me down completely haha. As I said on msn, its numerical overkill. That's it for now, ta xx.

2007-10-26T23:04:00.000+08:00

Let's Go

Shaz FM: Free by Powerman 5000
Feeling: Crazy

You won't get a second more so move it along
Because!
Living so free is a tragedy
When you can't be what you want to be

I've got that song stuck in my head. Its nature for me to think ahead. I was really bad this morning. My alarm went off at 9 a.m, and normally I take a while to get out of bed but for some reason I just woke up and went straight downstairs to get breakfast. My brain went on overload after that. I was just reading formulas, and my brain wouldnt process anything. I open my textbooks to start work and just the look of numbers drove me insane. I go upstairs to take a break and try to sleep but I can't. I spend my time complaining to Kenneth and Rae. I don't know why. I've been procrastinating a lot, especially for Maths. It's like I've already given up on it. I am gonna study on the weekend because I must. I must try my best and get a decent mark so maybe the 1 unit they choose is fairly good, not that I think it would but still, I should try my best. Rae made me go out and have a walk, and I thank her for that. I went round the block twice for 30 minutes, and I felt better after that.

I went out for a bit to get Clarinase (meds for colds and fevers) cause Dad says I might be coming down with a virus. That's why I'm getting cold easily and headaches. So I need to take one of that tonight. I also decided to buy a new top, and I went to the Dollings' hotel to get the money Chris wanted to give me. Aha, it was a rather good short time, but I blew so much money -__-. So besides spending my own money, I owe Chris money which I can only give some time next year haha :P

I feel that I might not get that UAI I wanted/need but I'm still trying my best, and doing what I can now. There are other options right? I can still go to Sydney and learn. Even if its to get into hotel management and then doing a post-graduate, I'll do it. I have time haha. There are other ways to get to where I want so I just have to live for today, not think too much about the future. So tomorrow, I will study. I will do questions, even if they're easy. I have to haha, at least I need to put in an effort. I'm not too worried about the other papers so its just Math that is my weak point. Just try my best and hope for the best. Ta xx

Everybody needs to start their own fire

2007-10-24T20:26:00.000+08:00

A week later...

Shaz FM: Le Freak by Chic
Feeling: Happy

...and I am halfway through the HSC. It's rather scary. I used to dread this period. I used to think that OMG, I would definitely die. Well, I'm not dead yet. I've done both English papers and Business Studies. The questions were much easier then I expected them to be which was a good sign but I don't really know how well I've done overall. I think I'll pass them except that I'm starting to worry about me not having done enough during the school year :/ I start worrying about UAIs and stuff, but I know that even if I don't get the UAI that I want, I can do a bridging or foundation course. I have maths on monday, so that's four days. I'm not just using those four days for maths, but to do my study for my remaining three subjects. English Extension is on friday the week after so I have 3 days to prepare for that. The weekend and the monday after will be used to study Chinese, which is to do listening exercises, writing and reading comprehension. After that, I'll have 2 days and friday morning to prepare for Drama. Then its all over!

I had major migraines during Paper 2 and Business Studies so I was sleeping early, waking up at odd hours and taking different medicines. I'm happy to say that although I got 7 hours of sleep last night, I don't have a migraine and I felt pretty good when I woke up in the morning. I've paid for formal but I still owe Bec $80. Today, I am happy because I went out for a bit to go shopping. Yes, I need retail therapy. Also because the next 3 weeks will be busy with my exams, Formal, packing and Linkin Park concert. I bought that bag I wanted, bought a headband and a jacket for $15. There's heaps of sales going on now for some reason. I only have $30 to spend next week but its ok, cause Im not spending it on food and I'm not going out on the weekend. I should be getting $140 of allowances for November but I've asked my parents to give me more money because I want to buy formal photos. They're dirt cheap! XD Well the cheapest price for one picture was $3 and it was a standard size so I'm buying 15 of it, which is a total of $45. I'm getting $300 for November, which means I'll have $115 to spend, which I'll need, cause despite the first week of November not going out because of exams, there will most definitely be a lot of money spent during that last weekend with friends, after Formal and the LP Concert. I'm not quite sure what is happening with my mother coming down and helping me pack but its most definitely that last weekend. So I'll just have to work around having some time with friends, and quality time with my mother, and maybe Dina if she decides to come down as well.

Haha, maybe I should take photos of my purchases cept they kinda look dull at this time of night haha. I gotta save up me money nows. I'm supposed to get money off Chris' mum except I have no idea what's happening because Thursday is tomorrow and I don't know if she has my number and when we're supposed to meet and stuff. Help! XD Ta xx

2007-10-17T22:15:00.000+08:00

Its coming

Shaz FM: Kiss From A Rose (Piano Instrumental) by Seal
Feeling: Like I can't walk

You know why I can't walk? Cause my feet muscles hurt. At an unusual spot. Ankle, front part. Why? Cause I was doing calf squats. There's something wrong with my muscles. My right leg is tighter then the other leg. With the right leg, I can only squat a little but with my left leg, I can go down further. Lol, this is so annoying. I so need to lose weight AND stretch these muscles <_<

Anyways, Ive revised the whole of Business and revised Paper 1 with one paper practice. Tomorrow is going to spent practicing 1 whole paper and 2 question practices. Reading Paper 2 notes as well then reading Paper 1 again twice. I think I'm ready for Paper 1. I need to be working on Friday as well though if I want to thoroughly practice Business and Paper 2.

I should probably do more stretches :/ I got a suprise call from Rae. That was an awesome suprise. It was a nice chat about her finishing earlier, her shopping plans and wishing each other luck for the HSC. I was laughing cause Ive never seen let alone heard her sound so excited before haha. 23 days left till I'm over. Take that, bitches =P I'll be one of the last people to finish in my grade but its cool. I'm just happy that most of my exams are spread out. I think I'm worried about all of my papers but extremely worried about maths, drama and chinese cause their revision process is slightly different. That's all for now, ta xx.

2007-10-14T22:01:00.000+08:00

Suprise suprise

Shaz FM: Kisses Don't Lie by Rihanna
Feeling: Tired

I went out with my dad to a Raya Party. I'm glad I did. The house was in Damansara Heights but the residence place, Idamansara is gorgeous! Im serious. Getting to Damansara Heights looks a bit dodgy but once you pass the guard house, you're wondering if you're even in the same country. That's because the whole neighbourhood looks like something out of a modern western story. Beautiful modern zen-like houses with streetlights and a smooth pavement as a road. Doesn't feel like we're in Damansara let alone KL. The inside of the house? Damn, its only like a three story terrace but its gorgeous inside. We went to A. Za's house, daughter of this guy whose first name I cant remember but their last name is Merican. He is someone of amazement, but I'll get to that after this.

The house has a pond, and plasma TVs in every room. The main bedroom has a study and massive room space and toilet. She has her own dressing room. They have a gorgeous cat. She makes delicious food (apparently their whole family are great cooks) and she designed many of the things in her house. That's cause she's an interior designer. Her brother is an architect. Kamil is the guy who designed our house. He also designed Idamansara. Picture here. There are only two houses that are being lived in now but they've all been sold out for a hefty 3 million ringgit.

U. Merican as I will call him is bloody awesome. He's 83 years old but he's been places. He's such an inspiration. He's in media communications. He's the guy that chose Negaraku, the first malay to graduate at the top of the class from Berklee College of Music (same class as Quincy Jones), the man who gave us TV3 and NTV7 (One of the former presidents for RTM) and he's travelled far and wide. He's amazing with his video and editing skills. We also had some interesting conversation. Have you wondered why in the 50 years we've had independence, that all the local TV stations have never once in their life aired a show that isnt in Malay? And that majority of Malaysians speak English but they don't change their ways?

Serious legend that guy was. Oh and I met someone who I used to go to Primary school with. Remember Pia Chai? The name feels a bit off but I have his picture from 6 years back in my memoir box haha. He remembered my name but sadly, I didn't. A thought in my head was telling me that it was his nickname and I didnt want to say anything cause he was always with his mum. Pretty funny though.

Good night. Last night in KL. Tomorrow evening I'll be back in Singapore and then Tuesday - Thursday is study English and Business as if dying (From Katekyo Hitman Reborn - manga). Sit Paper 1 then I have that arvo and the weekend to study for Paper Two and Business, then the arvo after Paper 2 for Business. After Business will be a semi rest day. Wednesday 24th Oct to Sunday 28th Oct will be studying Maths and all my other subjects. Sunday is entirely Maths. After Maths exam, I have about 3 days till Extension in which will be used for that subject alone. After Extension I have 3 days to work on Chinese (reading comprehension, grammar, listening and writing). At least the exam is in the arvo so I have a bit of time to prepare. I think Chinese needs more time so after Extension take a little break then do Chinese. I have 2 days to prepare for Drama after that so it means that after Chinese, I need to do some revision. Then after that, it's all over o: November 9th will be Zaneta's party. The weekend will be spent hanging out with some of my friends AND packing AND getting rid of stuff I don't need (notes from Year 10?!). Need to return books and get signed my exit form. November 12th is Formal (which reminds me, I need to pay haha). Im going to get a flight on November 14th. So it means I can still go for the Linkin Park concert \o/ Excellent way to end high school, the HSC and my time in Singapore. Now the only worry I have is if two suitcases will be enough to bring back all my stuff and how Im going to do all of this with my mother around haha. That's all for now. Ta xx

2007-10-14T13:36:00.000+08:00

Maaf Zahir Batin

Shaz FM: Play With Fire by Hilary Duff
Feeling: Uneasy

So the first day of Raya has passed. It was a pretty good one, despite it raining. I feel quite uneasy at this moment, like I can't breathe. Is it stress? Am I worried about the HSC? YES. And there's 4 days till we sit our first paper, then the wheels just go into motion. Do I feel prepared? Not really. Have I studied? Yes. Well enough? Only god knows.

Im more worried about English Paper Two, with the modules and remembering quotes and structuring a good essay. Modules A and B are what is killing me. Then there's business. Gah, remembering terminology and case studies. Then I have about a week before Maths and a few days for English Ext., Chinese then Drama.

Time is going by quite quickly eh? I wonder if I can deal with everything that's happening.

2007-10-08T21:42:00.000+08:00

Procrastination

Shaz FM: Rebirthing by Skillet
Feeling: Headaches and LAZYNESS!

A quiz I found on a profile.

:Your One and Only Wish
Do it one by one, don't look ahead!

1. Write the name of a person of the opposite sex. Milan

2. Which is your favorite color out of red, black, blue, green, yellow? Blue

3. Your first initial? S

4. Your month of birth? December

5. Which color do you like more, black or white? Black

6. Name of a person of the same sex as yours. Bec

7. Your favorite number? 5

8. Do you like California or Florida more? California

9. Do you like the lake or the ocean more? Ocean

10. Write down a wish (a realistic one). To go to Sydney

Are you done?

If so, scroll down

(don't cheat--)

THE ANSWERS

1. You are completely in love with this person.

2. If you choose:

Red: You are alert and your life is full of love.

Black: You are conservative and aggressive.

Green: Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back.

Blue: You are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you

love.

Yellow: You are a very happy person and give good advice to those who are

down.

3. If your initial is:

A-K: You have a lot of love and friendships in your life.

L-R: You try to enjoy life to the maximum and your love life is soon to

blossom.

S-Z: You like to help others and your future love life looks very good.

4. If you were born in:

Jan.-Mar.: The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you

fall in love with someone totally unexpected.

Apr.-June: You will have a strong love relationship that will not last long but

the memories will last forever.

July-Sept.: You will have a great year and will experience a major life

changing experience for the good.

Oct.-Dec.: Your love life will not be too great, but eventually you will find your

soulmate.

5. If you choose...

Black: Your life will take on a different direction, it will seem hard at the time

but will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change.

White: You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do

anything for you, but you may not realize it.

6. This person is your best friend.

7. This is how many close friends you have in a lifetime.

8. If you choose...
California: You like adventure.
Florida: You are a laidback person.

9. If you choose...
Lake: You are loyal to your friends and your love. And you are very reserved.
Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to please people.

10. This wish will come true only if you RE-POST THIS BULLETIN in one hour and it will come true before your next birthday!

Yeah the answers turned out to be quite true, well maybe except the first one lol. I've been procrastinating lately and it annoys me. It's to do with my lack of sleep or whacked up sleeping pattern. I sleep late, wake up late and don't do much work. As shown from only doing 45 minutes of business today. I'm getting way too stressed so tonight I have to sleep early. I am going to sleep early. Sleep early, wake up early then go to school and study. This prevents me from bugging around. I need to do business, drama, chinese and english extension tomorrow. I can do it. I have to do it.

It's a bit scary that we're coming to the end of everything and I worry about how I will do in the exams but I can't do anything about it. All I can do is prepare. One of my worries is actually not getting a decent UAI that stops me from not going to Sydney at all. I refuse to believe that I could do that badly but at the same time, there's a doubt in my mind that I'm just that. That I will do badly. Can you be both positive and negative at the same time?

With the procrastination I have, I really worry but I will pick up the pieces for English, and Business. I think I worry the most for Modules A and B but I have done my study for them. Just need to focus on Business.

Something just to ease the mind a bit:

You know you live in 2007 when...
1. You accidentally enter your password on a microwave.
2. You haven't played solitare with real cards for years.
3. The reason for not staying in touch with your friends is they dont have a screenname or myspace.
4. You'd rather look all over the house for the remote instead of just pushing the buttons on the TV.
6. Your boss doesn't even have the ability to do your job.
7. As you read this list you keep nodding and smiling.
8. As you read this list you think about sending it to all your friends.
9. And you were too busy to notice number 5.
10. You scrolled back up to see if there was a number 5.
11. Now you are laughing at yourself stupidly.
12. Put this in your profile if you fell for that, and you know you did
That's all for now. Going back to KL on Thursday so I gotta sort out the notes and stuff I want to bring. Im thinking of bringing Business, English, Maths and Extension. But it really depends on my suitcase lol. Ta xx

2007-10-08T00:11:00.000+08:00

Bleed it Out

Shaz FM: Keep Your Hands Off My Girl by Good Charlotte
Feeling: Sleepy

Yeah, I'm supposed to sleep cause Ive been oversleeping and wanna get back into things and Rae asked me to sleep so I will. Before that however, I took the Happiness meme from Rae's blog who took it from Nurie's LJ so now I shall share it here :)

Happiness meme

Rules are easy, just post 10 things that recently made you happy! Tag 10 people and force them to post this meme on their LJs or blogs alike.

Extending my time in Singapore and Chris helping me out with the money I need for Formal (I can go!)
Passing my Grade 5 Piano Practical Examination
Got my new external harddrive
Went out with friends
Hanging out with Bec on Saturday
Smsing Milan
Chatting with Trina
Putting in an effort to study
Booking my ticket for Raya (Going back to KL!)
LINKIN PARK IS COMING TO SINGAPORE! MUST GET TICKETS! MUST EXTEND STAY BY ONE DAY!

Yeah I'm begging my dad to let me do the last one. Im still studying which is good and I can come up with the money myself and LP are banned from Malaysia so that's another reason why I should go. Its after HSC too. Anyway, I don't think I can tag anyone cause the people who read this blog read Rae's but even so, I tag you :P

Now off to bed. Tomorrow I intend to wake up early and go study in school. Big space to study, I need. Ta xx

2007-09-29T14:56:00.000+08:00

Weight of the world on my shoulders

Shaz FM: Slipping Away by Trust Company
Feeling: Tension and stress

It's come to the end of high school. I was a bit bummed that it was the end. I'll miss my friends a lot and we'll only need to focus on studying now. It's quite sad how quickly time has passed us by. I was still a bit excited though, listening to The Great Escape by Boys Like Girls on the way home before going to see my parents. Graduation night before was lovely. Go check out my facebook albums for pictures of valedictory and last days.

My bubble of small joy basically burst the second I went out shopping with my mother. Usually I'm not one that really worries about what other people think about my body but it might be because I'm not over dad not letting me stay later in Singapore that I'm very temperamental. I've gained weight, ok? I'm not that fat. I can't fit 38 because there's a few cms of no space but Im swimming in the next size. I need to lose weight if I want to fit in anything. Mum started saying I couldnt wear jeans so I retorted with "It's not gonna change the fact that I cant fit them". I should just be wearing skirts and dresses so I dont have to worry about my bloody body. I don't worry about shoes now when I used to. Its just clothes. It's not my fault I have an ass <_< I don't like how I follow everything of my dad. Wide shoulders, bigger build, wide feet, and his sense of forgetfulness. Some people say I look better if Im bigger but I say fuck no. If my dad gives me shit about me gaining weight cause he's in denial and I look horribly pudgy in pictures, I'm gonna lose weight. It bloody eats me inside.

My dad forgot about UAC applications and he blamed me for it. I take some of the blame for not asking him if he did it but jesus, I was quickly walking back to the hotel after dinner trying to hold back tears and not let my mum see me cry. I was annoyed before dinner and the only thing that saved me from losing my head was talking to Chris on the phone. I just wanted to pack my things and go back home to sleep, and possibly cry. I've got a lot of tension within me now and it sucks. I need to get out of the house tonight just to be with friends. If I stay indoors I am going to snap. I'm not going on CB anymore starting monday for at least 6 weeks. I'll only come on msn once in a while and internet, 2 hours a day. Weekdays, I'm gonna study in the library or downstairs. Do studying, reading, writing, listening and papers everyday. Got a plan on what I want to study for each day so I just need to stick with it. I won't have anymore distractions after this but obviously I need people texting and calling me so I dont blow my head off. I'll probably need to do that with people as well so I dont focus on inner turmoils. I'm trying to get over this but it wont. I'm tired fighting against plans for december so I'm just gonna fuck it and go home. I dont bloody care anymore. People can visit me in KL. That's it for now.

2007-09-26T19:08:00.000+08:00

Full days gone

Shaz FM: Serenity by Delerium
Feeling: Excited yet sad

Hilary and me

Today was the last full day EVER for us Year 12s and our high school life. I had a free this morning which was used to write the last of my letters for teachers and friends. I gave Ms. Dethlefs her letter and present yesterday. She gave me a gift this morning. A crunchie bar and a note. The note is so adorable. Second period was chinese, where we spent the time talking about superstitions. I gave my teachers gifts before chinese. Mr. Hudson said my letter nearly gave him a tear in his eyes and he did the same for our class when he held us in class and gave a farewell speech.

Chinese Class with Mr. Hudson

Recess was spent handing out letters to the rest of my friends. I got a mixture of responses for them really. Some of them thanked me and hugged me. The ones I apologised to told me that I didnt have a reason to apologise for and thanked me for the letter. I got hugs from some of my teachers which was sweet. Lunchtime there was a party by the Captains. That was pretty fun. After lunch we had another class party, where I took a lot of pictures and watched the primary kids have a mock riot (which is illegal in singapore btw). Now I'm back at home wondering what I need to do for Valedictory tomorrow night.

It's rather scary that we're leaving all of this behind. My wonderful teachers who have pushed me in the right direction and encouraged and motivated me, the friends I've come to know and become close with, the school and country I got to know and come to love. My mind keeps drifting back to when I started Year 7, thinking that I had a long way to go before I graduated from high school and look at where I am now, only 2 more periods of class, foundation day assembly, final assembly, valedictory and the HSC. I suppose the last days of high school make you reflect on past mistakes. That's one of the reasons why I wrote those letters, to show some friends my appreciation for them as well as to apologise for things I could've done better in the past. If they dont accept my apologies, then whose to say I didnt try. It's quite scary to be moving into the world, and its even more not knowing what's to happen after this, going back straight to KL and all that. I'm really hoping my dad will let me stay a few more days to hang with friends and say goodbye. I'm bummed that people won't be around on my birthday but at least I can make it worth it with family and a few friends in KL. I can always catch up with people after, that's considering if I'm actually in the country or not..

Eric, me and Achek

Definitely have to sleep early tonight if I want to look normal tomorrow night haha. At least my parents are coming down and I'll be staying in their hotel for the night. I think more to come later after I decide what I want to do for Valedictory and prepare my gear. Will update more after tomorrow. For Final Assembly, we're singing a rocked out version of the school song. Can't wait haha. Ta xx

1 day of proper school left.
44 days till the end of HSC.

2007-09-24T22:28:00.000+08:00

Waiting..

Shaz FM: Byul by Kim Ah Joong
Feeling: Upset

I pitched the idea about Schoolies to dad and got shot down. I dont mind really, because he had valid reasons but for me not to to be able to go to Formal or Schoolies or spend time with my friends is the biggest blow besides HSC. My last exam is on the 9th of November. I am expected to pack up and leave by the 12th, so I get two full days to have fun? No, to pack that's what. I am feeling quite upset about it, to the point where I cried. Thought I wouldnt cry for a while, obviously I was wrong.

3 days till graduation.
46 days till end of HSC.
49 days till I leave Singapore for good.

2007-09-23T11:36:00.000+08:00

It's coming

Shaz FM: Running To You by Delerium ft. Rani
Feeling: Excited?

If you're wondering how on earth I got this photo, Liam sent it to me XD

It's sunday now, only 4 more days of school left. I know some of my friends have already graduated from High School but it hasn't happened for us yet. It's a bit of a shock really. I've been trying to organise little things to do before the end of school. Besides the little homeworks we still get, such as the Business Essay I have to do today, I've gotta write up my speech for Valedictory as well. I've thought to write letters and give gifts to my teachers for helping me out. I have 5 more letters to write for teachers, plus I'm also writing some thankyou/apology letters to some of my friends, which escalate to about 30 people. That's a lot of writing haha. It's to do with this RAFT thing Mrs. Besgrove was talking about (Head of Sec.).

R - Reconciliation
A - Affirmation
F - Farewells
T - Think Destination

I thought it'd be something small I could do for them, even if I wont get anything in return. Of course I could just email them or see them during HSC English Paper 1 but I think giving it to them before they prioritise everything on the HSC and before school ends. I thought writing letters would have a personal touch and sentimental value. They've all got similar elements to them but they'll all be different nonetheless. I'm going to make brownies as well, cause there are a lot of parties going on but I thought it'd be good to do something for my close friends. I'm looking forward to Thursday because I get to see my parents again.

4 days till graduation.
47 days left till it ends.

2007-09-17T18:16:00.000+08:00

I see

Shaz FM: Red Jumpsuit Apparatus | Face Down
Feeling: Tired

16 days is an awfully long time not to blog. Either I forgot or I'm just too busy/lazy to post. The beginning of the month I was fairly sick, not coming to school cause of my migraines. I swear I've taken off at least 1 week of work. The only thing on my mind now is studying and fasting, which started on monday. A certain thing came to mind today, in my Drama class.

A man wants to get married, and he has to choose between three women.
He gives each of them $10 000 and asks them to do anything they like with it.
The first woman spends it on making herself beautiful
"I want to look good for you"
The second woman spends it on golf clubs and stuff he likes
"I want to make you happy"
The third woman invests the money and makes triple the amount
"I want to raise a family with you and spend my life with you."
They're all good reasons right?
The man thinks hard and eventually chooses the girl with the biggest boobs.

* Bewildered looks * (Incase you didn't know, 2 guys, 5 girls and Ms. Weston)
Teresa: But you know guys don't like big boobs.
Amy: It's true!

Ms. Weston jokingly cracks it saying she's appalled at such a thing. She makes a comeback at Pirom.

"Why would you do such a thing. It's not like you go up to a guy and say "Oh sorry, I can't date you cause you don't have a big enough penis.""

We cracked up after that. I nearly had tears in my eyes. Its true! Guys look at breasts and you don't see many girls looking at that area, trying to strike conversation XD. It brought on the whole issue of sexism in our school and society in general. We were talking about girls selling themselves just for the attention of guys (Year 8 and 9 girls!) but it was also true that they get it from some of the girls in our grade who wear short skirts, have a low buttoned top where you can see their piercings and tattoos. Its come to a world where sex sells. We even then went to talk about racism and discrimination.

Talk about a good triple drama lesson. No more double Drama or double English \o/ Me don't really have much to say right now, I'm too hungry XD Got like 50 more minutes before I can break fast -__- At least I get to watch my show. After that, need to watch Peter Brooke's version of King Lear for Module B. Need to refresh my memory. Tomorrow shall be Brave New World then Wednesday will be Frontline XD That's it for now.

9 days till graduation.
53 days till end of HSC.

2007-08-31T18:12:00.000+08:00

Le Shock

Shaz FM: 22 Steps by Damien Leith
Feeling: Tired

I haven't posted here in nearly 2 weeks, wow. The last time I posted was the day before my Drama IP was due. I've been pretty busy after that. For the last 2 weeks I have been in school everyday, due to the fact that we needed to practice for drama GP. I was so happy last week when we had a long weekend. Why? Because it left me more time to practice the GP as well as for my GP logbook and Chinese Speaking exam. I think I did pretty well in the speaking ^^

Had my piano exam on monday. I think I did a pretty good job, better then the horrible one I had last year *shudders*. Oh internal drama assessment was shit and good. Why shit? Someone thrashed the drama room is why! Our assessment was in period 4 but someone came in and broke stuff in period 3. Our props were broken. Props which we use for HSC, props which we need for when the HSC markers come next week. We were very pissed off. I was ultimately pissed off as well because we started performing and we didn't notice that there were thumbtacks on the floor. I had to perform a whole 12 minutes staying in character without having any reaction to the number of times I stood on a thumbtack -__- The next day, we went to Mrs. Besgrove's office (Head of Sec.) and saw our four perpetrators. Year 10 boys. I expected it from like the lower secondary students but Year 10!? Jeez. Alex put on an act to scare the boys but that's what we all did. We were pissed that they would do such a thing so we intended them to worry. They got three days suspension.

Wednesday was the swimming carnival. I didn't participate cause it was that time of month but it was good to cheer on my house. We didn't win Spirit Cup or the competition but it was good cause it was our last event with the school. I think I shouted way too much which was a bad thing to do cause the next day was performance night lawl. Thursday was a rather interesting day for me. In the morning, I already had a feeling that my voice was going to disappear. I knew performance night was like a few hours away but you want to know the shocking things I found out yesterday? My ranking for Business is 20/37. It's not that bad but my old ranking was 16 :/ I'm still happy about it but the thing absolutely suprising me is that I got first in English Extension Trial. FIRST!? It was the biggest shock of my life. I thought I was being played or something. I've been last the last 2 assessments so by being first, means I've pulled my ranking up \o/ I shared the news with my parents. Dad just got back from London and he got me two CDs. Score! He got my Delerium and Flyleaf's new albums ^___^ Performance night was actually pretty good. We got valuable input and it was great to see all my friends perform much better then they did. Now we only have to wait for the real HSC performance. I did lose my voice after the performance though hahaha :P

I was so happy today. Why? I got double free in the morning. My first double free EVER so it was good to sleep in and wake up fresh. I also only had 4 classes which were all productive. I feel like I'm actually doing justice to myself in all my classes. I need to do more revision on my related and prescribed texts for English this weekend. The only time Im going out this weekend is to go watch a movie with Bec after her Extension Indonesian HSC Speaking task. That seems to be all for now. The days are going by so quickly, its scary.

P.S: Oh, I got my UAC book today, so I need to read through it, prioritise my courses then register.

70 days left.

2007-08-19T15:02:00.000+08:00

It's almost the end of IP

Shaz FM: Hello Again by Lost Prophets
Feeling: Good

I seem to be blogging in weekly sections. Trials are finally over! Maths was a bothersome exam. I had 5 more minutes left when I finished the paper. Drama was pretty decent as well. I didn't have any exams on Tuesday but I came into school for my piano lesson and to work on my Drama IP. My piano exam is on the 27th of August so I have a week to prepare. My pieces are doing pretty well, I just to need to work on my scales more. At least 45 minutes a day. On tuesday alone, I spent 3 hours on my IP. Wednesday, I had my Business Studies exam. That was suprisingly easier then I thought it would be, it was shocking! After that I spent 3 more hours on my IP.

Thursday was spent on intensive IP work. 7 hours of work. I had to even buy another logbook cause my 2nd one was finishing <_<. Friday, I had my Chinese Speaking exam. That was shit. I don't think I did good, and that sucks cause my real HSC task is this saturday! OMG. Besides Piano, I gotta work on that too :/ I spent another 7 hours on my Drama IP. On Saturday, I came into school to work on my Drama GP with Chris and Pirom. Our performance night got moved to the 30th cause the other group were hinting that they didn't really have much prepared. To tell the truth, neither did we but yesterday we managed to come up with a full idea. During this time, we need to create a script so that we can rehearse. This week, we're going to have rehearsals like nearly everyday. We really need it because there is only 10 days till performance night and 16 days till the markers come.

I went out to watch Rush Hour 3 again cause Eliza wanted to see it. Incase I havent introduced Eliza, she's this girl in Year 9 who lives in my homestay. She's from JB and she goes back during the weekends but this weekend, she didn't go back. It was heaps good, I laughed even more the second time. After that, she dropped me off at Nick's place cause it was his and Tsukasa's birthday party. That was a good party. It was really great to get out and have fun. We took lots of random photos. The party ended about 11.30pm but I followed most of the guys out to East Coast Park. They were drinking XD I found it amusing that nobody asked for ID o.o I had a tequila sunrise and Apple Nite, which is something like Bacardi Breezer. We walked around the beach for a bit, had mackers then Ford was sweet enough to bring me home. We took a cab and my place was a bit way's off from his place but it was late so he brought me home. Nick rang me up after to make sure I got home ok. They're such sweet guys.

So I got home late but that didn't stop me from waking up early to continue working on my IP. I woke up at 8.30am, means I only got like 6 hours sleep but I'm not tired for some odd reason. I worked 4 hours on my IP before coming to school. I'm in school on a sunday afternoon. The last time I did this was when I had drama rehearsals for DAGS last year. I've got my poster, flyer and program printed. What I need to do now is glue things together, type up my article, print the article (final copy as well as for logbook), finish my sketches for my three pre-layouts, write the numbers on the front cover, rip out my name on the first logbook then I'm done. I can do all of that tonight but tomorrow, I need to staple my program together. I'm going to be marked for my IP by Ms. Weston tomorrow and my project will be shipped off to Sydney.

We should be getting our exam marks back this week :/ Some of them at least. Wednesday is the Careers' Expo so there won't be any classes then. Thursday and friday are holidays for us cause its Staff Development Day. That gives me time to work on my GP, piano AND Chinese speaking. Oh, Dina and dad are in Japan right now. She's so lucky lol, she's gone 3 times already le sigh. Dina will be back Tuesday while my dad will go on to Canada, Houston and London. He'll be back at the end of the month, when my performance night is haha. Then 3 weeks later, we graduate and its Valedictory le gasp.

83 days left.

2007-08-12T21:53:00.000+08:00

Relax

Shaz FM: Roll by J-Status
Feeling: Confident?

I don't know how else to describe it, why I feel confident, if that is even the word I'm looking for about my Maths exam XD

Anyway, the week has been a fairly good one. I thought I wouldnt be able to deal with my massive migraines but rejoice! It's still there but it doesn't stop me from studying Maths and Drama ^^ I have both of those exams tomorrow and then Business on wed and Chinese Speaking on friday. Tomorrow, need to go to Toshiba and ask them to try and fix my external harddrive because it stopped working when my computer crashed during the holidays :/

89 days to go.

2007-08-06T14:22:00.000+08:00

Scare

Shaz FM: All Around Me by Flyleaf
Feeling: Migraine O.O

I've been obsessed with this song lately. The song reminds me of Olivia Lufkin's music and the music video is pretty interesting.

I must be seriously stressed if I still have this migraine. It's the 11th day and I still have it. It isn't as bad but once in a while, I'll get really bad attacks and then I just want to go and have a nap. Short attention span too. I have been going to doctors (I've gone to three, 2 of which are neurologists), been given medicine as well. I'm almost finished with them. I'm supposed to go see my doctor again sometime this week. I should go tomorrow, before National Day holidays start.

Sleep has been pretty weird for me lately. I slept 8 hours saturday night and woke up around 9.30am to study. Got about 30 minutes of Area of Study done before my brain energy left me. I took an hour nap after that. I remember reading an article in the newspaper about the Sudden Death Syndrom (SDS). Scary thought, that one. Anyway, I dreamt that I just woke up and I was losing my sight suddenly. It scared me, it looked like the vein was erupting from my eye. To just wake up and suddenly lose your sight, that's what sometimes happens to people who suffer eye injuries right? Either I get odd dreams or I lose track of time. Thursday night, I was lying in bed for hours before I fell to sleep around 4am. I didnt go to school on friday cause I was sick. My great uncle passed away friday morning.

Same thing happened last night. Remembered being in bed, trying to be comfortable at around 11.30pm, look at my clock and realise its 1am. Geez, and I freaked out because of my exam today. Paper 1 freaked me out as well. Did the CSSA paper. Did not get the question AT ALL. Question 2 was "people have different views of the same journey, write a creative response depicting this" or something like that. Totally copped that one XD I think I'll murder Module C though AND my Chinese Written Exam AND my English Extension Exam *sigh*. My head hurts. I need to take a nap. Ta xx

2007-07-29T15:58:00.000+08:00

Damn it

Shaz FM: Tambourine by Eve ft. Swizz Beatz
Feeling: Feverish

Just what I need a week before exams, getting sick! Gah, it's not serious but its a fever and cold. No running nose but I get cold easily. I'm in my room without aircon and usually I get sweaty but Im cold. If I turn on the aircon, even if its 25 degrees and on low, Im really cold in less than 2 minutes. I didnt study yesterday because I had a really bad headache, and I was asleep for 9 hours and still my brain and body was telling me to go to bed. My fever's gone down and my chest hurts. I'm gonna study for a bit more but I think I'm going to skip school tomorrow. I don't want to get people sick and I need to make up for not studying much yesterday.

2007-07-27T19:00:00.000+08:00

OMG

Shaz FM: The Way I Are by TImbaland ft. Keri Hilson
Feeling: A very itchy nose.

WOW, it's been more than a month since I've last blogged. I've been busy studying, mucking around and doing other stuff. I should really be blogging often but nyah, it's getting stressing with trials and HSC tasks and other things. I'm sure I'll be blogging soon enough. Need to post pictures but nyah. Let me get used to having a naked laptop. It's been reformated so I gotta restore all my files. Once in a while I'll post but here's to just letting you know that I'm still alive. It's not like people read my blog anymore but yeah.

2007-06-22T07:16:00.000+08:00

You know

Shaz FM: I wanna love you by Akon
Feeling: Excited

Ok, so you know when I said I would blog on Thursday about assembly? Well, I tried to but blogger wouldnt let me <_< Anywho, I'm at the airport now, stinging the free internet to blog to you guys here. Best be quick cause I only have a few minutes to spare.

Yesterday was awesome. The assembly was the funniest thing ever. First there was this performance by the secondary performance group. They did this upbeat version of 'Let's get Loud' by Jennifer Lopez. We were backstage dancing our hearts out. When it came to our turn, Teresa and Hilary went onstage to 'cry' which made the audience laugh. Then we came onstage..

OMG, it was hilarious. When we took off our jackets and flashed our Toppin shirts at her, the audience was laughing. We did our dance and came on, it was the most fun ever. Ms. T was very open about it, duh, she's a drama teacher. She was almost in tears. We finished the dance then we all group hugged onstage. It was cute, all we got were people telling us how brilliant we were. Ms. Toppin wasn't expecting it. I saw her just before I was going to leave school. We hugged. I'm really going to miss her cause I've had her for all the 3 years I've been at AISS. I wish her and Mr. Toppin all the best in their new school in Shanghai.

When I got home, mum came soon after. Instead of flat out shopping, we went out instead...for 6 hours. We went all over the place, from Orchard to Plaza Singapura to Raffles City. I bought a new black dress shirt ^^ Packed and said my goodbyes to my division members on CB. They have this RPG challenge which I wish I could do but they'll just have to win without me haha. 9th Division ftw! Yes, moving on..

So I'm now at the airport and for the next 10 days, I won't have internet, unless I wish to spend some money at an internet cafe when I get there. I got RM1000 to spend.. O_O. Of course I'm not going to spend it all on shopping and that. I want to show my parents that I am responsible with money. I got dad's camera with a lot of memory so I intend to take a lot of pictures. I just have to remember to charge the battery lol. Oh yeah, I have my phone even if I'm not supposed to. It's my dad's other number so if you get some random sms, I'll make sure that you know it's me. Of course I don't expect you to sms back since I'm in China and some of you might be picky about international rates so you just know I'm alive. I'll be back at night on the 1st of July but I don't have my singaporean number with me cause I gave my other phone with that number to my mum whose bringing it back to KL so I'll be using my dad's number then on the bus, I'll change to my Malaysian number. Only like 2 minutes left of my internet time so I best be off. Wish me luck and I hope you miss me Rae and Chris. Love you guys! Ta xx

2007-06-20T18:30:00.000+08:00

It's been a while

Shaz FM:
Feeling: Tired

Yes, it has. I haven't blogged in 10 days. I forgot about it and only recently have I remembered that I need to blog here. Honestly, the week seemed to pass by quickly last week. Why? Because of IFF.

I had 4 assessment tasks last week. After school on monday, tuesday and thursday, I would have practice for the Gumboot dance. I still went out on Wednesday though, to meet up with my singaporean friends. I even bought my skinny jeans yay ^^. Friday kicked ass. I wore my baju kebaya that I wore last year and went to school. The stalls were awesome! I tried food from a lot of places. Favourite stalls? Scandinavia, South Korea and South Africa \o/. The performance kicked more ass. The performances were awesome, I felt so proud doing it. Way to go for my last IFF. I got home incredibly tired, and took a 2 hour nap before getting up cause I had a party to go to. It was Hilary's 18th Birthday party and I was sure as happy to go. It was brilliant. There was alcohol there and people smoking cigs and sheesha but I declined them all. Well, except one bottle of Bacardi Breezer but that does nothing to me. I am not like my friend Olivia whose face apparently turns red after a few sips of wine and who gets tipsy at 1/4 of Bacardi. It was a fun night. I went swimming as well, and got home about midnight. Immediately went to sleep cause I had my IELTs exam the next day.

I freaked out! I was supposed to be at the Regional Language Centre at 8.15 and I got there on time but I forgot my passport! SHIT. I was so nervous, and I only had Kasper to keep me calm. Kasper is one of my classmates who opted to take the test now instead of during the holidays. So was Luiza. Turned out Luiza forgot her passport too so we went to see the staff about it. Thank god we saw the lady who helped us register in school. We were supposed to receive letters but I told her that I didnt receive it. They told me it was ok, and I just needed to bring it when I did my speaking exam which was yesterday. There's someone I should talk about but I'll talk about the exam first haha. The exam was easy! OMG. I enjoyed it but I was laughing at the last section of the Listening exam. You know why? Because they were talking about Australian Nature and the speaker was an 'English professor'. The way she was speaking was so hostile, it was hilarious. England vs. Australia. Aust. ftw!

Back to what I said before, there was this really hot guy there XD Excuse me, but he was so good looking -___- *runs* Anyway, while we were waiting to go into the exam room, we were talking to each other cause all four of us were waiting in the same place. He was so easy to talk to. He was 18 doing National Service who planned to go to Australia to study medicine in 09'. We talked about courses and other stuff. Then the register lady came out to checklist our names. He went in before me but I still remember his name LOL. Justin Tian was his name. Chinese, tall, fit and hot XD LMAO. When I went into the room, he waved at me. After the exam we talked for a bit while heading downstairs. I wished him good luck for his speaking exam. At the foyer, he went to talk to one of the staff and I walked on to the door cause I wanted to ring up my dad. I looked back and he was looking at me, unsure of what to do. I still went out -_- XD I'm way too unsure as well. So yeah, that was the first time I saw him and will probably be the last time. He made my day though.

I went to Orchard after that to meet up with Eileen. We were both going to Zouk for the Granado Espada Rave Party. It was awesome! The cosplay people were wearing awesome outfits. It rained a lot though. I went home early and just bummed around at home. This week has been pretty fast. I only have one more day of school left cause friday, I'm off to China. OMG I can't wait! It'll be so much fun. Last night, I started to pack. Today was a good day. Besides feeling incredibly tired, it was sweet. My drama class got mugs from Mrs. Toppin, our drama teacher. I've had her since Year 10 and she's such a lovely teacher. If you don't remember, I said she and Mr. Toppin were leaving for Shanghai and this was their last term here. She was going to give it to us on friday but I wasn't going to be here so she brought them out for us. It was pretty funny cause on the mugs, there was the word Tea, which matched our nickname for her. We tend to call her Mrs. T. It was hilarious as well cause Teresa didn't get it till like 5 minutes after, even after we were laughing about it the entire time. At lunchtime, we practiced in the theatre. Amy had this wicked idea of printing off T-shirts with her face in the front, and our class photo in the back. We're going to be performing at assembly. That's right! We're showing off them shirts and we're dancing as well. Our song? I'm too sexy by Right Said Fred. OMG, it's going to be hilarious. I'll be running up the stairs and dancing as Pirom will put a feather boa around Mrs. T and bringing her onstage. The most outrageous thing that we'll be doing but its totally worth it. Which reminds me, I need to sign her shirt.

I'll definitely blog about it tomorrow. I have an english assessment tomorrow. I shall be studying tonight before watching Heroes. Other things I need to do? Write a letter to my grandmother, write a birthday letter for Bec, write on Mrs. T's shirt, write up a little speech for Amy to read out for me on friday and pack a little more. Mum's coming down to spend the arvo with me. I didnt ask her to come down just to pack for me but cause she has to give me my phone, camera, souvenirs for the chinese school we're visiting and money for the trip. I get to skip the last 3 periods of school. Mum will come here straight from the airport. I think we should probably pack everything first. I need to pack my china trip bag, as well as decide which books to bring back to KL. I've decided to bring everything back except Drama stuff but I still think it'll be too heavy :/. For Ext. 1, I think I'll just bring my texts to read. For Drama, just my IP stuff. Business, everything. English, everything. Maths, everything. *sigh* I think we'll be able to get this done in 2-3 hours which means roughly by 5pm, we can go relax in Orchard for a few hours. Have dinner and shop muahaha. Sorry lol, Im making sure we go out cause its the last night for me to actually be in the country during the Great Singapore sale so I intend to browse around haha :P That's all for now. I need a shower. Ta xx

2007-06-10T23:00:00.000+08:00

Owned.

Shaz FM: Changes by Tupac
Feeling: Tired

XD It's been a week but can you blame me? I've had heaps of things to do. Besides assessments, I have 4 this week. I've also been having practices for Drama and for the International Food Festival. I'm helping out the Malaysia food stall as well as performing for South Africa with the Gumboot Dance. It's pretty awesome so can't wait.

I had a little taste of the Great Singapore sale. I've found skinny jeans yay, and 50% off. $34 and in my budget. AWESOME. I need to get something for Dina too cause she turns 15 on friday. I should talk about yesterday. I went to see the closing night for Mikado. Awesome performance. There were like at least 20 Year 12s who went so it was good. The closing party was awesome too. The lead role was played by Alex Dore, this really cool Year 11 guy whose pretty good looking haha. I feel bad for his twin though. They're identical in everyway, the only way you can tell them apart is their hairstyles and personality. I don't know what his twin's name is but he was congratulated and stuff. Pretty funny. There was a pizza after party. We crashed haha. Should have seen us. 14 year12s grouped together chatting and eating pizza. Scared the younger years away lol.

I did a lot of work today, proud ^^. I think i've misplaced my maths textbook shit. I have a test on tuesday zomg <_< Anywho, Im watching a little show before I go to bed. Night xx

2007-06-03T18:10:00.000+08:00

There there

Shaz FM: Valentine's Day by Linkin Park
Feeling: Tired

It's been 10 days since I've last blogged. Hm, well I actually forgot about it slightly. A few things happened. Last weekend, got a phone call from Chris and Rae which was pretty awesome. The week was short cause we had a long weekend, one which I spent in KL. My god, it was great to be back, even if it was for a few days. It's funny how I interact with my family. When I'm in Singapore, we talk slightly on MSN with the occasional call but when I'm back, I just try to make the laugh and try not to make anyone angry. I just want us to have a good time instead of worrying. In the time that I was here, I went back to AISM on Friday. My parents are planning on sending Dina there next year so we went to see the admin. It's a harder battle to get her in now that the MOE are stricter (if more efficient the admin lady said) so it might be hard. Worst comes to worst, she will be sent here to Singapore. It would be a good thing cause she gets a better education, and she can stay with my guardians. The only setback is that Adam will be left alone. In that short period, I was there, I met three familiar faces. Kavish, Ismadi and Jian Hao. HOLY CRAP! Ismadi is nearly as tall as me <___< XD but he still looks small for some weird reason. Must be his build. Oh and I met the School Captain who looked really nice. He reminded me of Ji-shen before he went to Geelong and got all buff. And there was this aussie guy with Jian Hao who looked hot lmao. I've just realised that I have an accent. During my times in AISM, I didnt really have one but after going to Singapore, I have one. Even my family makes fun of it ^___^;.

I got this awesome new top too, though I would love to actually get a new pair of straight-cut or skinny jeans but I just have to look harder to find the right pair. Either they don't sit right, they're too tight at the bottom or they don't have my size. Giordano doesn't have my size zomg -___- And they have awesome designs *sigh*. Anywho, a good trip. A setback was I only got 6 hours of sleep last night haha. Ah well, just have to sub it carefully this week. That's about it for now. Ta xx

2007-05-24T19:36:00.000+08:00

Dang

Shaz FM: Lift Me Up by The Benjamin Gate
Feeling: Tired and Full

Ok, so I've broken the whole posting in a week thing but I've been a lazy bum. There has been too many things going on, assessment tasks are piling up.

Let's travel back to Saturday. I was stressing because this would be my first project for Kids READ. There were only a few of us and we had to make things up on the spot. Thankfully I found a book which had to do something with what I had planned. It was rather weird. None of the Year 11s were there because they had a kayak thing and Steph wasn't there. It was rather amusing seeing the Year 10s run amok and build lego till it reached the roof lmao. I left earlier in the 2nd shift cause I was tired. Bec was staying over that night.

Waited for her to get here then we both headed out to Cityhall to get our Pies. Lmao, I never knew there were actually a lot of good food in Raffles' Place. We got our pies then took the mrt back to Fort Canning Park for A Midsummer's Night Dream. We stopped at Plaza Singapura to get some milkshakes from Carl's Junior. We saw Emily and James being cute with one another. We had to walk past them but we pretended not to acknowledge them. Later, we both sent them the same sms at the same time. We're such children :P

Fort Canning was a lovely setting, the stage was set in a way that the audience was in the middle of the scenes. It was absolutely brilliant, despite it looking like it was about to rain. We got there about 6.30 and already the place was quite packed (started at 7.30). We managed to squeeze into a small section up front. Me and Bec were quite bored XD We were lying down, talking about various things and we even tried doing our Indonesian dance which was rather hilarious. The play was heaps good. Absolutely loved it. It started to rain towards the end haha.

Got home then just slept cause we had to wake up at 6am on sunday for Tournament of the Mind. OMG! That was funny as. We were role models for the day and we did registration. I did the Long-Term Challenge and it was hilarious to see what all these kids could come up with. There was this kid in Year 6 who pretended to be Paris Hilton which was weiiird and this other kid who pretended to be George W. Bush and he pressed the detonator and instead of blowing up the 'island', he blew up America instead. Kids these days..*rolls eyes*

I was sooo tired :/ Until today, I'm still heaps tired *sigh* We're looking good for the Indonesian dance though ^__^ Oh, and I have to sit the IELTs test, Rae rae. That's the International English Literacy Test or something like that because although I am an Extension 1 English student who speaks perfect english, since I hold a Malaysian passport and Malaysia isn't predominately English-speaking, some Universities might ask for proof. I'm sitting it because I'm not taking any chances but it's $280 <___<

Oh news flash. UNSW Asia is closing!!!!!! WTH. It was in the newspaper. That was shocking. The board told its campus yesterday, saying it was gonna close cause the numbers weren't high enough. Dammmn, that's horrible. They just let people know overnight. They're providing scholarships to go to UNSW but seriously, it's not that easy for people. There goes going to UNSW Asia as my backup plan. XD Try harder for Sydney woman!!

Today was a good day. We had double Chinese but Mr. Hudson was away so we basically just chatted the whole time, talking about random stuff around school and nationalities XD. 2 periods wasted but it was good. I did pilates and Kickboxing today. Quite fun though I'm hurting right about now. I have to go and do my English Speech which is due tomorrow. Also individual yearbook photos are tomorrow and I look horrible. Me has a pimple on my forehead. This calls for make-up XD And I don't usually wear makeup in school but I wanna look nice for my last school photo. That's all for now xx

2007-05-15T19:03:00.000+08:00

Shaz FM: Listen To Your Heart (Furious F.EZ Remix) by D.H.T
Feeling: Hungry

My feet hurt. You know why? I was practising for the Indonesian dance. We have to be sitting on our feet so I'm not used to sitting like that for too long haha. The dance we're doing is called the Saman Dance. It's rather cool and Im looking forward to doing it.

Drama was good, me and Pirom came up with some good ideas for our Group Performance. Maths was pretty good, I got the exercise we were doing but I still gotta finish the homework. English was decent, we started our next poem and this one was simple. I've started on my journal entry and I've got about 250 words which is good, only like 400 to be safe. I need to do my Business Report soon and I need to do my extension 1 homework tonight. I'm waiting for dinner but I think noone's home, again XDDD

Oh looking forward to this weekend, even with the community service. Bec's staying the night on Saturday so we're thinking of going to go watch Shakespeares' 'A Midsummer's Night Dream' at Fort Canning Park that evening. It's a musical and it looks pretty good. It reminds me a bit of when I watched AISM's production of it XD. This one is so much better. That's it for now xx

2007-05-14T18:15:00.000+08:00

All Eurasions hot?

Shaz FM: Leave Out All The Rest by Linkin Park
Feeling: Slightly hungry

Love that song. It's from Linkin Park's new album 'Minutes to Midnight'. I must say I was rather surprised when I heard this album. Some of the songs were their style while some of them took on a new edge. My favourite out of all of the songs on that album is this one. And what's with my title you may ask? I had this debate with my friend in double english. Are all Eurasians hot? No. Its such a stereotype. I used to believe that they all were but I've come to learn that no, its not. They're more likely to look good but they're still a race :/ My friend said that the girls are hot, if they're skinny <_< LOL, that's a stereotype on another level. Reminds me of two girls I know who say they'll marry a white guy cause they want eurasian children. Reminds me again of the conversation we had in chinese where Stella was telling us who we were gonna marry in the future. She said I would marry a Malay guy. Somehow, I don't see that happening :P At least not now.

Today was a quick day I reckon. Maths was pretty good, I actually understood what we were doing and I should do the homework soon haha. I was supposed to write an essay for drama but Ms. Toppin let us use notes. I got three pages but I think I haven't answered the question, again. Ran some ideas for our group performance and I think I can get started on my IP soon. Lunch was rather good. Taught Bec the dance for the IFF showcase. English was spent learning the next poem for our Area of Study. I liked this one. It's called 'Of Eurydice', based on the Greek mythology of Orpheus.

Back home, completed an AMV which I am uploading onto Youtube now. I'm gonna do my maths homework before dinner. After that, work on my Drama IP a bit and try English haha. Ta xx

2007-05-12T22:23:00.001+08:00

That's The Way It Is

Shaz FM: Leave Out of the Rest by Linkin Park
Feeling: Tired

I love those music things haha but I think it would be weird if I posted them like every week XD. New layout is up, I felt like my blog needed a change. This one doesnt have buttons so its easier to view. Its more simpler too. I like this one ^__^ There's a song too, which I really like at the moment. There's a link to the meaning of the lyrics if anyone wants to see it :)

Friday was a rather unusual one. I handed in my narrative for English and then we found out what our next one was. A 600-800 word Journal Entry on this poem, 'The One Who Goes Away' by Sujata Bhatt. It's quite an unusual poem, to do with our Area of Study, 'Inner Journey'. I don't know how I'm going to write such a long entry :/ It's due Friday too.

I went to see Spiderman 3. I thought it was alright, though I can understand why some people don't like it. I thought Spiderman was rather stupid and anti-hero most of the time. My hero would be Harry <3 Best friend, bad guy, good guy, saviour ^^. I felt annoyed with Chester though. He brought like 3 of his mates. Leroy brought 2. I didnt know till that day and those guys didnt even bother saying hi <_<. Ira got pissed off with the guys, so we split after the movie. Good riddance too. Apparently Chester invited like 23 of his mates and basically took over the lanning centre at Cine -___-. I got a gift and letter from Liam XD Funny stuff. Got a Sakura figurine lol. Awesomeness ^^ Ira was really upset by the time we wanted to head home. She ended up crying in the MRT station, under the watchful eyes of every passerby trying to get on the train. Oh well, when you need to cry, you need to cry, no matter where you are. At least you have your friends to watch your back and comfort you. I took the bus from Toa Payoh with Cheryl cause she lives nearby to me. I slept early, around 10 cause I had the biggest headache. Leroy and Chester apologised to me later which was good.

Today was a good day ^^ Woke up early to go for Community Service. Before that, I watched ep. 125 of Bleach. Got there, and basically set up camp. There was this lady and her daughter watching, I dunno why. I let Sam and Michael try a hand at reading. Michael was alright but Sam was a bit too soft. We made Mother's Day cards. Graham, Michael and Sam all got a taste of what its like to have to entertain John Paul in the Lego Room. If you remember from last year, I wrote about John Paul throwing a tantrum if he doesn't get what he wants. I read the second half, I havent done so in a while. And I've made an observation. Group one pay attention for spelling but not reading. Group two pay attention for the reading but not spelling XD.

After comm. service, Steph, Scott, Kai Wen and myself, like usual head out for lunch but this time we felt like Carl's Junior so we took the usual bus to Junction 8 then took the MRT to Dhoby Ghaut. OMG, we ate at 1pm but the burgers are HUGE, even now Im still really really full. We spent an hour or so talking, about past events and what we're gonna do after HSC. We then went to get a CD for Scott. He was getting a CD for his mum. Ended up getting Michael Buble's new album for her and he got Depeche Mode's new album for himself. We walked out of Plaza Singapura cause the boys were catching the bus and steph and me were taking the MRT. There was some event going on outside. We were walking to the escalators when we heard someone calling out to us. It was John, and Ainsley, and Mr. Green and Ms. Fogiel. Huh?

We walked over and found out it was Drumfest Semifinals. John had made it through. We had made it before he was gonna perform so we stuck around. We saw Billy there, she was supporting John. We all grouped together to cheer for him. I saw about 3 drummers before John. They all had different sounds but I absolutely adored it. I love the drums ^^ John's performance was awesome. He started off techno, then did a bit of samba stuff. It was hilarious too, cause John makes this faces and he looked like he was dancing the samba while he played the drums XD. If he doesnt get through to the finals, I'll be damned.

After that, I went home. Was pretty bored at home. Had a headache again, took a panadol. Took the liberty of actually trying to watch cable, not many good shows on but I watched an ep. of Making the Video for 30 Seconds to Mars' video 'So Yesterday' and Punk'd. Did my new layout as well. Tomorrow is maths and start on my business report due friday. Think I should start on my English journal entry as well. I am so fucked for Drama IP. Im gonna fail horribly >.< I cant do my thing at all :/ Shall think it out. That's it for now from me. Ta xx

P.S: Happy Birthday A. Deb!

2007-05-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

XD

Shaz FM: Flashdance by Deep Dish
Feeling: Tired

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
- Good Enough - Evanescence
WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOURPERSONALITY?
- Listen To Your Heart - D.H.T
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
- Kiss Kiss - Tarkan (OMG, WTF!?)
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
- Enigma - Trapt
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
- Take Me Away (Into the Night) - 4 Strings
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
- Play That Funky Music - Wild Cherry
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
- The Memory Remains - Metallica
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
- Houki Boshi (Comet) - Yunna Younha (Wow, check out the translations and it symbolises what I'll feel once I leave home)
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN?
- My Place - Nelly & Jaheim (of course!)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE?
- Unpretty - TLC (OMG OMG OMG! I don't think that Rae, Chris!)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
- All That I'm Living For - Evanescence (...emo)
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
- Rose - Anna Tsuchiya
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
- Whatever Will Be - Tammin Sursok (Totally true)
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
- Tanning in Your Sunray - Initial D OST
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
- The Animal Song - Savage Garden (LAWL)
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
- Worst Day Ever - Simple Plan (LAWL)
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
- Luxurious - Gwen Stefani (holy crap, what does that mean? :P)
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
- Colors - Utada Hikaru
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
- Waiting - Trapt
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
- First Love - Utada Hikaru
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
- Never Enough - Papa Roach
WHAT SONG WILL BE THE SUBJECT WHEN YOU REPOST?
- That's the Way it is - Celine Dion (damn straight!)

PS: Its gonna be the weekend!

PSS: Thank you for calling me Chris <3

PSSS: I am in pain right now because I tried Yoga. I thought it would be hard cause Im not flexible but it was pretty good. Im thinking of doing it now ^^

2007-05-09T16:26:00.001+08:00

Watch me go

Shaz FM: Jerk It Out by The Caesars
Feeling: Tired

The weekend was good. Friday wasn't though. Woke up like usual for school, had a chinese assessment to do. Was about to go to school when I suddenly felt really dizzy. I was seeing flashes in my vision and I couldnt even stand up straight. I rang my dad up, who in turn rang up his friend who works in Mount Elizabeth Hospital. I had to go see him but I had to wait for Nelson to get ready then drive me there which is a bit far from where we live (its near Orchard). I was complaining a lot because my head hurt so bad. I saw the doctor about 10am. I was a bit freaked cause I thought I might have mycoplasma or something. I've been sick since saturday the week before. Mycoplasma is this weird disease which some people get in Singapore. It totally strips away your immune system and you're prone to so many things. Luckily, I didnt have that. I had a migraine, the first I've felt before. It hurts like hell. I got meds but I also got this injection to stop me from feeling like vomitting. I threw up twice. The injection wasn't normal either. Took it on the thigh. Usually, I can handle them but this one made my leg go numb. When he pushed down the stringe, it stung. It was quite a nuisance walking for a few days. Getting to the car was hard. So many people were waiting for the lifts. I was still pretty much dying from brain damage (:P) so I had to sit down. Luckily, the receptionist took pity on me and sent me up to the carpark by the service lift.

I went home to sleep but the most sweetest thing happened. My mum came down to see me. On friday. She took the next flight into Singapore and brought me Mackers XD I was so happy to see her. It was a suprise haha. And doing the things she sometimes does, she organised my room *rolls eyes*. I didn't ask her to mind you. The next day, I didnt go for community service cause I didnt want to infect the kids. Instead me and mum went to Orchard to look around. Threw some ideas for my formal dress, what I wanted to do at the end of the year, got a new dress and had the best ribs ever ^^. After that, we took a cab to Changi Airport cause mum wanted to catch the next flight home cause Adam was asking for her. Which reminds me of something Mum told me. The really personal stuff I'll post elsewhere. But you know A.Ann? She said that she might come back and visit sooner then expected, like in June O_O Which is like woah! Haha, that would be the biggest shock ever.

The weekend was spent recovering. So far, I've been doing my work. Got an english story to write by friday. I'm halfway there at the moment. Ive got maths hw to do tonight cause I missed a fair bit on friday. I thought today was a very slow day :/ I didn't like it. I'm so tired, physically and mentally. I'm resting now but I have to step out of the house later to buy my logbook which I need for Drama Group Performance. I can just go to Toa Payoh which should take about an hour. I'll go after dinner then watch Heroes then sleep. Which means I should start maths in an hour's time. Productive ftw. While I rest, Ill just type up my story. That's it for now xx.

2007-05-01T16:22:00.001+08:00

What?

Shaz FM: Rescue Me by Unwritten Law
Feeling: Sick

I seem to be doing weekly posts haha. Anywho, Ive had a lovely weekend after exams. Its a bummer then its all over now though *sigh*. Saturday was just nice. I got lost for the first time in Singapore XD Went to Jurong instead of Geylang lmao. Evening was good. Went out with Bec for dinner, pool and to see a fashion show with really beautiful prom dresses although I doubt I'll be going to them. Its like $700-1000 to make a dress XD but it might be alright cause you can get a free makeover, hair and pictures taken but I have to check out that place in KL first, see if its cheaper.

Sunday was a quiet day in. Ive caught the flu, so I've been sneezing a lot, ive got a scratchy throat and of course my voice is low. Been chugging down water like well, water. On monday stayed at home till around 5pm when I went to Nick's house. For the first time ever, a taxi driver didnt know where Tanjung Rhu road was, when it's one of the popular streets O_O Had a little complication when I tried getting into Nick's house lmao. After then went to Park Royal to meet up with my dad. We were going to dinner with two of his friends. It was nice, driving in Singapore at night. The two doctors were pretty cool. They even invited me to spend time with their family on the weekends if I wanted to. That day was the first time Ive seen my parents in a different light lol.

Well not really but it seems they didnt mind being their usual self. My dad let me drink my own glass which I dont usually do. I think of my mum like A. deb. She doesn't really mind talking about explicit things cause she considers us old enough. I only see my mum like that when she's with her friends but not with me. Yet sometimes when it happens, its humiliating yet hilarious. Take for instance, my weight. I used to be able to where my mum's clothes. I think I still can but not everything. I feel like teh shits now XD I so need to exercise. Make myself run. I've got up a size and I dont like what I see lmao. My mum bought these gorgeous jeans and they look absolutely lovely cept I cant fit them XD. God save my butt rofl. Sorry, I just found this amusing. Oh well, I can get another pair when I go back to KL \o/ Maybe I'll get to pick which one I want. For now, I'll stick with the comfy ones I have now. Mum smses me and asks if i like the jeans and if I dont, she can have it. I reply back saying I havent seen them, tell her Im out for dinner with my dad and his friends. My mother replies back "Ayah (dad) has friends? Single or married?" O_o ZOMG! I couldnt help but instantly laugh. All the males looked up at me XD. Had no choice but to tell my dad. Dont blame me for using my phone at the dinnertable. What do doctors talk about during dinner?? Huh!? XD Medicine duh. As if I know anything about medicine. They start talking about cardiologists, surgery and brands and im like dudududu, ooh when's the food coming. Lmao but sometimes they ask me interesting things like how unusual of me to have an australian accent XD One of my dad's friends ask him if my mum's a doctor as well after talking about careers. My dad says "No, she was an air stewardess but we didn't make her in the air, or in the clinic." WTF! Kill me now lmao. Do you know how weird it is to hear your dad say that and you cant do anything like run away or hide under the table :P

Oh good times, good times. Totally made my weekend. That's all from me. Im thinking of skipping out on school tomorrow. Not only am I sick, I have a speaking chinese exam tomorrow and I dont have a voice -_- Its exam conditions anyway so I just need to come to school and sit my exam. See how I go tomorrow morning. If its worse, then Ill get a medical note. Ta xx

2007-04-25T19:52:00.000+08:00

That Girl

Shaz FM: Drama Queen by Lindsay Lohan
Feeling: Giddy

Hola. Its been about a week. Exams have been stressing. The whole weekend was spent studying like mad. Woke up at 7 each day and studied at least 6 hours of content, with breaks of course. I was rather suprised with how much I could get done. I should adapt some of this into my daily routine so that I'll be more prepared when my trials come. I so have to work on my drama IP *sigh*.

English was hard. Chinese was good. I think I stuffed up Business. God knows what will happen with maths tomorrow O_O. Haha, I went to Julia's house today so she could help me with some maths problems I was having. I dont know why, it all looks decent but I cant apply myself for 3 hours. I suck in maths a lot. I dont even know if I'll get a high enough UAI to get the course I want, let alone the uni I want. Don't give me the motivational talk. I know what I have to do haha, I just dont think I have the ability. I've been getting about 30% for each assessment. That's bringing my UAI way down..im average in english, above average in business, good in chinese, above average in drama heh. And I've realised that Im not fit enough, I can feel my muscles tightening gar. If life was simple.

Anyway, best be off. Want to do an hour of maths before Heroes. After that, I'll sleep then wake up at 7 to study for about 4 hours before my maths exam. Ta xx

2007-04-19T20:20:00.000+08:00

"Oh my god, I was a virgin"

Shaz FM: Its My Life by Bon Jovi
Feeling: Tired

So quickly has the week gone by. Soon I'll be sitting my exams. I'm a bit nervous for next week, I don't know why. I have that feeling where I think that I have so much more to do and I'm not prepared *sigh* HSC gets to you. Thank god I haven't like fizzed out by the end of the week like some people can if they don't get enough sleep. Luckily, I have some people pushing me to sleep early *coughchriscough*. Right now, it's just past 8pm but Im going to bed. My eyes are getting tired so I think I'll sleep now, and wake up early tomorrow to continue work. I've got my whole weekend planned out. Focussing more on maths, english and chinese, with a bit of business. I think I can start studying for drama come tuesday. I have gotten all my notes, its just studying the plays more intensely, remembering quotes etc. Timetable is as follows:

Monday 23/4/07 - English Advanced (125 minutes) at 8.30am; Chinese Beginners (125 minutes) at 12pm.
Wednesday 25/4/07 - Business Studies (125 minutes) at 8.30am
Thursday 26/4/07 - Mathematics (185 minutes) at 12pm
Friday 27/4/07 - Drama (95 minutes) at 12pm

I'm quite happy with my timetable. Quite spaced out for me to practice in between. And to add more sweetness, we have a long weekend after exams because the week after is Labour Day. My parents are coming down here on sunday or monday to spend a day or two with me. On Saturday, I shall be attending the KidsREAD Volunteer Appreciation Day for us who have been coming since last year. In case you guys didnt know, I do community service reading books to little children. I have been doing it for more then a year now. It feels great to be able to know how to handle different kids and to have them know your name (even if it took like 6 months for them to remember mine :P). That's in the early afternoon then around 7pm, I'll be in Orchard with Bec looking at a fashion show woot. There's this boutique which sells dresses and we're both gonna go check it out. Oh yes, a packed weekend which is deserved after my exam block however my exams are far from over. The week after, I still have my listening on Wednesday, then speaking and reading aloud on Friday for Chinese, a whopping 15% of my final grade so I'll be needing to practice that.

Yesterday, besides having to study my butt off, I went to see Noel Coward's Blithe Spirit at the Drama Theatre in the National Library with Mr. and Mrs. Toppin, both teachers at my school. Mr. Toppin is a Physics teacher who thought me in Year 10 and Mrs. Toppin has been my drama teacher since Year 10. Its a bummer that both of them are leaving at the end of July for Shanghai. A last change before they retire. It's sad because I absolutely adore these two teachers but it'll be a fascinating journey. Was talking to them about it before the play. This company called Wild Rice performed a Singaporean adaptation of the play. They did an excellent job. The title for this post comes from the play. It's a bit complicated to explain the play so maybe another time, I'll explain. By the way, the reason I went to watch the play is because for my Drama Individual Project (Poster and Promotion Design), I'm doing Private Lives by Noel Coward, and it would be good research to see another of his plays, plus get ideas for my promotion and poster :) Alrighty, that's enough of an update from me. Off to bed. Wish I could say thank god it's the weekend. No, cause I'm not gonna be doing anything stellar, but good because I can have more hours to study hehe. Ta xx

2007-04-15T19:34:00.001+08:00

Dududududu

Shaz FM: Rolling Days by Yui
Feeling: Tired

So ends my easter break. It feels long but short too. Tomorrow is Term 2 07', Term 3 Year 12. My exams are in Week 2. There are 10 weeks this term. 10 weeks till the holidays. 10 weeks till I go to China. 11 weeks till I'm back home again. I worry about my marks now. My reports are telling me that Im improving which is good but there's the whole thing about how I can do better, how I can organise myself and push myself as high as I can go. I don't do late nights or drink so I'm alright with that. I have to go out once in a while or else I suffocate but going out of the house to do community service is good enough for me because I enjoy it. I don't go on MSN late now. I sleep around 11-12pm everynight, waking up early around 9 on the weekends so I have a full day. I organise stuff early on CB, and limit how much I spend on it. I leave my anime fix to the weekends. This week will be lots of working hard and getting all my notes ready for my Half Yearlies.

At least my studies is something I can control. The one thing that seems to annoy me the most is my weight. XD No I don't think its that bad and I can't do the whole diet thing, I fail :/ but I don't understand why Im 60kg XD Its actually a normal weight but it is also my max. Means when I've eaten I feel horrible, even when I haven't eaten a thing! I even tested something. 59 when I just wake up, 60 before I eat, 60 after I eat XDDDDD It's weird..but my weight has been steady. It was up and down last year, probably due to my dancing and netball training. Not only did I lose weight, I gained some muscle and look better. It's still that but I've gained. I don't even see it but I know it's there. My parents bother me about it, not in a bad way. I wanna be healthy but I dont put in the time and effort to jog around the neighbourhood because of my ankle, and the gyms are too far and expensive. When I'm at home, I dont bother running or swimming -__- I'm so lazy, least I eat well. It annoys me that I follow my dad more then I follow my mum. Big/heavy bones, big wide feet etc. etc. *sigh* Haha, of course I can lose it all once my studies are out of the way. I just wish people would just bother me about uni and what I need to focus on now instead of giving me problems on stuff that can be fixed later. I'll be 18 when it's over, plenty of time to change.

So here ends me now. One hour of anime then to finish my crime fiction story for English Extension, then pack my bag for an early night in. Been waking up around 9-10 lately, so I'll need to get back to waking up at 7am. Ta xx

2007-04-14T22:56:00.001+08:00

Tooth Ache

Shaz FM: Over My Head (Cable Car) by The Fray
Feeling: Pain

The end to my wonderful week in KL. It was short but it was one of the best weeks ever. Sunday was Adam's bday party. Got to see some familiar faces, have some random SingStar singing, Helium balloons and a whole lot of money XD. Throughout the week, I've been hanging around the place. On monday, went out for breakkie with Rae and A. Deb around Bangsar. Checked out Bangsar Village Phase II and caught up. Had a family dinner to celebrate Adam's birthday at Eden, went to an uber expensive restaurant in Le Meridian Hotel called Prime, which is a rip off of Morton's XD. They so have a long way to go.

Karaoke fun Friday night. It seemed Rae and me dominated the mics but we all sang many anthems like Don't Cha and It's Raining Men lmao. And I'm getting tired. An update tomorrow then. I suck :P Ta xx

2007-04-06T23:20:00.000+08:00

Cakeeeee

Shaz FM: Lithium by Evanescence
Feeling: Cold and Good

Woot, the end to a wonderful friday. I sleptover last night at Bec's house ^^ Woke up, bummed around a bit before we went to Bugis. We watched Meet the Robinsons. I haven't seen a Disney movie in ages and this one was excellent. I absolutely loved it. There were so many different bits which were great. XD It's a kid cartoon but its heaps good. After that, I took the MRT to Bedok where I met up with Eileen, Ira, Leroy and Lucus for Trina's bday party. The thing is, we didn't know how to get there! So we ended up just taking a cab :P We got lost at the Chalets too. Thankfully we saw Trina on the way and found the place, eventually.

The evening was spent going to the beach, talking a lot about life and CB, making silly jokes and playing with sparklers. The food was pretty good, the cake was even better. Firstly we waited around while Trina opened her presents. We got her this Ouran book which cant be found anywhere cause it's sold out. Tom got her a diamond bracelet O_O. Oh and her best friends tormented her. They printed out some really old photos of Trina and put them in this box full of newspaper where she had to unwrap them slowly. XD There was heaps of newspaper, the box kept getting smaller and smaller till she pulled out a Miss Piggy doll XD. There was a Hello Kitty dustbin and in it, this whole stash of small presents which had the same lots of newspaper thing. After that was the dreaded cake fight. Trina got caked by her friends and she went on a rampage. I suffered lotsa cake to the face XD. If I didn't clean it up, people would think I was beaten up or something. It was chocolate :P She ran around the place throwing cake at people. Her best friend got her back though when she put cake down her back XD. It was a pretty good night and I enjoyed myself. Tomorrow is comm. service then bumming around home before my flight. Can't wait to go home and see everyone again, as well as study my butt off :P That's all for now. Ta xx

2007-04-05T11:38:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday, Adam!

Shaz FM: Giving In by Adema
Feeling: Good

Heya, firstly I want to with Adam a HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY!!!! ^__^ Wish I was there haha but I soon will be. My dad rang me up and told me stuff about my school report, as well as courses. I've mentioned LaTrobe and the course I want. He sounded open to the idea ^___^ WOOOT! Oh and A. Ann appeared at our doorstep at 9am. WTH!? XDDDD She's from Houston, Texas btw. Means she travelled halfway around the world to be with our family for Adam's birthday. Only Adam knew she was coming but we shouldn't really be suprised lol. She's done this once before, during Hari Raya. We gave our relatives a shock haha.

I've had a very unusual dream. I dreamt I had changed schools for some unknown reason, except I knew a lot of people, from AISS namely. It was like some parallel universe lmao. We were in this big campus, where primary and secondary were together. People's last names were mixed up and my year had lockers which looked like they were in the changing rooms. I got confused with the new timetable and I got lost a few times. And I think I was given the role of Juliet in a school play but I didnt know my lines lmao. Oh yeah, I started talking to people I knew and I asked them about couples which were happening in real life. Everyone was in a relationship but they didnt know why I knew these things. And I saw Mrs. Besgrove. In real life, she's a pretty calm person but in this school, she was a biatch XD So bossy. Made me realise how much stress she would be in if we didn't have school captains. Lawl, a funny dream for actually sleeping at the right time. Thank you so much Chris XD Yet now Im too full of energy XD.

Gonna bum around the house today before I go and meet up with Bec. Gonna sleepover at her house tonight ^^. That's it for me haha .Ta xx

2007-04-02T14:51:00.001+08:00

Rock the Body

Shaz FM: Temperature by Sean Paul
Feeling: Normal

A week has gone by and an interesting week it has been. Well, more like an interesting weekend. My mentor is Miss Dethlefs, my maths teacher, and I havent had a mentor session with her basically the whole term. She also takes us for Dance so after CCA, I walked with her to the MRT to make up for lost time haha but we got a lift from Melissa to Novena. Twas fun. Friday was the last day of Term 1 07', Term 2 Year 12. It was actually a pretty awesome day. Business, we were going through our work but it was good. English was used to finish off all the remaining speeches for our last assessment. We went into recess but I had a free period 3 so it was ok. Chinese was pretty good, we played Who Wants to be a Millionaire and I sucked. I so need to revise a lot of my notes. I didn't have lunch cause I had English Extension where I got my assessment back. 10/25 ^__^; I just have to do better in my crime fiction narrative. Maths was uber fun, we played charades the whole lesson, and we got chocs from Miss D. Drama was awesome lmao. We were reading this thing on the elements of drama and we all decided to make accents up, twas hilarious.

I rushed home straight after that. Got ready for a night out. I thought it was gonna rain so I took a cab to Orchard. Went to Somerset MRT to wait for Ira with Eileen and Cheryl. We walked around a bit, bought something for Trina then met up with Leroy. I was bumming around Heeren because Trina and Tom were gonna meet us there. We were gonna go eat at NYDC cause Trina wanted cheesecake XD. I was waiting around when my phone rang. It was none other then Chris ^___^. OMG, absolutely fun conversation talking about nonsense and coming over at the end of the year. I'm sorry our conversation got cut short, Chris! XD I just saw Tom's head in the crowd and Trina rushed over to me. Well I got punishment lmao, she stood on my feet with her high heels and I was in shock for 5 minutes lol. Couldn't even walk properly XD.

We had a pretty good dinner then we walked around aimlessly till Leroy, Eileen, Ira and Cher needed to go. Trina, Tom, Trina's best friend and me went for karaoke. OMG, it was pretty good. Trina singing wonderfully to chinese and japanese songs, Tom having fun with Backstreet Boys rofl and me just singing stuff I like ^^. There was a point where Tom started talking with a thick australian accent and it was so hard to not laugh when he talks while I sing. Left Orchard at about 12.15am XD A first ever. Got home and I was wiped. I had to wake up early the next day too for Community Service. OMG, that was the best fun ever. I was a tad late cause I forgot how long it took to get to the Community Centre. At least they only finished the reading so I could get into it. I got an invitation for the Volunteer Appreciation Day held by the NLB (National Library Board). I was really suprised when Mrs. Nilon and Mr. DeBrincat came. I mean I knew Mrs. Nilon was Director of Community Service but I didnt expect her to bring the Head of PE with her. Yes, they are dating but XD it was pretty funny seeing him in the play room. I felt like I was in control lol. I mean cause I've already been doing this for a year and I knew what to do. I want to continue doing this, even if its for an hour till I graduate. Its good fun and practice.

After Comm. Service, I took a very long bus ride with Mike. He slept while I listened to music. Got off at Far East and browsed the shops. There were some pretty nice stuff but alas, I'm broke. Met up with Ira, had lunch then went to Ang Mo Kio to catch a bus to Cher's house. We spent the whole day at her house haha. I didnt think Cher lived so close to my house. I mean we're like 2 bus stops away from each other XD. Mm, it was heaps good save that stupid movie with looked like it had porn cause there was a sex scene and it was rated R. The funny thing is we showed it to Cher's mother before and she was like ok. So when she came back down and asked why we changed the movie, I simply replied "because it got boring" XD. Got home about 10.30pm and stayed online for a bit.

Sunday was a quiet day. Stayed home just organising things then left the house at 3.40pm to meet Bec at Vivo. Bought some candy from Candy Empire then went for dinner at Modesto's. OMG, there were so many nice shops but I didnt have money <_<. We played pool for about an hour before we watched Stomp the Yard which is such a wicked movie if you like dancing ^__^. Oh and you know how malls are not so cold and cinemas are freezing? In Vivo it was the other way around. Walking around, I was freezing and I didnt have a jumper. To my suprise I was alright in the cinema, it felt warm lmao. Nyah, had ice cream at Ben & Jerry's then took the MRT home. Got home about 10.30pm and stayed online till like 2 am. Yes it was April Fool's Day and I got pwned majorly. Too many bad things Im thinking off so I totally lost the plot. Believed my friends were fighting, believed sarah's maid committed suicide, believed Cher was crying, all those things. I cried last night and I got majorly pissed but not at those tricks, just at the bad things that I had to deal with.

Everything's fine now I think. I feel normal. I had a good chat with Gustavo last night and that helped me heaps. Right now, Im just relaxing a bit before I go on to note taking for Business Studies. Ta xx

2007-03-26T17:52:00.001+08:00

Left Justified

Shaz FM: Over My Head (Cable Car) by The Fray
Feeling: Hungry

It's over. I don't have any more assessments this term. All I have to do is finish all the work Im given this week, then use the holidays to study my butt off. Firstly, weekend. It was a very very quiet one, although some interesting things happened. Friday, I rang up Liam XD That was the most unusual phone conversation ever. First, I was totally shocked by his voice, was really expecting something else. Second, we talk about random trivia about Haruhi and then about accents lmao. I was talking to Bec, and the whole university thing? Well I'm keeping my options open but right now, Im having doubts about going to Sydney. I have no idea why. I feel like I won't cope over there, I feel like it's not cut out for me XD A bit silly to say now seeing I've only visited there, never lived there but I'm a hopeless case. I can't cook to save my life and living with the Kavanaghs (Family Friends) seem like a scary experience for me. I have friends there but I still don't feel like its for me. Of course it doesn't mean I wont apply for the unis in Syd :)

My options for Sydney are University of Sydney and University of New South Wales. I have three other options at the moment.

I study here at the University of New South Wales Asia except if they don't add anymore commerce courses, I wont have the one I want. The benefits of living here is that I already have somewhere to live, I have made lots of friends here, I know my way around, and my family will still get to see me.
I go and study at the University of Western Australia (Perth). It's closer to home so my family will still be able to visit me.
I go to Melbourne instead, at La Trobe University. The benefits of studying here is that Bec's gonna live there, in her old house. I could be roommates with her, and cut costs down. I've known her for three years so I'm already comfortable with her. She will have heaps of family there, plus her family will come down and visit often. It's close to La Trobe and I have friends here. The only thing is that it's quite unlikely my family will visit me. I'm looking forward to this option at this point. I checked out the courses at La Trobe and I found one which was absolutely perfect. Bachelor of Business (Hospitality and Tourism). The UAI is 50 O_O, only cause most people want to go to Melbourne Uni or Monash.

I'm leaving my options open for now but I'm gonna start cutting down options in June/July. Tomorrow after school, I have a Chinese Trip meeting, and since my guardian or my parents aren't around, Im gonna go there and get more info ^^ On Thursday, Year 12 get a BBQ to end our first semester of Year 12 (OMG, we're nearly there!) then the Term ends on Friday. Partayy XD. Oh you know the forums I go to? Club Bleach? And how I've met up with a few members already a few times? Friday will be the ultimate fun ever. Trina and Tom, fellow CBers from Australia are coming down this friday \o/ We're all gonna meet up so there will be 7 of us roaming Orchard lol. It's gonna be a bit weird about Tom after what's happened but we've dealt with it and by gones are by gones so I believe we'll still get along pretty well ^_^. Plus, Liam is expecting another call from us haha.

I'm staying in Singapore for one week. What I have to do:

Compile a dossier for my detective and start writing my crime fiction story.
Practice piano
Buy Adam a present (His bday is 5th of April)
Buy Trina a present
Continue working on my IP for drama.
Study for English - Finding another related text; compile my King Lear, Brave New World and Blade Runner notes; compile Frontline notes.
Study for Business Studies - Compile notes for: Business Management and Change; Financial Planning and Management; and Marketing.
Study for Chinese - Revise Year 12 content; keep writing 4 essays; recognising and writing characters.
Study for Drama - Reread Irish Theatre booklet, compile notes for Irish Theatre and Australian Theatre.
Study for Maths
Pack

I'm going to Trina's 21st Birthday Party friday night next week. The next day, I leave at 3.25pm back for KL. Adam has his 16th bday party on Sunday the 8th. For that whole week, I will just need to revise my notes, do more maths and I can do some of the things I want to do with my family. Exams start 23rd of April (2nd week back). I also need to go see Blithe's Spirit by Noel Coward, a play which will be set in a Singaporean context the first week back of Term 3 Year 12. Right, that's all from me. I have to do by business homework plus find 'The Removalists' play because I need to do work for Drama tomorrow. Oh yeah, and practice piano too cause I have class. Ta xx

2007-03-21T21:25:00.001+08:00

Woah

Shaz FM: Kiss Me Goodbye by Angela Aki
Feeling: Slightly tired

Its been nearly a month since Ive last blogged and I havent even realised it. I've been really caught up with real life and school that I dont have the time to blog. Im abusing it haha when I said that I would try to keep active as much as I can. I've been having problems with my internet lately. It keeps jumping and its really annoying. Hopefully Nelson can help me fix it up tonight.

Some updates since last. Last week would have had to be the most tiring and best weeks Ive had so far. School was pretty good, I was going pretty good with work and that; after school I'd help out the school captains with preps for the social. Two days I didnt get home till late! Tuesday night got home at 10.30pm and the next day 8.30! In the end the final result was a.w.e.s.o.m.e . We made heaps of money and I loved how everybody dressed up. After that met up with my parents and Dina. Din was on holiday so she came along. We had a wicked dinner at the Tanglin Club. Dina sleptover. The next day we had lunch at the Pan Pacific hotel with A. Joanne, one of mum's best friends during their air stewardess days. Headed to the Australia Education Fair and picked up a few things from UNSW and Uni of Syd. Had time to go shopping whee ^^ Bought a funky top. Dinner was at Morton's which was lovely.

A pretty tiring week but a pretty awesome one. This week is pretty laid back, just preparing for my english assessment and drama IP. 7 more days of the term. Need to really do more studying, especially Maths. Right now, I have some business homework to do. That's all for now :P Ta xx

2007-02-26T22:06:00.001+08:00

Go Around The Place

Shaz FM: Scandal by Kangsta and Vanness
Feeling: Headache

So its Monday, the first day of my one assessment for everyday of the week. Drama. It was pretty good I reckon. I mean I got some research done, got some good tips from my classmates. I loved everybody's performance, I think when come HSC time, they'll be all great :) I have a vision for my design concept, I just need to get right down to it. After the whole assessment, we were given info on our next one which is in Week 8. I'm paired up with Amy for this assessment and we're doing Beauty Queen of Leenane which is fun. Amy will be the old senile woman Mag and I'll be the pissing off middle-aged daughter Maureen XD. English was good. We started on Module C, which is 'Telling the Truth'. Our prescribed text is Frontline which is a mockumentary and it is pretty good. I have a few related texts already ^_^.

Mm, this week I think I'm set for my assessments except maybe maths. I've got double maths tomorrow which shall be used for study ^_^. I think I need more help with Chapter 2 <_< which I shall ask Miss D. My business test is 2nd period, hopefully it'll be ok. Just reading all the notes which I took on sunday.

I have a massive headache. I think I know why. I slept late last night because I could not sleep whatsoever, doing last minute preps for Drama. I think I slept about 1.30am. And then Sander misses me too much so he calls me at 4.45 in the morning -__- I hung up after 5 minutes cause I was dozing off muahaha. I woke up late the next day haha but at least I had a free. And I've just realised something, I can hear the warning bell from my room rofl. I didn't fall asleep in school though I did yawn a fair lot. I took a nap when I got home, more then an hour's worth but my head still hurts -_-.

Lemme say something about my saturday. It was the most fun I've had in ages. Met up with Nicko and Eric at Bugis Junction around 2 for coffee. I got there a bit early so I went through the shops. Zomg I have to go here next time instead of Orchard, much more fun ^_^. We had coffee for a bit then walked around before taking a cab to Marina Square. Oh I died there, there were so many shops and cheap ones which sold really nice stuff so must go there again :D. We went bowling and I got 2nd place \o/. Then we played pool which I sucked a lot in. Did wayyy to many jump shots though I managed to sink one in using that method. Went three in a row haha.

After that we walked around the place, walked to the Esplanade, walked through Boat Quay, walked back to Citylink Mall, then took the MRT back home. I had a few hours to kill before I followed my guardians to their relative's place for a BBQ. It was yummmmm! XD Though most of them spoke chinese, they treated me really nicely. I gambled a little bit. Lost $2 XD but then I got Hong Bao ^^. This is the first CNY that I can remember where I got money. And I did pretty good. $106 woot \o/. We stayed there pretty late, till like 2am O_O The latest that I've ever been out for.

So so that's it for now. Need to do my business reading and the Global Globes rerun is on right now. 8 more assessments to go! Ta xx

2007-02-20T21:36:00.000+08:00

Happy CNY

Shaz FM: I Don't Need a Man by Pussycat Dolls
Feeling: Full

A week has passed and it just feels like a blur. I've had like 5 days in KL and I have school tomorrow but it just feels like Vday was the day before. Means I havent been doing much, eh? Well not really, cause I have english tomorrow, my assessment. I need my quotes from King Lear. My theme is family ties. I need to prepare Ran too <_<.

I feel full because A. Shirlena had family over for CNY. There was a big seafood feast and I've eaten so much. I just had to excuse myself because Ive got work to do -_-. Year 12 is tiring. I went through this UAC book and read up on all the universities and courses I'm interested in. Least I know a bit more of what the requirements are. KL was good, spent most of my time at home, watching Veronica Mars. I've finished the first season of Heroes O__O. I went to Megamall and KLCC in one day, buying only funky purple eyeliner XD. Yeah, well shopping for another time when shops are actually open.

Alrighty, that's enough from me. Work to do yay <__< Ta xx

P.S: Btw Rae if you're reading this, let your mum know my mum's been trying to contact her haha. She only found out your mum was down in Sydney after I told her :P

2007-02-14T22:28:00.000+08:00

Happy Vday to you

Shaz FM: Happy Valentine's Day by Outkast
Feeling: Tired

Aha, so yeah the lame day has come but it was not a lame day in school no sirree but first I should describe my Tuesday. I suppose it was a normal day in school. I owned Primitive Functions in maths woot, now just have to work on the rest of Chapter 2 AND Chapter 5 <__<. Thank god for the 5 day weekend, I really need to work my butt off with my assessments. After school, I went to Plaza Singapura to meet up with Eileen, Cheryl, Lity, Leroy and their friends. I thought I was gonna be late but turned out I was like 5 to get there, so I wasnt last yay. We walked around, went to Carl's Junior where I ate to my heart's content. After that we went to the arcade, where I played the drumming game and DDR. XD It was so much fun.

We just mucked around Plaza Sing. I bought a new top at Samuel Kevin, which is pretty. We said our goodbyes like at 7.50 but me and Lity went to Orchard for a bit because I wanted to get some roses. Got three, one each for Bec, Kieran and James. I wrote them little notes as well. I got two necklaces from my outing 2 weeks ago. I wore on today and wrapped the other for Bec.

We had a mufty today. Theme was red, white or pink. I wore all white today ^__^. Day went by pretty well, I didnt even feel tired. The decorations for Vday were fantastic. The roses were beautiful and the brownies were yummy. I walked to school early so that I could put the roses in their lockers. I had to give Kieran and James theirs personally because they had 2 frees in the morning. Bec came soon after I put the rose on her locker. I gave her the necklace too. She said that this was the first time somebody's done that for her woot.

I bought two roses at school. I gave one to Alex because she was lovely and she bought me my coffee on saturday. I gave the other one, with a card to Oliver. Yeah, you're probably wondering what the fuck are you doing but he bought me a rose last year and I wanted to apologise to him. Funny that I didnt see him with the rose like 10 minutes later, the bastard. Anyway whatever, I've apologised twice, gave him a rose and he chose to get rid of it or give it away so that's his problem. Let him hold a grudge, see if I care.

I got a rose from Nicko though. He's so sweet haha. Don't ask me why but I'm part of their airline crew XD. I own them with four stripes. Him, Achek and Eric are like the only guys that I feel comfortable talking dirty. Me and Nicko have private jokes, me and Achek talk like we're having an affair and it annoys the hell out of Eric rofl. JJ got my a bag of chocolates whee and Kieran annoyed me about his note XD. Got home and just bummed a bit, watched Heroes, made a new poem, finished a new amv, now I gotta finish my business homework.

Tomorrow I shall be flying to KL for the weekend. I only have three subjects tomorrow so Im trying to get out of Drama so I can go back early and pack. Today I was just tired and cbf so if I can go back home like after recess, I can take a nap, pack all my books that I need, laptop, a few pieces of clothing and be at the airport around 5.50 ^__^. Need to make sure I bring my simcard, passport and ticket (which are all in my possession right now). That's it for now, ta xx

2007-02-12T21:25:00.000+08:00

What day is it?

Shaz FM: Baby Its You by June
Feeling: Alright

We're into week 4 now and last week would have had to been the slowest week for me. It felt like it took ages. Friday was good for me. It was Rae's bday and I went to Vivocity. I spent quite a lot of time in Candy Empire. You can get like nearly EVERYTHING there and I enjoyed myself with gummy candy. I went there with Bec just to check out the place. Its huge and I now know why so many people go here. The shops are awesome! She sleptover the night which was fun.

The next day I just bummed around at home till it was around 3.30 cause I needed to go to Robertson Quay to watch a drama performance entitled 'The Pickle King'. XD I know a weird title but that play was absolutely wicked. There were a lot of comedy and dramatic pieces which took the cake. "When's your birthday" "Every year". After the play, I went with Alex and Hilary to Clarke Quay and we had coffee there. Got home about 8.30pm and just stayed in. Sunday was hw day.

Today I stayed back at school to help out the captains with Vday preparations. My my we got a lot done in just the hour and half I was there. People stayed on but with the help of a lot of people, we managed to do most things. Was going to help out again tomorrow but Im going to Plaza Sing to meet up with a few CBers. I need to go there anyway, to check out Spotlight for stuff I can use/wear XD. Ive already got an idea what I want to wear for Vday. Maybe if I can I'd buy some roses for people. That's it for now. I have a 5 day weekend coming up. Going back to KL for it, leaving Thursday evening coming back Tuesday evening. Sweetness but I have to work on my assignments haha but Im sure I can fit in a shopping day ^___^. Ta xx

2007-02-04T12:17:00.000+08:00

The days of laughter

Shaz FM: All Systems Go by East Clubbers vs. DJ Muh
Feeling: Good

Only 8 more weeks of Term 1. My friends have deducted that we have 128 days of actually being in school. Friday was a good day. I have a few days which I don't get any frees but for the most part, I've got one. I used that time to talk to Mrs. Vink, the careers counsellor. She gave me all these magazines and books about potential courses which has helped a bit. I want to go into the Business Management side of things but even then, that's a big field. Drama was good too. What we do in there is read 'Dancing in Lughnasa', which is an Irish play. We read out loud as well as take notes on parts we don't understand. I think the thing that makes it much more interesting, rather then getting to know the play better, is actually putting on Irish accents XD It's so much fun.

I went out after school to meet three girls from the Club Bleach forum that I go to. We were gonna meet in Orchard and let it go from there. Haha, it was so much fun. I got out of the mrt and this guy walks up to me asking if I'd be interesting in modelling. Scouted twice lol. But here's the thing, do not trust people who wait around Orchard MRT. They tend to ask for a very high entrance fee i.e scam. Anyways, met up with the three, I could actually tell who was who yosh. We went for japanese food then walked around to buy a manga haha. We then went to Heeren to take neoprints ^_^. Clicky.

After that, we took the MRT down to Bugis so that Eileen could get her paycheck. We walked around Bugis Junction and saw a lot of Lity and Cheryl's friends O_O They all hang out there. XD I saw a whole bunch of people I knew in Orchard. It seems that Orchard is more international schools hangout XD. OMG, I need to go back there again. There are so many nice shops haha. I bought something in Diva whee ^^. That night was a great night cause I got to meet some really cool people. We'll be planning another outing before April. The thing with doing an outing is cause in April, my friend Trina is going to have her 21st and she's a fellow CBer as well. She's invited like 15 members to celebrate her party haha, awesomeness. A week in Singapore to study for exams (less distractions actually) and the remaining week in KL. I really get distracted in KL lol cause I want to go everywhere and go shopping XD. Our midyears is Week 2 Term 2 *sigh*.

Yesterday was a good day too. I went out around 4 to meet up with Holly. Went to her place and I tried the Wii. Zomg, fun haha. It felt weird swinging the remote but you get used to it. We went out to get sushi for dinner which was yum. After that we headed down to Oliver's place for his belated birthday party. This is me who doesn't drink or whatever so when me sees the alcohol, I'm like "People are so going to get wasted." No, I didn't get drunk Chris =P I didn't drink much really. People were having drinking games with gin, tequila, beer and coke rofl. Me just watched. I saw Oliver and Kai Wen play a drinking chess game. What did I have the whole night? A few sips of Bacardi Breezers, a shot of beer, a shot of tequila, lots of orange juice, coke and water. I laugh at all the different people who got drunk as. Holly drank quite a lot of tequila so she was mad but we calmed her down. Methinks I actually have a higher tolerance then her but its not like I'll do anything. I hate drinking so much. Scott was funny, he walked funny and talked about a lot of things XD

All in all a great weekend. People kept saying we should do this every weekend. Lol I think not, people got too wasted. Today shall be spent studying ^_^, me needs to. Oh yeah, I got my internet on my laptop to work yay. That's it from me. Ta xx

2007-02-01T21:13:00.000+08:00

Laugh out loud

Shaz FM: Move Along by All-American Rejects
Feeling: Tired

It's been a good 10 days since I've last blogged. My 2nd week back in school is almost over. 8 more weeks till the term ends. Getting back into school was interesting, we just got straight into it. Friday was mufty cause it was Australia Day. I had fudge and cupcakes that day, they were sweet as but yum. I left school early that day. Why? Because I was flying to Langkawi to spend the weekend with my family and their friends. It was one of their 50th birthdays. We stayed at the Four Seasons. I swear if I have the money I'll definitely go back there again or any of their hotels around the world. It is so AWESOME. Not only does it cost a bitch, the place is huuuuge. You can rent bikes to cycle around the place or you can get the buggy service haha. Fun as. The beach was man-made. I got to see jellyfish that looked like cauliflower, two of which reached the shore. I had so much dessert there it wasn't funny. The bath was outdoors, the lights were remote controlled XDDD I could go on forever. It would be such a nice place to go too, someday when i have the money lol.

Oh things that made my day yesterday? Chris is actually back now so me can talk to him now haha although I sort of didn't reply to him today cause I took a nap XD. And let me tell you about my friend, Alex's dream:

She was framed for murder and she was running away. Her and my other friend teresa broke into a car, and teresa hot-wired it. They went back to the court and nobody was arresting her. Then I came forward and said I did it. I killed someone with a glass vase. I was then brought to jail by MRT, but not before stopping at Vivo first.

XDDD. One, teresa is not even remotely a rebel. Two, I did not kill anyone incase you didn't know. Three, MRT is the train system fyi. Four, Vivo is a new shopping centre near Sentosa.

Haha, and tomorrow is friday woot. I'm meeting a few friends after school. That should be fun, havent been out in a while ^_^. That's it for now. Ta xx

2007-01-20T03:39:00.000+08:00

Distance

Shaz FM: Iris by Goo Goo Dolls
Feeling: Cold

Oh hey, I know its like 3.40am but this will be the last time I sleep this late. I just felt like posting a lyric poem that I put together yesterday. Title is the title of this entry :) Chris shall have fun with those 8 girls who chose to have their pms at the same time. You can get through the bitchiness for sure, Dolling ;)

Travel to the moon,
You're asleep, as you work out your dreams
There's no one else here
while I manipulate the stars' lights

a long night spent with your most obvious weakness
you start shaking at the thought
you are everything i want
cause you are everything i'm not

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait

I know you see me looking at you
and you already know
I wanna love you
you already know

My life with you means everything
So I won't give up that easily
I'll blow it away, blow it away
Can we make this something good?

'Cause I've been away too long
and every day I missed you more.

2007-01-17T22:38:00.000+08:00

Kizuite

Shaz FM: One Love by Gwen Stefani
Feeling: Normal

Realise (kizuite) that this is my last night in KL. Zomg, Ive been here a month already. School starts next week. I still have a bit of work to do which I will do Friday, Sat and Sunday. Yesterday I went to Megamall with Ray, Rae and Ew-Jun. Went a bit earlier with mum and got these nice shorts from Esprit. Met up with Rae and Ewj and we went to Dome to eat lunch. We went to watch Pathfinder. The movie was quite gory but it was crap. I mean Rae and Ray were falling asleep lol. There were some random funny parts though.

After that, we basically walked about and found somewhere to eat, again. KFC was our choice. A good catch up session. Rae sent me home and I got a hug from all three of them ^__^. Today was a bit more better. Went with mum to the Agency to look at potential maids. Our three maids are leaving around March. Apparently they were fighting *shrugs* There was an employer and his wife who brought their two maids. They had a catfight O_O One was filipino, the other indonesian. Don't ever combine the two, it's scary. After that picked Nana up from school then went home for a bit. My dad bought her the new Rain CD, am envious O_O. Went to BSC after to get a haircut and a pedicure \o/ It was fun. My hair looks long as, Im happy they didnt cut too much off. Means I can still grow it yay. We had dinner at Dome lol. I really liked the chicken and mushroom pie :D.

Mum has this dinner function friday night. Guess the theme...? 'Roaring 20s'. Its easy for dad cause he just needs to wear a white tux. Ladies on the other hand is hard but mum was being smart and improvised. We went home, dropped off Adam's dinner then took the car to KL Sentral. We took the monorail to Bukit Bintang to shop at Sungei Wang. Zomg I havent been there in ages and it's like Far East O_O. I definitely have to come here again. A lot of cheap nice things. I got some tights yay, means I can wear a lot more with the shirts I already have ^^.

Mum is watching TV now, I've gathered all the things I need to pack for tomorrow..but it's lying in one heap near my bag XD. I'm waiting for her..I'm too lazy at the moment. My flight is tomorrow but Im dropping my gear off at Sentral so I'll leave around 1.30pm. I could pack tomorrow but it will take forever so I'll do it later. Oh I heard Nurie was coming to KL. Too bad school starts 2 weeks earlier then the WHOLE bloody Sydney but what can I do. So I can't see her -___- Maybe if I do get to go to Aus at the end of the year, I'll go visit her. That's it for now. Ta xx

2007-01-16T01:06:00.000+08:00

Smell the smoke and sweat

Shaz FM: I Wanna Love You by Akon ft. Snoop Dogg
Feeling: Alive and tired

"You know why the girls here are unattractive?"
"Because they eat 24/7"

A little malaysian humour for you. I was walking in KLCC with my cousins when I overheard this chinese man behind me say that. I guarantee you that man was Singaporean XD.

Today, or rather yesterday would have to be the greatest day of my life this year, or so far. Let's just say a great start of the year. I went to Akon zomg. I received the invites today in the mail. All FOUR of them. I looked at them and only realised that one pair of them were V.I.P tickets. Guess who snapped them up and brought Zae along? Haha hell no am I giving them away to Hariz.

Had a lovely time rping with Epros, spent most of the night doing it. Didn't mean I didn't get any reading done. I've done quite a lot yay. Had a good discussion with Liam and Sander about certain things. It helped clear a lot of things. I took out the thread in my mouth save one hiding behind a swollen gum *grumbles* Least it'll come out when its gone down a bit.

It was quick for me to get ready and all. Shaun and Jan came along with me, joking about trying to sneak in. I was happy to have them with me cause they kept the journey interesting. We wanted to take a cab to Ruums but the traffic was bad so we took the train to KLCC. We were lucky we got on cause it was packed. We got there and then took a cab though it was near. There were a few people around but I didn't bother. We just went into TGI Friday's and had dinner which was lovely. Around 8 we started to queue up. The lines were MASSIVE. It went all the way to the other complex O_O. Shaun,Jan, Zae and myself walked around and found that V.I.P didn't have to go through the lines. Ray and Amanda came. Lol, this was funny:

*phone rings*
*Shaz picks up phone and its Rae*
*Rae discusses movie for today*
*Rae says she'll talk to Ray because he isnt with Shaz*
*Ray calls Shaz to see where she is*
*Shaz is poked and turns around*
*Amanda is smiling and Ray is on the phone*
*Shaz asks if Rae has called Ray and Ray's phone rings*

It's Rae.

Lol a nice funny moment. Me and Zae wanted to go in, Shaun and Jan stayed with Ray and Amanda. I heard that Shaun entertained the people waiting. Me and Zae got really close to the stage. We made conversation with the two ladies infront of us, we were all having a good laugh. There were a bunch of roudy Sudan people, "niggas" as the word kept going around. They were pushing a lot. Then these three young chicks came. About 15 years old. Skimpy outfits. Touching. Smoking. Drunk. Zehan knew the leader of the pack. She was her friend's younger sister. That girl nearly passed out. That girl pissed us off when she tried to get infront. I made conversation with the two boys infront of us, they were like 12. The girl next to me with her boyfriend was pretty nice too. Akon was late. Like 40 minutes late but it was because they wanted to get more people into the club. They were throwing freebies around. I caught two posters \o/. The DJ was awesome. Benny D. He really got the crowd jumping. And he had a mohawk!

Akon performed for an hour and a half. OMG! *screams* It was the best EVER. I took photos, I danced, I sung out, I put my hands in the air. I also had people pull my hair, elbow me, lose Zehan, people shoved her around. I had a guy right behind me who was making himself comfortable. He was putting his hands on either side of my head, sometimes pushing it. He'd rest his head on my shoulder sometimes too. I shoved him aside a few times don't you worry. People were pushing just to get closer to Akon. I nearly suffocated. The girl with the boyfriend, he had his arms around her. His elbow dug into my side. Then there was this stupid bitch who was elbowing the other side trying to get photos. That was when Akon was on his manager's shoulders and people were shoving. I couldn't breathe because it was so tight. People were shoving me around that I was tilting to the side, I wasn't even supporting myself. I got necked twice. I felt like crying. Oh and save me, my top kept falling down lol. My whole hair was soaking with sweat. People were closing in on me and omg it was scary. One of the girls we were talking to, she got up on stage. I was right next to her when they pulled her up ^__^. I touched Akon! *squeals* I touched his bling, his arm, his belt, he held my hand a few times and eye contact zomg O_O. Zae got some too, we were screaming idiots. We got to touch his hair too haha. Amanda did too. WOW, it was great. Definitely worth the stuggle, and we got a free drink after \o/.

We walked out and I was greeted by Hariz, Almaarof, Kavish, Wayne and Adrian. Omg, they looked awesome. All clean cut ready for partying. They were drunk I think. Wayne and Hariz wanted to take photos with us girls to show their 'pimping' side. Kavish looked all gangsta with his long tied up hair, and snake skin shoes O_O. He was taller then me but by like 5cms! Adrian looked good, haven't seen him in like 2 years. Kavish said I didn't change, I don't think he realised I was wearing contacts XD.Hariz was being really friendly, we were making fun of my accent, we were being posh. I was hugging people like mad. Ray came over and we had a quick reunion before we had to go. I said my goodbyes. Shook hands with Adrian O_o, hugged wayne and I got a kiss on the cheek. Hugged Hariz and I got a kiss on each cheek. Weird. Zae and me were getting a ride from Ray's dad. It was a fun ride, all of us retelling our stories, showing off videos and photos, bluetoothing them to each other. They dropped me off first. I hugged Zae cause this was the last time I'd see her in a while. I'd see Ray later today.

We're going to megamall. I'm going around noon. Dad's giving me some spending money so I can buy some stuff. I'm looking at shoes at the moment but I might want to snag some new pants or something. Doubt he'd give me that much money though. A top maybe. We're going to see a movie after that. Dad wants to take us out to dinner because he won't be free wednesday night. I smelled like sweat and smoke when I got home. My top was drenched, so was my hair. I took a shower. I feel nice. I smell nice. I'm watching a bit of Samurai Champloo. I've realised that I've seen everybody that I want to see. That I've done most of my holiday reading! I am considering dropping English Extension 2. I could use the time to work on my other subjects. I'm doing well in Drama and Chinese. I need to drastically improve in Maths, apply myself more in Business Studies and ask so much more questions in English. I think 11 units should be fine for me, it gives me more time to think about my Individual Project for Drama and writing a crime fiction story for Extension 1. I have yet to do my packing though some of it is done.

Oh, you know the first weekend of school? I'm going on a holiday haha. I'm going to the Four Seasons in Langkawi for a relative's birthday. Dad wanted me to go because there is a lady who works there who will be good for my interest in Hotel Management. I'm staying in a room with my cousin. I'm flying from Singapore friday evening the 26th. Means I get out of 6th period again o: . I know what I'm wearing and what I should bring. I leave this Thursday. Time goes by quickly. This time next week I'm in school again for a term. Though I'll be back for CNY cause I get 5 days off. Term 1 holidays are from March 31st to April 18th. My friend is having a birthday party on the 6th. I want to go. It's in Singapore so I will have to ask dad if I can stay a week longer. Mother wants Adam's bday party to be on Sunday the 8th so that means I can stay a week and be back for a week the day before my brother's party. Rae won't be around because she will be going to Japan. My half yearlies are in Term 2. I am more likely to slack in KL then in Singapore so I can use the first week to study constantly, go to my friend's party, go back home, study and do stuff that I want to do, then go back home to start the new term. Good idea ^_^

Right that's the end for me. A pretty long entry, huh? You must miss them. I've been giving short ones lately, and they was a big time gap. Hopefully there isnt any for a while to come. Though you know it'll happen sometime during those freak study periods XD. Ta xx

2007-01-11T23:07:00.000+08:00

Omg!

Shaz FM: Smack That by Akon ft. Eminem
Feeling: Swollen and Overjoyed

Woah, it's been 2 days since I've last blogged. Face is still swollen but it's gone down considerably. I'm coming to an end of my medications. I've been using my time to do some work. I doubt I'll get everything done but I'm trying my best. Tough luck on finishing Ext. 1 tonight but I'll continue doing it. Just wanted to update on something awesome. The singer Akon will be performing a showcase here on Monday. It's not a concert or anything so tickets are hard to find. MTV is hosting the event and since I'm a member I joined the online contest. I gave in a few entries. Guess what!? I got an invite! Score!! I got two invites actually, means 2 pairs of tickets. One at 8.47pm and 10.45pm today. It says that they'll send the tickets by post cept Zae reckons that they won't get here in time by Monday. The email said to print it out and go there early to avoid disappointment. Hopefully the tickets get here in time or that I actually can take these two invites and bring 3 of my friends :)

That's it for now. I need to be doing some more work. I've got a list going, so I need to tick them off as I go. So far I havent finished it yet -__-. Ta xx

2007-01-09T00:01:00.000+08:00

It's out!

Shaz FM: Welcome to the Black Parade by My Chemical Romance
Feeling: Pain

Tuesday it is. And what did I do on Monday? I took out my wisdom teeth is what, all 4 of them. Came to about 11am actually but I kept sleeping so nyah. Had a cold compress every few hours and they took my blood pressure -_- I have gauze in my mouth to stop the bleeding. I can't eat hard hot food because it will open the cut in the back of my mouth. I have my battle scars haha, they let me keep my molars and omg, its big and disgusting XD. Some of them are broken up while one of them was actually detereorating. XD I have to take so many tablets for about 5 days. Body and everything is normal, just my mouth. I really want to go with Rae on wednesday but I doubt my parents will let me go haha. We'll see how I am at the end of today.

Basically slept in, was a baby, had a nice conversation with my mum, fit in a bit of playstation and computer time haha. I'll do more business hw tomorrow. That's it for now. Cheers xx

2007-01-05T22:40:00.000+08:00

The Overkill

Shaz FM: All I'm Living For by Evanescence
Feeling: Just Ok

Today would be an uneventful day, but it would also be a rather unusual one. Firstly, the power went out at like midnight. I was watching TV when I heard a sort of alarm go off, like the one when someone's at the door. My first thought was who on earth would be ringing the doorbell at this time when the lift just opened up. It does that when there's a power failure, only the lift was lower then usual. This one was different because some stuff still could be turned on. I wanted to intercom my sis who was sleeping upstairs but the phone was dead. Scary huh?

The bad thing about it was that my aircon didn't work, and the fan was the worst. My room is too big to have a nice breeze and I can't put the fan too loud or else I can't sleep. So I did a fun thing..i made a makeshift bed with the sofa in the TV room and slept there. I slept at around 1.30am but I woke up about an hour later. It was really stuffy and I realised the aircon turned off but it was quiet, too quiet. There's a fishtank in the room so I got used to sleeping with it on, cept I didn't hear any bubbles. Got up and realised that there weren't any blinking lights from the astro or the recorder. It was blank. Aircon was turned off and it was pitch black. The guys from TnB were supposed to come but it was out so I thought mum would be upstairs waiting in the living room cept she had gone to bed so I was alone. Didn't realise that the security system was off. I went back to bed anyway, tried my best to sleep.

Mum woke me up about 4am I think. I can't remember what time it was, I was barely conscious. She asked if I wanted to go back to my room and sleep cause the power was back on but I didn't have the energy to so I just slept there, she leaving the room turning on the aircon for me. I slept till 9.30am, wandered out of the room to see everybody up and about, Adam wanting to take a shower. I went back to the room and slept till noon though haha. Got out of bed, ate lunch then wanted to watch Astro cept it wasnt' working. Wanted to play the playstation, got the sound but didn't get the picture ^_^;. The only thing left was to watch a movie. Picked the movie "Stick It", something about a girl from the wrong side of the tracks joining gymnastics. A bit like "Step Up" if you've seen it but this doesn't have any deaths or romances (for the main character at least). Pretty good one, though unconventional. Realised one of Hayley's (main character)'s best friends, Poot played the younger version of Evan in The Butterfly's Effect.

We went to pick up Dina from school, dad fixed the TV cept shouted at me cause I didnt answer his question when I was answering Dina's -_-. Watched Flushed Away which had its gross parts, but also its funny ones. After that, bummed around, watched a few episodes of Nana..went online and had some talks..yeah that's about it. Might do something next friday with Rae and one of her border friends from Sydney. Looking forward to that. Having a dodgy internet connection and not being on MSN for a long time has made be lose contact with the world. It has been a week since I've seen my friends here and it does feel like Im losing people but that's just me. Right, Nana time haha. Ta xx

2007-01-04T20:56:00.000+08:00

Move over

Shaz FM: Good Enough by Evanescence
Feeling: Pain

Why pain? Because my molars hurt like hell, I can't wait till I take them out on monday but I know its gonna be worse with the aftershock of it all. Whee, a new year has dawned! Its like the 4th now and the holidays are gonna go by before I know it so I need to do things fast! And work too! Its only been a week since I've last hung out with people but it feels like its been ages and im dying to go out with people -__-.

Right, I think I should get into the habit of blogging here more but there isn't anything interesting happening to me yet. Probably when school starts, I'll have heaps to talk about. For the mean time, you'll have to deal with this. New things:

- I've started reading my englishes books \o/
- I'm thinking of writing a fanfic for Samurai Warriors but this can so wait.
- I need to be doing exercise because my dad has been on my case lately grr, threadmill tomorrow :) Swimming if I feel like it.
- I've started watching the anime Nana while waiting for Naruto, Bleach and Deathnote to scoff up their next episodes.
- What the hell is wrong with my dreams? They're really fantasy-like which I don't mind cept its a bit weird when there are people I know in there XDDD.

That's it from me. Ta xx

2006-12-31T20:03:00.000+08:00

Goodbye 2006, Hello 2007

Shaz FM: Brand New Breeze by Kanon
Feeling: Thoughtful

Only less than 4 hours till we welcome in the new year. My previous layout had many problems and it proved hard for people to read my posts, or even bother to leave a comment. What better way to welcome the new year with a new layout and a post after nearly a month's absence. If you noticed the intro, those lyrics are from the song 'Who I Am Hates Who I've Been' by Relient K, and mean quite a lot to me.

I can't believe it, a year has gone by so quickly. I remember the quiet new year eve party we had and just bumming around the house awaiting midnight. It seemed like only yesterday but a year has gone by, and in that year a lot has happened to me, good and bad. Its amazing how speed and time changes depending on what happens around that time. The first half of the year seemed pretty normal paced and suddenly, time is going by so fast, I barely register it. Look forward to going to school and seeing old faces, new faces and what awaits us in our school year. Next year will be different, the last year I ever go to school, the last year of my schooling life, the ending of a chapter, a beginning of a new one. This is the most important year of that chapter though, because of the HSC and I must strive for the best that I can because it affects my future. A healthy lifestyle is in order but I have to cut down on distractions and keep to a good timetable.

I would say that this has been the year with the most things that have happened to me, and I've grown so much from it. To name a few:
# meeting new friends and learning the truth of friendship
# became more fitter from constant dancing and netball.
# lost my laptop, broke my camera, lost my enrich card
# Got a new laptop
# Went to Japan for the first time.
# Went to Sydney for the first time without family.
# Went on my last school trip to Sarawak.
# Completed my first piano examination (even though I didn't pass haha).
# Was in my first (and last) senior secondary production.
# Injured myself 4 times (2 sprained ankles, 1 sprained hand, 1 knee injury)
# Improved on my netball skills and tried out a new position - team won 3rd place in competition.
# Participated in athletics, swimming carnival and cross-country.
# Gained a lot of great friends from Club Bleach - phoned 4 of them.
# Became the vice-caption for my division in CB.
# Became a mod in 2 different forums.
# Got to see my relatives from Houston, Texas.
# Had a lot of crashes and burns but I had you guys :)
# 2nd in Chinese
# Got contacts.
# Nominated myself for a school captain position even though I didn't get it in the end :)
# First concert overseas
# OVERDRIVE!!!!
# Passed Year 11
# Me first alcoholic drink without my parents XD

Well there is so much more I can list. The roller coaster ride I've been through with my friends has been rough but its the experience I'll keep (even if some of them I don't want repeated). I've let my heart be broken once this year but although it didn't work out, he taught me something and I know some limits to my having a relationship. Had some troubles with having crushes on people and people having crushes on me but I've pulled through. I've gained someone great but he's too far away from me hah. I've broken down a hell lot of times, been through my most depressing state but I am stronger now ^__^.

TO EVERYONE OF US, HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007!!!

Goodluck everybody in their studies, their social life, and their health. I hope to hold on to you all for a long time to come, to have you to push me forward and pull me up when I fall. I will always be there for you in return. Thank you for an interesting year!!! Ta xx

2006-12-02T14:11:00.000+08:00

On Hiatus

Shaz FM: Brother by Racoon
Feeling: Tired and In Pain

Alrighty, its been nearly a month since I've last blogged, sue me. There were a lot of things going on in that 4 weeks that prevented me from blogging and well, Im not prepared to get into it. I prolly never will. My friends know what's happened so its all good. I will put on hold this blog for at least a month. When I'm back, everything should be sorted and I'll have a new layout in time for New Year's...maybe even Christmas. Righty-o, cya all soon ;) Ta xx

2006-10-29T17:58:00.000+08:00

The Star Sunday October 29, 2006

RMAF to get new chief tomorrow

ALOR STAR: Royal Malaysian Air Force (RMAF) Deputy Commander Lt-Jeneral Datuk Seri Azizan Ariffin will take over as the commander tomorrow.

Outgoing commander Jeneral Tan Sri Nik Ismail Nik Mohamed will hand over duties to Lt-Jen Azizan at a ceremony at the Subang RMAF base at 10am. The event will also mark Lt-Jen Azizan’s promotion to a Jeneral.

Lt-Gen Azizan: Will be promoted to a Jeneral when he takes over

Lt-Jen Azizan will be the 15th RMAF commander, according to air force public relations officer Mejar Zulkiflee Abdul Latiff.

Lt-Jen Azizan, who hails from Yan, Kedah, joined the RMAF on April 16, 1971.

He studied basic and advanced Air Traffic Control courses in Australia in the early 1970s. He has held various positions including being air traffic controller at Paya Lebar Joint Air Traffic Control Centre in Singapore and the RMAF Base in Kuantan.

Lt-Jen Azizan was appointed RMAF deputy commander on April 5, 2004.

His wife, Datin Seri Norainee Abd Rahim, will take over as the new BAKAT (a welfare body for the members of the Air Force family) chairman on Tuesday.

Get a Move On

Shaz FM: I Like That by Houston
Feeling: Fine

You see the article above there? That guy is my uncle. It seems that I dont really see the significance of my whole famile history lol. I know my whole family is musically gifted. We can dance, sing or play an instument. My Dad's family knows a lot of people. My Tok Mummy is the first female Malay doctor. My dad started small and got the top position in Pantai. So did my uncle. I wonder what my generation will do in the future.

A little update since last. What happened on friday? Well I went to Meisya's house to prepare for the flea market on Saturday. After school, I relaxed for a bit then went over. Haha, guess what? I did the most random thing Ive done ever. Sleptover at her house. It was inpromptu hence I didnt have my gear with me. Thankfully she leant me stuff. I didnt go home in the morning, i went straight for community service. After that, lunch then straight for my shirt at the flea market. Got home around 5.30pm. Means that I was nearly out of the house for 24 hours. I got back, stayed an hour then went out for dinner haha. Got home really early though, like 8.15. Spent the whole time relaxing, and I've started working on a new AMV which will go to Diary of Jane by Breaking Benjamin.

Woke up this morning around 10 and I've just bummed around OMG! I wrote an article for a forum that I go cause its my duty to do so. I can do maths tomorrow night because i dont have maths. I have a free first thing which I will use to do my chinese HW. Today would mean that I need to do my English Questions, all 18 of them plus start on the journal. I have so much to read so I need to do it soon, and fast! Cause currently,there are 6 texts that need reading -___-. Alright, that's it for now. Dad's going off to London on Wednesday. Ta xx

2006-10-25T22:29:00.000+08:00

Back again

Shaz FM: Be The One by BoA
Feeling: Fine

Hey again! Its been a day since last haha but even then there's a lot to explain,no? Well, just giving a shortened version of what's been happening. Just after I blogged that time nearly a month ago, I went back to KL for my Term 3 break, one which was used to its fullest. Well, at least for the first week XD. It was great because I got to spend time with Rae and Ray, whom I havent spent time with since January. I did raya shopping, went out to watch movies, and also got a tad sick from the bloody virus that was running rampant in Singapore. Oh, I gave it to my whole family as well and we all got really sick for a day or two. Came back to Singapore on the 12th of October, 3 days earlier before Term 4 not because I was pumped for Year 12, but rather I went to go see a dance competition. O__O OMG IT WAS AWESOME! And who was there to judge and perform you may ask? WADE ROBSON!!!!!!!!!!!! *screams* LOL. Ok, so maybe a lot of people think he's overrated but he is a lovely person, who looks hot and everybody wants him even though he's already married, and he's a great dancer. I was hyped up cause I was with Bec and we had a sleepover that night too. The only other thing that really bugged me was this girl who sat next to me who blocked my view quite a lot <__<.

School started again. Guess what? I have calculated what I get for 2 weeks, meaning per fortnight, per cycle A and B. I get 10 free periods, 4 of which are doubles \o/. 3 lunchtime classes and 3 days where I have no frees whatsoever. Tuesdays are Netball days and Thursdays are dance days cept we're doing this massive netball competition which takes away my dancing -_-. I'm in the B team btw but dont worry im not last, the teams are equally divided, despite what others might want it to be. Oh and then I went back to KL on friday the week after, which would be last week haha :D. It was for Raya! I was so happy because I really wanted to spend Raya over there. I spent most of the time catching up and relaxing, with company woot. Oh and the best suprise ever! Aunty Ann from Houston actually came down. I didnt know she was coming. I came down after a nap and I could here her laughter. One thing about her laughter is that its really unique you could hear it a mile away and there is no way you couldnt laugh in her presence. Nobody besides us knew so one by one as my mum's relatives came over, they were shocked to see her haha.Yesterday was awesome, a good day. Woke up bright and early to have a nice breakfast eating traditional malay food. After that, went to the graveyard to pay my respects to my grandfather, great grandparents and my uncle and aunty. This has become tradition for my parents, me and Dina. We come with flowers,water and cloth to decorate the graves. Its fairly different to what westerners would do if they went to visit. The site is fairly different as well. Its not very tidy and you get a range of graves, and they all face an awkward position because the whole body faces Mecca. While my mother reads prayers, I clean the grave, picking up leaves,grass and twigs, wiping the tiles or marble clean. After its done, we pour water head first then sprinkle flowers on top. There's usually some extra so I look around for graves which look like nobody's visited them and put flowers. I'm close to tears sometimes because of all the baby graves I see and the ones which have couples, mother and son, even families together. It makes me think that if anybody where to die in the future, I would do that. Put them together and at that sight because of the many relatives we have already there. KL is close to the heart,no?

Got home and took a break. I played Samurai Warriors with Adam. OMG, such a cool game. Its like the other game cept this one is Japanese while the other one was Chinese. The weapons are much more cooler and the story modes are more interesting. The graphics are gorgeous. I tried my hand at FF12 as well cept I absolutely hate the battle system. And Square Enix has lost a bit of their originality if they have bloody T-rexs, turkeys and 'rotten tomatoes' as monsters. Yes you've heard me right. I wore a modern Baju Nyonya which is absolutely fun to wear. Shall post pictures as soon as I get them from my father. The top looks like a kimono top wheee, just put a belt at its good to go. There were so many people! O___O I have so many cousins its not even funny. Most of them are from daddy's side. LOL! Guess what? Many were suprised to see me there, some people thought Dina was older then me and studying in Singapore, people thought I was working, people got mine and Dina's names mixed up INCLUDING my own mother thank you. She went to the point of calling me 'Adam' too XDDD. I forgive her, she was really stressed. And as I grow up, I guess I don't get as much moolah as before. I didn't get as much as my siblings but nyah its alright, got like RM370 yay. I was having fun messing with my twenteen cousin (lol I know but he wants me to call him that) Ziad and eating an embarassing amount of Ice Kacang. Seriously, it was HUGE. Two of that haha :P

Today was spent reading, watching The Banquet (good but stupid movie) and My Super Ex-Girlfriend (hilarious movie that one), this new anime Saiunkoku Monogatari (while waiting for Naruto and Tsubasa Resevoir Chronicles), packing and stuff. Did a bit of talking with my dad and mum about random things, and minding my little 2nd cousins (my cousin's children). Flight was stupid, it got delayed like 45 minutes <_<. And it brings me here. I have school tomorrow and I need to catch up gahhhhhhh. That's it for now, god knows how long it shall be till I blog again haha. Ta xx

2006-10-24T23:23:00.000+08:00

I'm here!

Shaz FM: Aozora no Namida by Hitomi Takahashi
Feeling: Dizzy

Righty-o, this is going to be short. I know Ive been absent from blogging for nearly a month, and I have had special request from rae by phone haha to blog again, which I shall but not tonight. You know why!? My head hurts is why. Because I've spent the whole day hosting my family get together for Hari Raya. I've had to serve food, take pictures, mingle with them, go to the graves and eat only little. It was a great day honestly but Im just too tired to say anything more. Deal with me please? Ta xx

2006-09-27T16:14:00.000+08:00

Oh God.

"Blogging should just die a sudden death.." - Jared Leto

Shaz FM: Pretty Green Eyes by Ultrabeat
Feeling: Thirsty

Haha, I laugh at that quote because it's funny (duh, Shaz). Tis has been more than a week since I've last blogged. Exams were fucked. I'm so screwed gahhhhh. Haha, oh well what's done is done. Things to highlight? Thursday afternoon, I went for my dance class. OMG, a mistake, but it was a good one at the same time. I was so unco cause I was just over my exams. It took a longer time for me to get the moves down but I learnt some new ones so yay ^_^. Friday was a good day, though fast paced. Since I didn't have any exams that day, I went to school to finish my art project. I had gone to Spotlight wednesday afternoon, which is a material and artsy shop which has pretty much everything. I was looking for some things to hang my art project on. Its hard to explain here and I'll take god knows how long so when I get some pics,I'll prop them up on DA or something, or just show it to you whenever I see you. I think I spent most of the day in school because not only that, I had to practice for my piano recital. I didnt do THAT well but I did pretty good. Good for my first recital I reckon. I really hate the Grand we have. Who knew Kawai could be as horrible as that. Thankfully we traded our Kawai for a Yamaha wheee.

Social was good yet shite. Haha, I think I looked pretty good. Simple but pretty good. The theme was Carnivale so wear bright colours. Too bad the closest to Carnivale I saw were two year 10s in fairy costumes lol. I sorta got into it cause I wore this nice turqoise corset and I got compliments for it yay. Hung for a bit while Holly took her time to come over cause she didn't go for the social but she was staying the night at my place. Social this year was so bad. Last year's was so much better. The power went out slightly after I left muahahaha. We so have to make it better next year. I danced quite a bit and hugged so many people hehehe cause fasting was starting. Me and Holly went to Orchard to have dinner for a bit and we got to catch up on things. We played a bit of PS2 and watched some of our AMVs when we got back. We slept pretty early, like midnight OMG. And the hilarious thing was she woke me up at 7.30 the next morning and left my house at 8.30 O_O, which meant I could still go to comm. service, which was heaps fun haha. I got chased around by Ryan, this cute little 5-yr-old boy haha. Lunch was good cause we got to talk, and we saw Jeraldine and Colin.

Later that night, I went out with Bec to Orchard cause we wanted to go watch The Devil Wears Prada. We got to Cineleisure and it was sold out so we decided to try our luck at the new Cathay down near Fort Canning. That place is humongous! And the funny thing it was selling fast and we got the last 2 tickets muahaha. We stopped off at Ben and Jerry's to get some ice cream and hear the live band which was great. The guitarist was hot :P. We headed up to the food and OMG, they sell real food to bring into the cinema. Bec got grilled chicken and I got chicken pizza and they tasted really good. Worth the money. We thought we should come down on a friday night one day and bother Kai Wen who works there on that day haha. The movie was heaps good! I really loved it though I was laughing at some of the clothes Anne Hathaway wore LOL. Go watch it cause its great. Sunday was a quiet day. I woke up really late and just bludged, doing my Art diary and studying for Extention English. I was supposed to start fasting sunday however it was still that time plus i was sick. Monday I was going to cept just to make certain I could, I didnt. Thank god I didnt!

You know why? I was stressed for my extention OMG that was the hardest and I stuffed up big time cause I realised after that i didnt put a conclusion for one of my essays doi >.<. And then there's captaincies..bummer, I didnt get anything. I was a wheck before because it was so scary. I held hands with Bec real hard. I wasnt suprised with the captaincies cept Olivia (comm. and service captain) but she'll do great. Fasted yesterday. Had an art excursion which was awesome! Went to the Art Museum and the Biennale which was wow. I got 5 stones, crepes for dinner and free pencils which look cool for doing a survey. You wanna know how I broke fast? Eating a cherry ripe in the school theatre (eating wasnt allowed but still, I'm not gonna kill myself with starvation). Why? Watching Schoolapalooza of course! That was the bomb, I really enjoyed it. Oh and I got the worst scare ever. I thought I had lost my MP3! Thankfully it just dropped out of my locker and well one of the Quade twins (dunno which one though) found it in their bags and returned it to Ms. Alford and I got it off her just now. YAY! Last night I had the biggest headache ever. KW says its cause I wasnt drinking enough water. Maybe. But in the morning, at 4am, I woke up with a weird stomach ache, which really hurt. I had my meal and I felt so sick. I was crying because it felt really weird, not like the usual one, just like your stomach is constantly getting molded into different shapes. I rang up my mum and she comforted me for a bit. As soon as I got off the phone, I vomitted twice. I felt better after that but I was worried because I just chucked most of what I ate (and drank) out but rang mum up again and she told me to drink something sweet so I ran down and got some tea.

So far in the day, I've survived but my mouth is like really dry and I'm going to take a short nap to shorten the time haha. Today was a good day. Double English which we used to get results back, return books and play Speed English which was fuuuun. I think I stuffed up my English real bad. Captains got a talk to from Ms. Gravina because of some of the other guys who were mucking around. It was amusing because all 4 of the captains who were there at the time had defensive poses (arms crossed). Oli got in trouble twice because as she was walking away, she hit Elli with her book, and Elli hit her back. Oli said something about Elli not being allowed to hit her because she was captain and Ms. Gravina heard. You could tell that Oli was pissed as she walked off, and she dropped her book again. As from lunch, I heard she was still pissed off at Elli (she went off for the art excursion, same thing as what we did yesterday). Double business was awesome because we did no work at all, just watched this interesting video on 9/11 and how the govt. set it up O_O. Homegroup was spent taking photos and wondering what size our Year 12 jerseys were and what to put on the back. It's gay! Two years back, the Year 12s could personalise their backs but now we're only allowed shortened versions of our names <__<. I would have had Shaz cept there was this girl this year named SHANNON who got Shaz pfft. So I got Iman instead :P

I think I want to do Art instead but maybe I could do my idea in Drama instead when I do the Individual project. I'm thinking of doing Poster Production ^_^. Chinese was a big of a bludge, just going over seasons and weather in chinese, as well as chatting about things. Sei Ji is awesome, he helped me get my MP3 back and we talked about a few things. He's the closest Japanese guy friend I have, before Tsukasa haha. Walked home per usual and here I am. I need sleep lol. Oh, and I have to start packing tonight because I know I so won't be having time after this so I have to do it. Ok, that's it from me. Started watching a new anime, Tsubasa Chronicle which is good. Ooh, and reminds me that Naruto and Bleach should be out yay. And I've given up on Ergo Proxy. I'm downloading Ouran so that I can make AMVs with it yay seeing that it's ending at its 25th Episode ;___;. Oh yeah, and it's Eric's 17th Birthday today wheee ^_^. Ta xx

2006-09-18T14:18:00.000+08:00

Maybe its your time

Shaz FM: Never Ending Story by Within Temptation
Feeling: Good

Hey all! Its been 9 days since I've last blogged. Twas gonna blog on saturday night but thought that I would have more to talk about sunday so decided to blog after so here I am. Updates from the week before? Well, first things first, I had my captaincy interview and I reckon I did a decent job with it. Hopefully I get a captaincy cause I really want it but I thought to myself, even if I dont, i'll still pitch in my two cents and help out as much as I can cause it'll help with my school report and I enjoy it. The whole week, everytime I came home, I would take a nap for an hour or two, slack a little bit, do at least an hour of piano then study till midnight then sleep. That was my routine for the weekdays except Thursday, when I went to dance class to take away some of my stress. Saturday was the usual in the mornings. T'was funny cause there was only Ryan, Nat and myself. We acted out a story which was fun ^_^. Had lunch with Ryan then went home. Suprisingly I didnt need a nap so I just went on with my thing, studying and piano.

Sunday was a different day to my usual sundays. There was a Japanese Culture Festival down at one of the Japanese schools in Singapore. Here's the thing, there are about 6 Japanese schools here, ranging from kindergarten, primary, junior and senior high school (just like in Japan), plus their uniforms are awesome. Rina organised it for our school and I decided to go for it cause I am fascinated by Japan culture, even if it meant meeting up at 8.30 in the morning <_<>

Anyway, picked up mum, went home, got changed then went to Orchard for lunch because Mum had a bus to catch at 2pm. Both of us had beef noodles at the Picnic at Scotts, then browsed a bit in Isetan before taking a cab to Asia Hotel where the bus departed from. Had a little chat before she got on the bus and I went home, which leads to where I am now. I'll be off now cause I wanna take a bit of a nap, then do maths, practice about 2 hours of piano, then fit in some chinese so that I'll be able to spend my time tomorrow on Business. I'll get to know whether I'm captain or not next week + its the end of Year 11 for us. We'll be Year 12 next term omagod lol. I'll be fasting next week AND going home to KL for the 2-week break, where I'll have to redo my notes from Year 11 and read Brave New World for English. Oh yeah, the India trip has been cancelled cause we found we didnt have enough time to prepare so we'll be going in January, but we'll be able to choose our location and really get every detail right. Planning starts Week 10. That's it for now. Ta xx

2006-09-09T23:38:00.000+08:00

Spot over there

Shaz FM: Stand My Ground by Within Temptation
Feeling: Good

Yes, yes I havent blogged for nearly 2 weeks here but Ive been around, though I probably havent' seen or talked to anyone cept Lang. Just a brief overview of what's happened since the last time I've posted.

*That charity thing was heaps fun.
*My dad came down 28th and I had dinner with him and some japanese friends tuesday night.
*Wednesday the 30th, it was careers day which was the best fun ever, and then stayed the night in my dad's hotel room.
*Thursday, I went back to KL because of the long weekend. Spent lots of time shopping and catching up with my family.
*I got contact lenses!

You know Snakes on a Plane? That totally awesome b-grade movie with Samuel L. Jackson and the snakes on the plane to kill a witness? I wanted to see that because everyone was talking about it but I was away when it came out. There was a conversation on monday between me and anthony. He was saying how he'd pay me $1 if I went by myself with is a ripoff, so I tried to gather some people to watch it with me. Anthony suggested it so I was like yeah. We had managed to get James, Emily and Scott game but yesterday, they pulled out because of important matters (besides Scott being lazy haha) so it ended up just me and Anthony. The even gayer thing was that Snakes on a Plane was taken out of the cinema. Aww, I really wanted to see it haha. It would have been stupid to just head on home so we found other things to do. We ate at subway, taking our time and catching up on things. We decided to have a walk around, Anthony wanting to get this book he wanted so we walked around Borders and Kinokuniya. I needed to get a pressie for Satasha's bday so I was up for it. He was looking for this book however they dont sell it in Singapore. He was showing me all the books that he wanted or had, which was like Dune and military books but I took a fair interest in them. He was being an idiot (I say these words but I dont really mean them in the way they're suppose to mean) and kept bullying me, dragging me around and walking soooo fast (he's big, so its normal for him <__<). We walked all around the place but it gave us time to talk about many different things such as family, friends etc. It was all good fun and I really had a great time with him. After that I went to Tashie's place for a bit to see her cause I havent seen her in ages and also to deliver her pressie. I got home about 12.30am then I went to bed cause I needed sleep.

This morning, woke up per usual for community service which was good. Lunch was pretty good too, considering Scott got told to use chopsticks properly for the couple next to us thought he didnt know how to use them XDDDD. I bought myself a metronome to help me get the beats for the piano pieces right. I even got some passport-sized photos for NYAA cause I didnt have any in Singapore with me. I wore high heels even though, my knee hurt like hell because I had to go to school after that for Drama. We actually got some work done for Drama and I was happy. Then I got an sms from Rina, saying that we had an NYAA meeting to discuss what's happening so I didnt go home, I just went straight there. We ended up staying till about 10.30pm having a good time chatting and getting things sorted. We've made a big progress which is good ^__^. I even sorted the fees out with my parents, who so happen attended the Tatler's annual anniversary function which I attended 2 years ago hehe. My mum's coming down next week on sunday to help me sort through the things I need for India as well as go food shopping with me for fasting (will put important dates at the bottom of this entry). There's also the Japanese School Cultural Festival which Im going to. I have to study cause exams are in a week's time, as well as prepare for my piano Exam, which is ALSO on school exam week <__<. Right,that's it for now cause I want sleep and tomorrow is maths, art,drama and business woot *rolls eyes*. Ta xx

Important dates:
*11th Sept. - Captaincy Interview (wish me luck!!)
*17th Sept. - Mum comes down to SG and the Japanese School Cultural Festival
*18th Sept. - English Advanced Paper
*19th Sept. - Grade 5 Practical Exam and Maths Paper
*20th Sept. - Chinese and Business Paper
*21st Sept. - Drama and Art Paper
*22nd Sept. - Piano Recital and Social Night
*24th Sept. - Fasting starts
*26th Sept. - Schoolapalooza, which is AISS's music performances (rock theme)
*29th Sept. - End of Year 11!
*1st Oct. - Trip to India

2006-08-22T21:30:00.000+08:00

It's permanent

Shaz FM: Too Little Too Late by JoJo
Feeling: Sore

Alrighty, so it's been about two weeks since I've last posted. To do with basic things, I dont think I have much to say. Dancing started again last week and it was heaps fun, learnt some new dance moves yay ^_^. Netball has started to kick in. We played a carnival on sunday and we did alright, got third in our group. 2 draws,2 losses and 1 win. Today we had a massive course and I think I've improved a bit of my fitness. If I havent I'll shoot myself lol and I know this is like a pretty silly thing to say but although Im building up my fitness, I cant help feeling like I've gained weight -__- I've gained like one kg since last which isnt much in my opinion but its just the fact that I feel like crap, like I feel full when I havent even eaten much, or anything at all..weird haha. On saturday, I was involved in running a stall at Pesta Sukan yeah? Well business was slow but we got there. All in all, we have cut off $5.60 each on our NYAA trip. LOL,it's not much but at least it's something ;)

Right now, I feel like I dont have to worry so much about my friendships because it seems that people are more worried about their assessments or that it has died down so much that people are like "cbf!". I've just been able to realise my actions with the people around me and such. I find that I can communicate with others,those who I dont hang out with quite well, and that I actually do have some respect from others, even when I think I'm like holding people down.
Yesterday, James,Jeraldine and Pirom went for floorball, and we were waiting for Sasha to leave. Its like a habit of us to hang around in the foyer till Sasha's mum picks her up. Kieran was supposed to join the others in Floorball cept he didnt bring his gear and he wasnt on the list anyway, so waited with him at the bus stop. It was good cause we got to talk about things the others don't really talk about and I'm gonna be tagging along with Sash,James,Pirom and Kiery sometime during the weekend cause Sash wants to go laptop shopping haha. Sounds like fun though. Oh, and on friday I'll be doing extra community service, ushering people for this charity concert at one of the churches down in St.Andrews' Village.

I think that's enough of an update for you haha. Will add another entry soon lol. Ta xx

2006-08-09T15:30:00.000+08:00

Ownage

Shaz FM: Eyes On You by Jay Sean ft. Reshi Rich
Feeling: Sore muscles

Heya! Today is a public holiday cause its' Singapore's National Day. I totally deserve it cause of what I had to do yesterday haha. Double drama first up which was fun because we made progress on our group assignment. Piano was awesome because I was improving ^___^ Need to practice someone later. Art was great too. I made an improvement on my art work. I know what Im doing now yay. I got a big sheet of canvas paper and started writing all sort of words and lines from my poetry in different sizes and sides (upfront and upside down). It looks amazing and I wanna keep it when Im done with it. Im gonna project my pictures from my art video, Relapse and use clear overhead projector paper to print them out so that the words can be seen as well. Fun fun ^_^

Maths and English were fairly good classes, need to start writing up my cheat sheet for my maths assessment next week. Right on, I am officially a very unfit person. I practically died in Netball training. Im so sore and my coordination is pretty bad. I need to practise somemore. Im gonna buy myself a netball so I can practise at home. Its 2 hours and I have about 15 weeks of it left. Oh well, even if my muscles kill, I can improve and then feel fitter by the end of the year. Im also doing dance so that will help me. I went to Orchard after that with some friends in me sports clothes hahaha. I kept complaining if I looked crap but the guys were cool with it. For once the guys looked better then us girls =P Hung around Subway at Far East Plaza till like 7.40pm. Holly and Scott went off home and then James,Kieran,Pirom and myself accompanied Sasha home. We walked back to Orchard, with James carrying my school bag and me carrying my shoe bag. Had a good conversation with Kieran and it helped me with a few things haha.

Oh guess what? I went lanning with them. Guess what? Although I died quite a lot of times because I admit,I was a bit of a noob seeing how I have never played those games in like 5 years and I rather play the game consoles; I did a pretty good job ^_^ I was teamed with Kieran for the most part but I owned them XD. Not because Kieran is a great player, and he got the most credit for it by James *rolls eyes* , I helped win because while those two only worried about Kieran, they forgot about me haha and I helped capture bases while those two ran after Kieran XD. It was the best fun ever and I did pretty good for my first time playing Battlefield haha. After that, we walked to Burger King so the guys could have dinner and I just stinged their fries and coke. We had a good talk about random things then they waited with me till I got in a taxi. To say I got home about 11.30 but I did not sleep till like 2am haha. Well,today is a public holiday. Right,that's it from me. Should be doing some work fairly soon. Ta xx

2006-08-07T20:56:00.000+08:00

"Can white people go for international captain?"

Shaz FM: Angels by Within Temptation
Feeling: Fine

Heya! The weekend has come and gone by really fast *sigh* but it was a pretty decent weekend I reckon. Saturday was just the highlight of my weekend. I did another 12 hour thing, meaning I got up the usual for community service and I got home around 10.30pm ^_^;. Comm. service was great fun, the first group remembered my name. The only gay thing about it was that i made a hole in my beautiful new pink top ;____; Its a small hole and I'm sure a bit of threading will be able to fix it haha. Its the size of my little finger's nail and its at the back at least. After the usual lunch routine, I followed the guys to Orchard because I had initially wanted to go buy some stationary (funny thing is I never got any stationary because the shop closed XD). Ryan left so it was only me,steph,scott and mike. I followed the guys to Cineleisure to play some pool. You wouldnt believe what I saw haha. An anime cosplay! I practically died right there. SUGOOOOIIIII! I was jumping up and down like a little child and I was telling my friends who was who haha. They're not that into anime but they respect me which is a good thing. Played pool and mucked around which was great fun.

After that, bumped into Nick and Matt, twin brother of Mike. Scott went off and I followed the others back to the Quade's house (matt and mike's house) for a bit then I went to Holly's house for a bit haha then i went back to orchard to meet up with Bec. We had desert at NYDC because we werent that hungry. We went to Heeren and I tried on a beautiful dress. OMG,I want it O___O. Its $80 and I shall save up for it because its pretty and I can use it for both casual and
formal. It's a knee length dress but its like the 1940's sophistication look. Its just a simple white dress that fits the body and ties in the middle. Its classic and I fell in love with it. Hopefully it'll still be there after I've saved up. We went to watch Click. OMG,the best movie ever. Definitely worth my money compared to the last time I went to watch a movie (The Wild -___-). So much feelings I went through. I even cried haha. You should definitely go watch it! :D We went to Forever 21 afterwards and thought we were gonna be daring so we tried on things which we wouldn't normally buy let alone wear. Bec tried on these hot pants hehe and I tried on this low cut halter top. OMG, I'm not being vain I swear but damn, it was hotttttt hehe. I looked like an adult >.< Ok,so maybe it was a bit of my style but I would wear only such a thing IF i was an adult, where the hell am I going to wear that now!?

Sunday was just a quiet day in. I enjoyed watching Ouran High School Host Club and Im watching it from Ep.1 again haha. Awesome stuff. Today was a fairly good day, just easy breezy subjects though I practically died in English because I kept falling asleep ^_^;. Yeargroup was funny because we were talking about captaincy because the nomination forms were sent in today. There was a rumour going on that "You cannot run for International captain if you have an Australian passport" LOL. Technically,its not true cause anyone can run for Int' captain butthe funny thing is Nick asking a question and the response was an eruption of laughter XD hence the unusual title.Got home and just slacked a bit. I practised the piano just then. I need to do a bit of english before desperate housewives at 10 and Grey's Anatomy after that haha. Right,that's about it. Tomorrow I have Netball practise <__< Its the start of the season and omg, I am the most unfit dork ever. At least I was dancing so it keeps my muscles up a bit. I will die tomorrow but yeah, see how it goes. Ta xx

Btw,incase you're wondering why my chatterbox is a different colour, well it's because I set it to suit my new layout so hinting the colour scheme right there ;)

2006-08-04T21:45:00.000+08:00

Its the weekend

Shaz FM: Resolve by Foo Fighters
Feeling: Good

Oooh yes! Its the weekend finally! Haha, Yeah I havent posted in 5 days but you're alright arent you? ;) XD Well, I think I deserve to just sit back and relax. I'm gonna be going to watch a movie with Bec tomorrow so that's great ^__^. Things with me are going pretty alright. Ive had my mood swings but its all good! I've made a new AMV, created some poetry, got an idea for my art project, started watching a new anime (Ouran High School Host Club owns you!) and listening to new music. Im enjoying my time in AISS, even through the sticky situations but what can you have without it? Something new, you should know about..im nominating myself for a School Captain role :). Ive nominated for two positions: Community and Service Captain or International Captain. There is a slightly smaller chance of me getting Int' Capt. cause there's Rina, and she's the effing best person I know. She's japanese and she's been in the most international events and I'll be happy for her to win. There is a chance for c and s captain but Bec is going for it too and she'll make a great captain too. Im happy that these two nominated themselves and even if I really want this badly, I can say that at least Im trying and making the effort :) I have to write my speech up this weekend.

Ooh, I got a new bag! Nelson, my guardian's son went to Thailand with his gf and he came back and bought for me a bag. It looks awesome :D. And that's all I have to say haha. Im thinking of changing my layout because its starting to bother me haha. Watch out! Ta xx

2006-07-30T20:22:00.000+08:00

Wipe the tears from my eyes

Shaz FM: Final Distance by Utada Hikaru
Feeling: Fine

Woah, havent posted here in 2 weeks. Sorry. Ive been through a lot and school's started so busy as always. I will just retell my last 2 weeks.

I came home from KL on Thursday the 20th because my friends wanted me to come back earlier. To say that I did not meet up with many people except Holly. I went to comm. service on sat morning and it was fun as. The kids actually remembered my names yay ^_^. I was suppose to do my Drama and Art Assignment. Anyway, I went out at night and spent time with Holly. Now that was fun stuff ^_^. Sunday was the day I spent doing my assignments. On monday, I finished off my work and in the afternoon I went down to Orchard. Oh man, I have to buy something before the sales are over and I thought maybe I could find the top I wanted. Guess what? I did! YES! I went to 6 different malls in KL and they didnt have it. I checked one shop on sat and they didnt have it but when i walked into the Zara shop at Wheelock Place, I found it muahaha. In all the colours and it was cheaper too. I tried a few of them on and settled for the green striped one in small O_O Oh yes, I fit small. Incase I didnt say before, Im back to my usual weight of 55kg \o/. I bought two CDs from HMV cause there was a sale. Bought Bullet for My Valentine's The Poison and Rihanna's A Girl Like Me, both for $37 :D.

I also sorted things out with Tom which was good. I called him up on Sunday lol. Yes expensive but it was worth it. School started again and my oh my, I enjoyed the first week. I had an unusual mood swing Wednesday night. I was scared for myself, and I scared Chris as well. I was just so cut up about everything thats happened..Tom,my friends,Adam..I soon realised that it was perfect timing cause I just had that time of the month.. It soon passed because I was enjoying myself in school. On thursday, we were discussing captains. I think I have an even chance of getting International Students captain or Community Service captain woot. Friday was a good day. I went out in the evening to Holly's place to bum around a bit then went to Tanglin Club to have dinner with dad. Now that was fun, having good food and discussing about numerous things which was great. Annoyed me that the taxi i called didnt show up at all and I was waiting for 20 minutes till my dad flagged me one. The only thing gay was that I had a full bladder and there was really bad traffic >.<

Saturday was the most tiring day I've ever had. Left the house at 9.30am for Community Service. I read for the first group. That was pretty fun but funny seeing how there was only like Kai Wen, Scott,Ryan, Nat, James and myself. The second group was sooo boring but interesting. There was a kid who kept saying sucks out loud and this 5 yr old kid who said Shit haha, with reason though cause he was drawing pancakes and he said it looked like it haha. Went out to lunch with Ryan alone cause everyone bailed on us. After that, I went to City Hall because I needed to go to the Esplanade to see Cabaret. You have to go through the CityLink Raffles Mall to get to there and I had time to kill so I was browsing some shops on the way. Funny thing was sneaking a brownie into the theatre. They were checking bags so what I did was stuff the brownie in my pocket, then used my jumper to cover it up haha, they didnt find out. The show was hilarious and interesting. So many sex moves and kinky stuff. Haha, loved it so much.

After that, well I went to Orchard to have dinner with the gang at the Tanglin Club. Oh man, that was absolute fun just messing around and chatting. We walked to Sasha's house to gossip a bit then we had to walk back. OMG, i was wearing heels and the road was like really steep and my feet hurt so I wasnt walking properly ,even without them on so thankfully James lent me an arm and supported me going down the hill haha. We talked a lot and it was great to be able to talk to the guys easily. It was great fun and I finally felt like I fitted it. Obviously I suffered the consequences today because I woke up at noon and my feet still hurt. I basically just bummed around in my room, on the internet and such. I need to do maths still haha. Oh well, that's it from me. Now rae needs to blog haha. Ta xx

2006-07-17T11:12:00.000+08:00

What is now?

Shaz FM: Ever Dream by Nightwish
Feeling: Alright

Its been 12 days since I've last blogged. I've come home from Tokyo but I dont particularly have much to say about it haha. Talked about it too many times. It was the best time ever! I took some pictures which I'll post up on DA soon. Damn it, I need to be doing my homework haha >.<. I need to get my vitamins, buy sneakers and new jeans before I leave. I need to start packing as well! Well, things have changed with me now. Tom K. and myself are just friends now. We ended it yesterday.. I'm not gonna explain it further. Those close to me, well Ill explain it to you if you ask me to, just not here. Ive written a few new poems, one of which is a song so go and check it out here. That's all now. Going to Low Yat Plaza with Rae later. Off to eat something. Ta xx

2006-07-05T20:35:00.000+08:00

I reach but I feel only air at night, not you, not love, just nothing

Shaz FM: Farther Away by Evanescence
Feeling: Good

A good day today indeed. Had lunch with Mich and A.Ann at La Bodega, went to Megamall to buy tickets for friday movie Just My Luck and 2 chokers from Momoe, which have black velvet trim and blue/pink flowers with diamonds which I am in love with. Mum cooked fishball soup noodles for dinner which was yummy and managed to snag some time talking to Tom despite his parents' new schedule plan ^_^. Anyway, with the title above, I just felt like I should write about my dream/nightmare that I had last night. I dunno which to classify it as, but I know that I woke up at night talking, and my cousin was worried before I dozed off again. Here goes:

Mm, well the dream was sorta real yet sorta fiction. All I remember is being in this school hall, like one of those lecture halls and there were kids that I knew from school and people I didnt know...but everyone hated me. Even the friends that I have in real life ignored me. I was picked on all the time by the popular kids and I'd constantly sit by myself, and I cried often, in public, in a corner of a room, by myself. I know my friends in real life would never do such a cruel thing to me but it hurt, that was the most painful dream that Ive had, and I havent had nightmares in a long time. Did it really bother me to know I started having a headache since lunch yesterday and needed to sleep early because it killed me? Sleeping early and this is what I got. It doesnt sound like much but for me I think it is. Twas a bit startled when Tom spontaneously said "you don't have to dream anymore" and I didnt even say anything. It's funny how both of us are similar in ways,yet with this, we are complete opposites. I, who rarely nightmares, and he, who rarely dreams.

Tis all now. Shall need to start working on assignments tomorrow. Ta xx

2006-07-03T19:08:00.000+08:00

After all, you're my wonderwall

Shaz FM: Let Me Go by Three Doors Down
Feeling: Good

A week has passed since I've last blogged and much has happened. Nearly everyday, I went out to a few different malls. Monday, I went to Times Square and watched Take The Lead with my cousin, Michelle. On Tuesday, I went to Megamall to meet up with some of my old friends: Ew-Jun, Ivan,Rae,Tom, Jian Hao before some of them went for a holiday. Met the new guy, Ben who everyone enjoys his company. We went to watch Stay Alive, which was not a fun thing for me (I dont particularly like scary movies :P). I went to the Curve for dinner with my family. I bought myself the All-American Rejects' Move Along CD ^_^. Wednesday,I went to 1-Utama and watched The Fast and The Furious:Tokyo Drift which was an awesome movie ^_^. Thursday was my parents 21st Anniversary and we had a family dinner which was good. My mum got a ring from my dad which was pretty. Hefty RM33,000 O_O. Friday was a nice day, just stayed at home. Had a nice dinner at home. Tom came back from his camp and t'was happy to talk to him again.

Saturday was a good day. Me,Michelle and Dina went to Central Market cause Mich wanted to buy some souvenirs for her friends back home. I havent gone to Central Market in like 6 years so I was happy to go there again. I bought myself a nice shell necklace and a white beaded bracelet :D. I went for a family dinner that night. Steamboat! Which was good as haha. Sunday, went to KLCC for lunch with Din and Mich. I wanted to buy my top from Zara cept they didnt have it there ;___; I bought the last part of the Princess Ai series which was such a great read ^_^. Went for karaoke with my mum and relatives after we said goodbye to U.Max who left early to go back to Houston. T'was awesome! I sang 'Dreaming of You' by Selena in public! Yes, I mean in a lounge because the others didnt want a room haha. So I sang a lovely song, even though I was nervous, infront of a bunch of adults I didnt know. Ownage!

Today was a fine day. Just enjoying the day. Followed mum grocery shopping twas about it. Bought myself new nail polish in a funky colour so gonna do that later. Steamboat for dinner tonight yay. Ive moved up to my room now thank god haha ^_^. That's it for now. Ta xx

2006-06-26T00:19:00.000+08:00

Abyss

Shaz FM: For You I Will by Teddy Geiger
Feeling: Good

I'm in KL! Woot, its awesome! Haha, how I missed my home. I arrived yesterday afternoon. Dad was away on family affairs and mum took me shopping! Hehe, well not exactly shopping because we needed to go fix my dad's pants which he bought the day before. I tagged along and while waiting for the alterations to be done, we browsed some of the shops. I was quite happy with myself. I was in KL for only 3 hours and I already bought myself 2 tank tops from Mango and a corset from Tangs =P Awesome! Mum made me carbonara for dinner which was lovely.

Should I summarise my last week of Term 2? Well, the week seemed to go by quite quickly. I was freaking out the weekend before because of assignments but as soon as I did them, I was relaxed as ever. Twas happy because Kieran and Holly patched up. Talked to Tom like you wouldnt believe. Finished Buttons in dance on Thursday! Omg, the dance is hot! And I can dance to it, woot! Friday was a good day. I had a pizza party in Extention English then after school I went out with a big group. Met up with Cong at the bus stop and we talked a fair bit till we got there. It was a bit funny seeing how I was the only girl who met at 5pm! I was surrounded by 8 of my guy friends for like an hour and a half before Holly showed up. We checked music with Scott and Anthony before bailing to go makeup shopping. I bought a silver eyeliner which was nice. Went up to the Apple Store and I let Luke show me some nifty gadgets. Oh man, if I didnt have my laptop, I'd so buy an apple laptop cause they're cool. And for some reason I was talking to Kieran and Anthony about the pain they suffer when they get kicked in the balls. It was a fascinating talk but whatever, another theory : Guys dont know how we feel when we get cramps and later in life,pregnancy; and girls dont know how they feel when "white cells flood to the groin" or something random Anthony said which I did not understand.

Dinner was great. There were 12 of us walking round Orchard which was cool. Got to talk with people and have a great time. Got home about 12.30 and made myself an AMV. Its the most random one ever. A Final Fantasy 7:Advent Children one that went to Buttons *snigger*. Anyway,shall not bother you with that one. Ive got some new amvs coming out soon though ^_^.

Today was a simple day. Spent most of the day talking to Tom, singing, writing a poem and grocery shopping. There's this song on Youtube : Say It's Possible by Terra Naomi. Its such an awesome song and the lyrics are easy to relate to. Here is the link to the lyrics but the middle part is not there seeing how its missing on the sheet music so just listen to the song. I have also made a poem entitled Abyss. Sorry that its on a forum that I go to cause I havent put it on DeviantArt yet.

I'm a bit bummed because today was the last day that I'll talk to Tom K. . He's off for camp so I wont hear from him till friday. It was a bit funny because I didnt get to talk to him on friday and saturday so if I didnt talk to him today, it would have been a whole week. He's sweet and I look forward to talking to him soon. I'm posting something he said but its gonna be on DA so check it if you're curious at all lol. Which reminds me, my cousins are here! So I'll be taking them places, as well as going out with Jo,Ivan and Rae before they leave on their holidays. I've got time with Zae so that's awesome. I'll have to find time to see Ew-jun and Tom M. as well. AND do my assignments <_< Better start reading at least.

Right now, England is playing Equador in the World Cup. England is gonna win, woot! Haha,anyway I'm off to bed. Goodnight! Or should I say, good morning ;) Ta xx

2006-06-17T19:01:00.000+08:00

Get on the rebound!

Shaz FM: Scandalous by Mis-Teeq
Feeling: Pretty good

Hey all! Ahaha, its been 17 days since I've last blogged and I have been instructed by Rae to blog and Ive been meaning to cept I never found time lol. Anywho, I shall be updating you on the latest that has been happening over these past days. Aha, Rae refuses to believe that nothing much has happened and well yeah, she right. A lot has happened actually.

Let's see last week's highlights. The school play! OMG,t'was awesome! The play stuffed up a bit but everyone enjoyed it ^_^ I was jumping up and down,hugging everyone cause I was so suprised to see how many people turned up. The first night (friday),my parents and sister came to see me. And it was funny how Bec and Kieran were like "Your sister looks like you". Its funny how the people who dont know my sister at all could pin point her out. Some people back in KL dont even think we're related sometimes. Anywho, went for dinner at the Tanglin Club with them. Had a really good dinner and dad even thought me wine tasting which was fun. Turned out Kieran, JJ, Seiji,Pirom and Jeraldine were down there as well so I joined them for a bit and had a nice chat. Sis followed me home while parents stayed in a room there. The next day, she followed me to community service which was fun. Ate at Tony Roma's then went home to relax before Saturday's play.

Sat was awesome! The play went suprisingly well. At least the audience were clapping at us schoolgirls. It was funny in between act 1 and 2. I was on MSN talking to Cong and Tom. Again, a lot of people came and I was hyper as usual. This time though, I stayed back for pizza,only it came really late. However, we were all celebrating. We used the theatre as a disco. We had the disco lights on and we were playing music that we liked. We even did a conga line through the parents having wine outside lol.

The week seemed to pass like a blur. I found out that for NYAA, we are thinking of going to North India instead which sounds pretty awesome. I dont mind really as long as Im going to a place where I havent gone before. Oh and I'm definetely going to Tokyo in July ^____^. Ive started dance again! Phew, at least the play is over so I can dance but omg, my whole body was so tense. Gah, need to continue doing it but O___O the dance was sooo hot! Buttons by Pussycat Dolls. Such a great seductive song lol. I made the girls promise to do it with me at the school social ;)

Yesterday was the International Food Festival (IFF). That was totally fun! I wore my blue dual tone kebaya. I was also helping out with the Indonesia stall which was fun. It was raining! However we managed somehow or rather. The food was yummy and OMG the performances! Japan totally kicked ass as per usual and I am so voting Rina for International Student Captain next year. I still have a chance though ^^. New Zealand was wicked. I was making fun of Kiery after because he did pretty bad cept I understand cause he hates performing. Btw, I've changed my picture on the blog. It now has a pic from IFF. Top from left: Kasper, Pirom, Kai Wen, my supposedly hot frenchie Kiery (Kieran), JJ (James Johnson).Middle: Me,Jeraldine and Tsuki (Tsukasa).

After school, Holly and Sasha came over so that I could change then we went to Holly's to watch some AMVs before we went to Orchard. We were gonna go watch X-Men 3 cept we had to wait long and Sash needed to go home early. We ended up eating in Subway gossiping, then browsed Takashimaya. There was a sale in Guess?. I saw this blazer which was nice cept it made me look too adultish. I was suprised that there wasnt much though there was a nice cropped gold jacket which cost $100 so noooo. Im fine with the guess bag I have so I didnt bother with the bags but the watches were lovely. Ooh, and the shoes! Normally I find it hard to find pumps which fit my feet but I tried a pair which was sweet as! 4-inch heals, opened at the side and it was snakeskin! OMG, so hot! It was tanned coloured but you could dress them up or down. There was a black,pink and... turquiose which was bold! But i loved the tan one the best. It prolly cost a bomb and I wouldnt have anywhere to where those shoes. I would like to buy a similar pair though.

Ooh,we went to Zara after and we tried outfits. OMG, the best fun ever. It was good it was just us girls. We plan on having a sleepover in the near future. Anywho, I tried this yellow and white striped top which was cool at the front cept the back was low cut and you could see my back. Soo coool! I could wear a tank, tubetop or bikini in there and it'd look awesome. It was $40. I would've bought it cept I plan on waiting cause its bound to be in KL so Ill persuade mum to buy it for me or just use some of my money ^_^. Sash went home after Sushi. I went back to Holly's to see some more of her AMVs and talk about stuff which was fun. I went the usual way home. The good thing about that night was I learnt stuff, got a free Nike hip hop workout video and saw some stuff that I want! :P

Today's community service was quiet but fun. I went to lunch with Steph and Scott. Triple S! Lol. Anywho, browsed around for chocs and a father's day card for Scott's dad and had a lovely chat then I went home and Ive been at home ever since. I should seriously start on my english assignment but Ill just spend the whole day tomorrow, possible start a bit tonight. Btw, Ive got a new AMV so go check it out! Kiss From A Rose by John Williams. That's it for now! Ta xx

2006-05-31T18:34:00.000+08:00

Nothing Could Get Me Down
Shaz FM: Only One by Yellowcard
Feeling: Hungry but in a good mood

Hehheh, I dont have much to say about today really, but Id like to blog about my weekend and my monday, my wonderful monday ^___^. Btw, layout is on the way.It's done,just need to change my Cbox if I ever find the time lol.

Mm, I dont think Ive said anything about this but there's someone who I've met on a forum I go to. We started talking to each other, and then added each other on MSN. Aha, he's pretty cool and id really like to meet him but he's all the way in Melbourne <____<. His name is Tom and no Rae, his last name isnt McClean :P

Monday was good because we didnt get a lot of homework plus i made up with Anthony. We got on friendly terms for the past week and we were in study period when he talked to me about what happened last year. We've sorted things out and Im happy about that. Now we're back to being friends without the fear of what happened before. I rang home that day after I practiced my piano (which btw I am getting better at so I have more confidence in my exam in Sept ^_^). I was over the moon cause my mum and Dina are coming down next week. Why you may ask? Because the play is next week! Woot,the uniform costume is done and Ive learnt all my lines! They're coming on opening night and I'll get to go out for lunch and shopping for a bit on saturday before they leave on the coach and after my community service. My relatives from Houston,Texas arrive in KL on sunday and it'll be three weeks till I see them again :D.

I rang my dad up as well. I was discussing the NYAA camp. The National Youth Achievements Awards Gold Adventurous Journey camp. A group of my friends who also do NYAA want to go to New Zealand and so do I! The costs are quite expensive but I've never been! Plus it'll be our last camp ever. I talked to dad about it and he's ok with paying for me. We discussed through some ways in which we could lower the costs cause we need to pay for teachers as well <___<. It was nice to have a good conversation with my dad. He's really supportive in all I do. When I thought the day couldnt get any better. He told me not to get my hopes up or anything..but 2nd week of July he might be going to Japan..and since Im on holiday, if he goes he plans on taking me so that I get a feel of the country. WOOT! Im not getting my hopes THAT high but this would be awesome if it happened..my sister has gotten to go to Japan for 3 years straight and I wanna go ^___^.

Right,thats it for now. I have 2 assessments due in next week. English due last week of term, art and drama and business due next term. *sigh* Lots of work to get done. Ta xxx

2006-05-23T17:13:00.000+08:00

Failure's Not Flattering
Shaz FM: One Last Breath by Creed
Feeling: So-so

Hey. Exams are finally over and geez,today was a pretty good and pretty bad day. Yesterday I got back some marks. I passed Drama, English and Chinese Beginners. Drama ranges around 70% (didnt count), Chinese was 91% which was awesome and English was horrible. I got 53%. You think that's bad? I do extention english! Lol,but I was shocked to find out I wasnt the only 'smart' one to get that low. Sara who also does extention got 51% and Kieran got 49% O__O. How mad...but then again I think the highest was the low 70s. The teachers marked it really hard. I think I do better in extention then I do in english which is weird lol.

Today's morning was shite. I went for my piano class. I couldnt even do my scales. I need to send my teacher her cheque soon. I really sucked at me scales, and then I couldnt even play my piece right. Fuck, my exam is in 4 months and Im screwed. Maths was absolutely the worst thing ever. I failed. MAJORLY. This would have to be the worst I've ever done and this is the first assessment that I have failed this year. I got 31%, year average being 48%. It is no wonder I got asked to stay behind and was talked to about if I wanted to stay in this class, I needed to improve my marks or else move down to General. I declined cause I want to stay in this. Its funny how Im absolutely failing when I do the exams but for the other assessment, I passed and I pass my class work so WTF!? Why cant I apply it during the exam!?!?!??! Well, to be honest with myself, I have two goals: either do business or hotel management as my career. General is applied maths only but 2 unit does slightly more. General would be enough but I chose two units because I could use it to my advantage in the future. I just need to work on my maths. I've asked Oli if her mum could tutor me because I really need it. I'm also gonna go for Ms.Dethlefs' extra classes to help improve myself.

The rest of the day was pretty good actually. I was mucking around with Anthony cause he kept calling me Shaza Bin Laden and he called me a negro lol. He's just joking around but lol, such an idiot. I was talking to Sasha W. about NYAA. We want to go to New Zealand for our Adventurous journey. I dont mind really, it'd be fun seeing how Ive never been there in my life and james johnson insists on teaching me how to ride a bike lol. Which reminds me I need to do some research for the meeting tomorrow. XD Kieran's bus came and we just walked over the crossing so he was running to it. The thing is that Kieran can ride any bus but JJ can only ride the 105 so when the 159 came, both of us tried to stop him. I grabbed his hand to stop him from flagging the bus down though a lady was doing it at the busstop. JJ came to help me and held him down (JJ is 6'3 and big so you cant go anywhere if he holds you down). Lol, we love doing that to Kieran. I take his phone off him sometimes and only give it back when his bus comes. Unfortunately 73 came so Kieran got on that one. Lol, holding him back one is ok but then twice gets a bit old. Calvin was waiting at the busstop and we were comparing our saturdays seeing how we both do the same community service,reading to Kids at the Serangoon North Community Centre; as well as the camps cause he went to the same place as I did in Year 10 last year and I just told him what the difference was in the Year 11 one.

Which leads me back here. Just relaxed and posted on Club Bleach. I've got a poem which I wrote 2 months ago so Ill post it on Deviant Art later. Shall need to do my english homework, watch American Idol the final, research about New Zealand and contact my family ^___^. Ooh, Im working on my next layout so it'll come out soon. Ta xxx

2006-05-12T16:15:00.000+08:00

Bah!
Shaz FM: Final Distance by Utada Hikaru
Feeling: Low

Hiya! Its a public holiday today and Ive used it to relax a little,study as well as go for my drama rehearsal. Hmm,there's two more days till my exams. Ive got a bit more of English and Business to cover. Tomorrow, I have community service and then i'm devoting myself to Maths for the rest of the day. Thoughts on my next layout have been assessed and I know which is gonna be the next one. My computer has just been given about 20 new songs over 2 days because I was downloading a lot of techno/trance songs ehehe...with other type of songs as well.

A few to recommend:
Supersaw by DJ Furax (Trance)
Euphoric Eyes by 4 Strings (Trance)
Your Call by Secondhand Serenade (Light Rock)
Turn It Around by The Black Seeds (Reggae)

Right,thats it for now. Wish me luck for my exams! - Ta xxx

2006-05-06T21:19:00.000+08:00

Pointless
Shaz FM: Devil Inside (Scumfrog Remix) by Utada Hikaru
Feeling: Sick

Hi hi! First things first, I dont know where the lines have come from! Ahaha, I dunno. Some people have said the font is too small but maybe cause they're viewing it in IE. I want to change the layout, its about time anyway..but maybe you guys can wait a bit..? Cause Ive got exams coming up so yeah :).

Heh,its been ages but I cant be stuffed explaining about camp. If you're interested, just ask! I went out today with Kieran, Pirom and James. Went to watch 'The Wild' which I tell you was the pointless movie Ive ever watched. Sure, it had funny parts but for most of the part Im like "Oh bother" or "WTF!?". Heh, should have went to watch 'When A Stranger Calls' but Kieran didnt want to cause he said it was scary. Lol,he's not THAT scared..he's better then me..he doesnt mind watching stuff like The Grudge or Cello, those Korean/Japanese horror films but his reason for being scared is that he does babysitting and sometimes he gets weird phone calls and he explained that his hometown had small bad things happening like a guy being shot walking home or these twins ambushed people on a bridge and threw them over. He's from New Zealand ...

After that, walked around Orchard for a bit then went off to James' house which was about a 5 minute walk. Talked most of the time with Kieran about stuff. When we got there, I was envious. There's only three kids but seriously! They have EVERYTHING! About 5 TVs, 5 laptops, iPods, Xbox,Xbox 360, PS2, PSPs.. O____O And its a one story apartment, with 4 bedrooms mind you <___<. Ehehe, stayed there for about an hour or so then it was time for the guys to meet up with Holly and Sash at the Tanglin Club. I had to take the bus home (wasnt invited so went to bugger off XD). It was nice that they walked me to the busstop then left only when I got on the bus. Ooh,which reminds me..I was on the bus heading towards Orchard and I see one of my classmates Matt B. who was running after a bus...not mine but the one behind mine XD.

*sigh* A fairly decent day despite the fact that Im sick! Haiz, just before the exams too -_____- I didnt quite get to buy the scales book that I wanted but I'll go to Orchard on Monday to have a look. Tomorrow, is gonna be a day for studying.. Im gonna do Chinese and Business Studies..hopefully a bit of maths in there as well. That's it for now. Ta xx

2006-04-23T20:37:00.000+08:00

Gone for a bit
Shaz FM: Goodbye My Lover by James Blunt
Feeling: Fine

Heya, felt like blogging a bit just for the sake of it. Today was a pretty good day, despite having to wake up uber early cause I was helping out with the KidsREAD 2nd Anniversary. I was a volunteer at the Serangoon CC so I came and helped out. It was Steph,Kai Wen, Ryan and myself. Woke up around 7.30 as per usual if I had school and was out till about 2. It was fun I suppose. It was held at the new national library which I must say looks sugoi O__O (amazing). Ehe, changed into Volunteer shirts and helped out. I saw someone who was really familiar lol. When I went for a KidsREAD training course, this guy names Sazali was there. He came 5 minutes after me but during the break, we got talking,along with Kai Wen,James and Calvin seeing we were like the only teenagers there XD. I waved and he waved back, which meant that he still remembered me ehe. He was the emcee for the day. The funny thing about this guy is that he's 16 turning 17 like me but you would think he was like in his 20s cause he looks so mature. Mm,the kids were awesome! It was so much fun ehehe. I felt like I was doing something good. I acted as a team leader, trying to show some leadership skills. Its interesting how I show kindness and patience with little kids but when it comes to people my age? I somehow just slip under the radar..

Mm, as for waking up early? Thank god I dont have to do the same tomorrow. Why? Because we're heading off to camp! And we just have to be in school round 1 which means..sleep in! :D Yokata (thank goodness). I have a bit more of packing to do however the rest I can only pack tomorrow. Just to let you know that Im not gonna be blogging or be online till friday. (Psst,chris im smuggling my phone so you can still text me XD). Mm,and so you should know that Im gonna be in KL, Sat to Monday. Right,that's it for now! Ta xx

2006-04-16T20:57:00.000+08:00

Come back
Shaz FM: Simple and Clean (PLANITb Remix) by Utada Hikaru
Feeling: Full

Seeing that CHRIS has just bombarded me with why I dont blog anymore when Im already typing here I should fill this place up. Suprising how I never really blogged. Just kept checking and normally when there's a tag, I know people come to it and then I blog some more or else I find it a hassle to do so when I dont feel like blogging.

Neway,this is to say that my holidays are over. Tomorrow, I'll be back in school for about 9 - 10 weeks before the next break. Hmm, seeing how Term 1 practically whizzed by, term 2 is gonna be the same, but in that case, there's gonna be lots more homework and social turmoil. *sigh* And then just now Nelson's girlfriend (forgot her name ahaha :P) told me that high school life is the best. Well, true that cause I reckon this is the time where we're all getting used to things and we dont handle everything like adults do, but then again some adults cant do what teenagers can do. I need to work on my Business Assignment, unpack and then pack again for camp which is next week so dont be suprised if I dont blog then (When there's school I tend to at least blog once a week, but differs when Im on holiday as you have bare witness >__<)

Right, that's all for now. Dont have much to say about the holidays. It was fun but so damn short and it sucked that I only saw about 3 friends. On a short note at that. Zae sleptover, saw Rae for about 2 hours and saw Jonathan for a bit when our mums were talking which was like 5 minutes ahaha. Well,next term break Im using the month to my advantage, seeing that Rae will be back around the same time, Tom as well..and my relatives from Houston are coming down. I get to see Michelle and A. Ann who I havent seen in about 2 years and Danny and U.Max who I havent seen in 5 years ^____^. I might even have an operation to take out my molars then as well -____-. Ta xx

2006-04-08T18:46:00.000+08:00

Where have all the people gone?
Shaz FM: Goodbye My Lover by James Blunt
Feeling: Muscle aches

Hah,its been about 11 days since I've last blogged here. What's new with me? I'm in KL at the moment for my easter break. I've got another week here before I go back to SG. Hmm, I reckon people are out there enjoying their holidays (at least from my school) and that some of you lot still have school going for you but I havent heard from much people at all..not my friends in Singapore, not my friends in Aus..not even my friends in KL....where is everybody lol? Today was my bro's bday party..a fair good number of his friends came but not the ones i wanna see like Ian cause he's at camp and my big cousins Ziad and Zaid who are coming back from Penang.. Zae's spose to come sleepover tonight but she isnt here yet..*sigh*

Mm, im happy with myself cause ive done at least 5 hours of dancing classes this week so I've got 50 hours left for Physical Recreation and 80 hours left for Community Service for NYAA. Ive also managed to finish the whole Prince of Tennis anime series as well as watched a whole new set called Full Moon wo Sagashite (Looking for the Full Moon) which was pretty good. Havent done much shopping here yet but Ive got myself a pair of dancing sneakers which look really nice. Pure black ^__^. Dad has bought me an external hard drive so I dont have to worry so much about running out of space anymore :D Kk,that's it for now. Ta xx

2006-03-28T20:39:00.000+08:00

The interesting English lesson and the head that never stopped pounding
Shaz FM: Tomorrow by SR-71
Feeling: like me head is gonna explode soon..

Wondering what Im talking about yeah? Well,let me just explain the headache..I think its because I havent been having enough sleep lately..im always tired but today was the first day where my head would not stop pounding and it was horrible..even napping hurt haiz...but today was a pretty good day.

I've finally got my Grade 5 practical book..the pieces in there are a challenge but I would need to be diligent in my piano playing in order to get better and hopefully pass when the time comes. Art today was mamahuhu,meaning so-so in chinese. First thing,one of my paintings had traces of coloured paint on it..i was pissed off cause I only had painted it black again because there were some last time and then I have more colour on it sheesh. With my other work, I tried a few things on it..my artwork is to do with the elements so i tried editing it..I sorta ruined it a bit because the blue sorta went to the red part but i can just touch up on it when I finish my last element which is wood.

English class was the best english class ever. Ive never laughed that hard before! Ahaha,I sorta felt like I couldnt breathe and I was tearing up lol. There were some funny comments being tossed around. There was a comment from Ms. Gravina about Cong playing with a pen then they made a crude joke about it. Ahah, "I think your pen is running out of ink" XD Its a bit hard to explain it but it was the most hilarious thing ever. I was sitting next to Justin and I was just joking around him. Ryan said he shouldnt try to smile cause Gravina was still looking at him so I tried to make him smile and he told me to fuck off. The funny thing is cause the whole class went silent then and everyone heard. Gravina's expression was priceless but we were talking about old english and fuck is one of those words so she said "that was an example of old english". Ahaha,ive never seen a teacher make fun of someone swearing. I have Gravina for normal english and her lessons are the best ever ahahha.

Mm, I like stealing Kieran's phone cause its soo cool ..ahahaa I held on it for bout 20 minutes..the funny thing was that I was gonna stay in school to do art and I still had his phone. I stopped walking in the corridor but he kept walking cause he was gossiping with Holly and Sash W. Ahaha,it took him 10 minutes to realise I wasnt walking with him. I was just hanging back till I saw belinda,masa and geraldine so I followed them. I decided that I could do art tomorrow. My headache was killing me anyway. He was waiting for me ahaha. I stole his battery. Didnt give it back to him till his bus came XD

Meh,my head hurts..but Im gonna take a panadol before i go to bed so it shouldnt be that bad. I have to perform with my drama group on thursday so we have rehearsal tomorrow lunch time. Heh,its gonna be weird cause Alex wont be here anymore cause she's off to Sydney for the holidays so my group has to work with 3 people for the border..hope it works <___< That's it for now. Ta xx

2006-03-21T21:00:00.000+08:00

Jungle Talk
Shaz FM: Skeptics and True Believers by The Academy Is...
Feeling: Fine

Hey hey. Its been a week since Ive last blogged and the last one was a bit saddening to say the least. Ok,so all of that stuff hasnt gone away yet and I actually had a cry on saturday, only because I was watching some sad AMVs and since I was feeling a bit down, I just let it out ahaha. I didnt cry my eyes out, just a few tears.. Mm,there was an episode of last week again today but it was minor. Aha, it was much more funnier this time around.

Right,the weekend...did Community service at The Serangoon Community Center (Serangoon is just a sector of SG). We thought the kids the chicken dance! Lol so much fun! Had lunch with Kaiwen, Michael and Steph at Juncti8n then went home to do assessments. Oh man, I stayed home doing work and homework <___< Oh course Id take a few breaks but still did a lot of work. Sunday was all out. 3 hours of English and 4 hours of Business Studies. Needed a nap as well cause I havent been sleeping well.

Oh yeah, I actually cried in Maths yesterday. Only not cause I was sad, it was cause I was jokingly embarassed that I cried after laughing too hard. So here's the thing. There are 3 guys who are my friends but sometimes they like to make fun of me XD. It is Justin, Anthony and Eric. Hah,if you remember my entry, Shaz the obese bitch, it would be THAT guy. Should know about my troubles with Anthony last year and Eric's a really annoying friend but he makes school fun. Neway,they like to pick on me, even worse when they group up. Neway, I was sitting between Justin and Eric in maths and they start picking on me. Eric's form of making fun of me is relating everything Malaysian. Justin just comes up with things about his dog or just joins in with the Malaysia stuff. Ive got my metal ruler so Im swatting them both but they wont stop. I'm trying not to laugh cause we had a really scawwee sub teacher who thought we were slacking when we actually were doing more work then Ms.D gives us..I got a bit annoyed at them and I tell them to stop but then Eric says the lines to the "malaysia truly asia" ad. Justin thought it was an aeroplane ad lol. Pirom comes in and starts singing the ad. I start laughing and crying by then. Lol i give them shit for it.

Today was interesting. Eric makes fun of me cause Achek,Geraldine and Justin arent here. He pokes me and I poke him back. Its the same as Seiji,lol he's really ticklish. I do that and when we pass the corridors cause he's got a free and ive got extention english,he body slams me. Ouch <__< He's a karate kid and its funny cause I was actually flying..he's pretty strong O__O. I got a present from Hae Sook! She gave me a deck of Rain cards. Woot! I was jumping up and down cause it was a feel good present. Ehehe, this sorta reminds me of my AISM days with Ismadi. And maybe Chris if I remember correctly *thinks* The sort of thing where these guys arent afraid of punching a girl back and we end up punching each other for a while. That's what happened with Stuart. Hehheh,we had a punch fight. Lol,his nickname for me is Man Beater. Haha,wanna know how we started talking? He was asking Amy to slap him but she wouldnt so I just went up to him "I'll do it" then slapped him XD. Yeah,not the best way to get to know someone but it was jokes :P

He was a bit pissed off today cause he got in trouble with one of the teachers. We were in English together and Olivia kept asking him to calm down but it only looked like she was making it worse so I was keeping Olivia busy. She's the same as me, she doesnt like it when her friends are upset but the thing with Oli is that she is very blunt or direct sometimes which, suprisingly makes it hard for you to hate her. We were mucking about in class laughing without getting caught by Gravina. Referring to Jungle Talk? Yeah,well it goes back to the whole Malaysia jokes. Eric keeps saying stuff to me that he said to Tjun,my fellow malaysian and also our friend. Some of the malaysia jokes I receive are to do with Protons, that I live in a long house in Sarawak and that I am a very uncivilised person cause I speak native and I dont use stationary to do my work -____________- . LOL,they never stop but I just let it be cause they make the day seem better.

Yay,assignments! I have only 3 more to go! Art,Extention English and Ive still got my English interview to do. I havent started on my essay for Ext. English yet. eheheh,I better get started..tomorrow cause I just remembered I have an english essay and maths hw due tomorrow lol. With Art, ive realised that im not so done with my artworks yet. Mr.Wells has suggested ways in which I can add to my work and Im digging it. Cept it looks weird in the middle <___< so I have to fix that up next lesson. Kk,I have to do some work cause Im so lazy. Woot, 11 more days till I go back to KL for easter break,cant wait ^____^. Ta xx

2006-03-14T16:43:00.000+08:00

Too small to matter but big enough to cut me into so many little pieces
Shaz FM: Breath no More by Evanescence
Feeling: Sad and Thoughtful

Without worries and problems, what would our world be? Not worth living or it'd be just plain boring. Without problems with our social lives, we wouldn't be the individuals we are. Without friends,we're nothing...but what happens when you start judging your friends to whether they're really there for you or just there for you cause you're there? What about the friends you already have..do they stab you in the back or just pretend to like you?

Hah,ok so what is life without those things. I've just started to analyze my relationship with the people in AISS and how it works around here. Thinking back to last year, there were so many close relationships and groups but looking at it now, minus the new students of course, there are quite a number of people who hate each other or barely talk to one another. Me and Anthony is one example but we've started talking like friends now. Other examples would be the Sashas or A and J.

You know you're in between these two people and you want to help out so you ask person X, for example whether they like person Y..and when you get the answer, you go and tell person Y about it? Ok,so I admit I've done that a few times but when I see it being done a couple of times, I'm wondering whether you really value the friendship. It sorta bugs me when I wanna tell my friend about something and they're like "Yeah,he/she told me". O___O Its cause so many people are friends with each other that sometimes there isnt much room for privacy..even in small schools lol.

I hate seeing my friends upset. Seeing them pissed off or crying makes me feel sad and I want to do what I can to make them feel better. Granted,that there are a few people who dont want my sympathy or they just dont want to be treated that way but I give it anyway,just to show that I care, even if sometimes it ends up in a fight about it. Why I talk about it? It's cause its been happening lately and it really kills me to see them hurt. I feel in a way relieved that I talk to so many different people and dont stay in a particular group that I dont have much that people hate me for and I dont get their abuse directly at me. I hear snooty comments about me from my friends trying to warn me, but I just shove it aside. If they really said those things, dont be a wimp and say it to my face. What you dont hear cant hurt you right?

But what happens when you dont need to hear those words to get hurt? What if its staring straight into your face and no words are coming out but the pain is still there. That is what happened today. I love Alex a lot because she was one of the greatest friends I received when I first came here. I havent explained the problem at all but I feel that its best I dont,seeing that I was never meant to know about it in the first place, but that goes back to the whole "gossip" issue and trust. Only a few of you know and Ill leave it at that. Jon was Alex's best guy friend but now they barely talk and he hates her for what she's been doing lately. I had Art today and went to the next room to get a palatte for my painting. Alex came in and was looking at the paintings the other class had (Year 11 has 2 art classes). All I heard then was "He's writing about me" and she stormed out of the classroom. I took a look at it then it reminded me of yesterday at lunch when I was sitting with Jon on one of the tables outside. We see her running to catch up with Amy and Hilary and he's like "There goes my favourite person I love to hate". That painting was Jon's..and what was written on it shows how conceited and down-right evil he is. Our project was on the elements but WTF has that got to do with anything!? He's got these words,hateful,painful words all over it. "Im living a better life,I dont need you"..."Look what you've done to yourself"...."I hate you, you psychotic bitch"..Fuck, I hate this.

She was crying a fair lot. Ran after her and comforted her in the toilets. Why these things happen to her I dont know. The girls have learnt to forgive her but the guys are still hell bent on not talking to her. Heh,this shows how even nice guys have evil sides to them. Made her go to Ms.Sheetha the other class's teacher and tell her about Jon's painting. Left her there and when she came back,she was fine. Its amazing how she can keep all that pain in. She doesnt deserve to be sad. She's got such a nice,loving attitude and she's got a really good voice.

Olivia. She got pissed off because of our English Assignment. The teachers have got us on our ends just trying to figure out how to do the assignment. We're basically confused but Ive got a fairer understanding of it now. She got upset because she already finished her assignment and now she has to start over. She said she was gonna cry...Heh, I've been close to crying a few times now havent I? There have been great fun times but how something small can get me down is a mystery. Yeah life wouldnt be interesting without its ups and downs but life would be better if I didnt have so much in just a few weeks. I can relate to those lyrics I used as my title. We don't do much about that little tiny thing but it has the power to fully take over us. I've lost 2 people already this year...if I lost a friend,I dunno how that would affect me. Please don't think I'm sad or depressed or anything just by reading this. There are times when you just need to let out these things. I can't go to my friends in AISS because they would need to know about it and then it'll get around school. Heh,I miss my family and friends..from my AISM days. Maybe all I need is a good cry to calm myself down but I cant force myself to cry. It'll just come out when it needs to.

:) I feel a bit better then I got some of it out of my system. Now I need to work on some of my assignment stuff like writing up notes for Maths and Business Studies then around 6.30 I'm going with my guardian,Shirlena to school for the parent/teacher interviews. Till then. Ta xx

2006-03-10T16:33:00.000+08:00

Death is not the end of you
Shaz FM: Time of our lives by Paul Van Dyk
Feeling: Tired

Mm,just a little entry here. Got an email from my uncle. There is another loss in our family..do you remember the last entry I had when my grand-aunt passed away? Her son-in-law just passed yesterday..about the same time I was having assembly..12.30 pm. So sad. I feel bad for my dad's cousin cause she's lost two of the most important people in her life in less than a year..I am sad that ive lost people in my family but that's all I can say because I never really knew him that well. I would see him a few times but I never..Time is short so I try to make the best of it,though sometimes I feel like giving up and cry but that isnt something I should do. I'm loving it here in Singapore though time can be boring but I'm making the most of it. Whenever I come home to KL,there wouldnt be a time where my mum would be worried about my brother's health. I worry about him too cause I dunno how much pain he can take..if im not going out to see other people or doing my own thing, i'm spending my time at home keeping him company :) My grandmother as well. She's 87 and I dont know if she'll make it to her 88th so im gonna sleep in her house,keep her company for a few days. She loves me for it.

Heh,ive come close to crying like 4 times yesterday alone. So weird, I havent cried in a while. I remember how I had those moments 3 times last year. Will it happen again? Dunno.

Today wasnt such a bad day. Besides dancing yesterday till my feet hurt and coming home around 7, I was so worn down the entire day. Even writing felt like a pain. I saw Nick Carlton today. He looks pretty good. Melbourne get a holiday already pfft. One sorta thing I realised throughout this day is that people change in unexpected ways. Anthony has really been killing me with his attitude lately but today we were actually having a decent conversation. I find it amazing how I'm able to talk to heaps of people here without looking stupid or desperate for friends. I look at the way things are and somehow I feel left out. Like I'll hang out with a bunch of people but then I hear they're doing something and Im never asked, that's what kills me sometimes. Heh, you're probably thinking "Get over yourself" or "Maybe they think you wouldnt wanna come". Yeah it maybe that, but it does hurt when you hear everyone's got plans except you. That's just how sometimes you feel like you're not apart of things but still loved at the same time. *sigh*

Its gonna be a long weekend and I'm supposed to go out on sunday cause no one's gonna be here at home so I'm trying to hang with people but everyone seems to be busy. Maybe I'll just go wander round Orchard or something,maybe even go to the library..or I could just stay home and do assignments. Hehheh,that's it for now. Ta.

"Close my eyes,let the whole thing pass me by,there is no time to waste..asking why.."

2006-03-08T18:01:00.000+08:00

I 'root' 6
Shaz FM: Hit my heart by Benny Benassi and Dhany
Feeling: Tired

Heya. Title refers to a wording mistake my friend Gabby said when she tried to answer a maths equation on the board. It doesnt sound that funny but it was in class lol.

Mm,we had our athletics carnival today! It was pretty alright I guess. We get to our section of the stands and the guys have green hair. They have hair spray and they're spraying people with it. Aha,Justin comes up to me and tries to spray my hair but I say not now but then Matt and Jimmy gang up with him and they all spray me. Gah,my hair is sticky and is in need of a wash. Ok,so we didnt win the Spirit Cup or the Athletics Cup (We came in 3rd Place) but it was pretty fun. Got to get to know more of my friends better and it was a pretty good day despite the bloody weather. Gah I've gone darker, and yes I did wear sunblock. Hehheh,nothing much to say. Only went for the shotput cause couldnt be stuffed but I did help be a runner for an hour or so. There was good music on so there was quite a bit of dancing ahaha. LOL who puts I'm to sexy or My Humps in an Athletics Carnival!?

Dumdumdum, I shall need to get a move on with my assignments or else I'm screwed. Mm,I need to study for my maths and chinese test next week and possibly start a bit more on my English assignment. Gah,have to read Faustus and get a move on on my 1500-2000 word essay on the author-based history of the effects of Faustus on Elizabethan society. I've been watching a lot of PoT (Prince of Tennis) lately,and its bloody addictive. I'm supposed to buy Part 2 here because it was sold out at our favourite place but why the hell are anime shops in singapore at the edge of singapore and not in the centre like Orchard!?!?!?! Heh, I'm thinking that I'll buy some nice merchandise for my Adam's birthday which unlike last year, I will actually be there on the day. It'll prolly be available when I come back so I might just buy the whole thing for him or maybe split it with my mum. XD That's it for now. Ta!

2006-03-05T15:41:00.000+08:00

Just another day
Shaz FM: Time after time (Techno Remix) by Novaspace
Feeling: Fine

The weekend has come and gone. Its amazing how quickly its going by. I'm already into Week 7 and directly in one month, I'll be back in KL to spend my Term 1 holidays for two weeks. I've just gone through my assignments and such,and I dont think it's that bad despite what lots of people. I'm taking it pretty slow at the moment. Didn't do much during the weekend,just bum around at home and watch anime lol. I did go to Orchard though because there was this thing in the school newsletter for people who wanted part-time jobs to have work experience with customer service. Rebecca and Scott went for an interview in Cineleisure. They had asked Ms.Vink about it and I didnt so I thought that maybe it wasnt a good idea. Then Bec called me and said they were looking for more people so I went. I never knew Cineleisure had an entertainment zone which looked pretty wicked. I asked one of the staff and I filled up an applicant form. I was suppose to go for an interview but the lady just said they'll let me know in the next three days. Dad thought it was ok but he wants more information like which days and what times. All I know is its on the 8th floor helping out with E-zone and its pay is $4.50 an hour. Dah dah, it'll be fun if I did get the job cause I'd work with those two.

Mm, there isnt much to say. Nothing fascinating happening here but I dont blog as much cause one there isnt much to say and two I'm busy doing homework. Ooh,could talk about my CCA last week. That was fun. Started up dancing. Thought it was gonna be aerobics dance but it turns out to be MTV Dance and I was literally jumping up and down cause I was happy that I knew what Benny our instructor was talking about. Yes,our dance instructor was a guy but he was pretty cool. We're learning Roc Ya Body by MVP,such a kick ass dance song. I think I was overdoing myself because I was happy I was actually doing some sport after not doing so for like 4 months? Yeah,its no wonder people are saying I'm gaining weight....but I'm not gonna give up with that,just gotta keep trying. Can't wait till Thursday ^___^ XD That's it for now. Ta!

P.S: If you are in anyway interested in techno, download All Systems Go by East Clubbers vs. DJ Muh or Pretty Green Eyes by Ultrabeat. Omg,they're such good techno songs :D

2006-02-26T20:21:00.000+08:00

"Kinky"
Shaz FM: Faded by Kate DeAraugo
Feeling: Sleepy

Hoho,the end to a wonderful weekend,the most unusual and interesting one I've ever had in my life, which is like woah. Saturday, was like heaps interesting. Went out to Juncti8n to meet up with Suriani. OMG,we had the best time just catching up and gossiping. I missed her so much and it owns that I get to hang with some of my old friends during the weekends ^_^.

Alright since its a bit too late to remember every single detail and I would just bore you. Highlights for Olivia's party?
* Went bowling at a far place that looked rundown and was hard to find but the bowling was cheap so it was fun.
*When the party started,it was the most quiet party I have ever been to.
*Picked up after a while. People got thrown into the swimming pool lol.
*Sleepover with Oli,Sash and Elli! AHAHA, Olivia didnt let us sleep till 6.30 IN THE MORNING! OMG,she was mad. Whenever we tried to sleep, she'd like poke up,shout and bother us. Gah,we even rang people up, at 5 in the morning mind you, using my phone lol so guess who got the abuse? Stuart was the only one that picked up XD. When he did, Olivia couldnt help laughing so much that Stuart thought to ask, "Are you on crack?" when the only thing that couldve made her high would be a tea cup of coke?

It was a mad weekend. Though it doesnt sound like much, it was great fun. Hah,I dont have much to say. If I get it in time, I might sit for the Grade 5 Practical Examination for Piano in September. And I auditioned for the school play today. Hope I get a good part ^___^. Thumbs up! Ta.

P.S: "Kinky" is a quote from dear Elli from the TV show 'The Office".

2006-02-24T17:18:00.000+08:00

Mada Mada Dane
Shaz FM: Over and Over by Nelly ft. Tim McGraw
Feeling: Great yet something's holding me back

Hah. You'd think that me telling people that mum was taking my laptop (which means no internet for those who couldnt be bothered to think that) and that I was in Sydney for Drama. Well,I'm back and I've got my computer back with internet and all but don't expect me to blog in everytime cause I've got 9 assignments in the next 5 weeks so excuse me if I forget lol. Btw, incase you're wondering whatever this entry's title is,its japanese and it means 'its not over yet'.

Things are going great here I'm supposing. I'm more open to other people so I'm working up more relationships with the new students and as well as my current friends. I'm doing good but there's still the whole Oliver thing. Lol I'm sorry to say it but yeah he asked me out but we havent done anything. Its been 5 weeks and nothing has happened. Im gonna be good since I did say yes,sorta. I will go out with him on a date then say that it wont work because it wont. He's really nice and a great friend but that's just what he is..a friend. I don't think it'd work out if I went out with him. I'll just be pretending and that would lose me a lot of friends,from parties who dont like Oliver and those who think I like playing with people's hearts.

I've got other people to think about as well. There's Tom and what's happening in Melbourne, Alex and her problem and all the other people involved with it. *sigh* It's hard to be neutral when you love both parties, and you just wanna be there for both of them and help them work it out. When I talked to Tom, its true when schools feed on gossip. It's sickening but that's the way of like. True,in small schools gossip can spread before the whole day is done but like he said, smaller schools are so much better then big ones. You build up a more tight knit relationship with people and that's the beauty of it. Sometimes you wish you get more privacy but you just move on and deal with it. Hah,I'm thinking back when Chris and Rae both agreed that I was a depressed suicidal but they dont' have any idea what they're talking about.

I've changed homestays. I must say I like this place better. Not only because the family is nice and that its nearer to school so I can walk, but I like the room so much better. It has a more comfortable feeling. I've even got a TV and a phone in here but its not like I use it a lot :P. I like it better cause I feel like I've got freedom. I may be the youngest here but the others work so I take my time coming back from school, talking to people who wait for the school buses and hug them. If I so came late from school like,even 10 minutes from my old homestay, A. Angeline would freak out and I'll feel bad. I may be 16 but these people treat me with more respect :P

For school,as I said Ive got like 9 assignments to do. Drama,Maths,Chinese,Business Studies, English, Ext. English and Art. Drama is a research paper and physical performance, maths there is an assessment maths test, Chinese is all we've learnt till now, Business Studies is based on a Stimulus Booklet, English is an interview on the theme "The Outsider" along with a folio work of 4 pieces, Ext. English is a 1500-2000 essay on the historical author-created work of Christopher Marlowe and his Dr.Faustus on the Elizabethan society. Art is practical pieces to do with the "elements". I've got quite a lot to do in 5 weeks. Besides that, I do piano, dance and also the school play. Busy,busy,busy. At least we get a booklet on when our assignments are due for the whole of Year 11 so I know what's happening next term and term 3 as well. Hah,I've got holiday homework for Business. Fun.

My plan for the weekend? Tomorrow,Im meeting up with Yani who I havent seen in ages. She starts college in April and I found out Hae Jin is coming down here as well so we all get to meet up. After Yani,I have my friend, Olivia's birthday party and sleepover. I'm gonna finish my homework tonight which is an english and art essay. Might even get a move on my Drama assignment which is due in about a week. That's it for now. Ta xx

2006-02-04T09:47:00.000+08:00

Going but not yet gone
Shaz FM: Life by Yui
Feeling: Good

Heya. It t'was a good day yesterday. Went out in the evening with some friends around Orchard. We met up for dinner then went to the movies. Luke,Rebecca S., Rebecca W., Rachel, Holly (one of the new students), Hilary, Gabby,her friend David and myself went to watch Fun with Dick and Jane starring Jim Carrey which was a pretty good movie. After that we split up then went off to HMV where Luke and Rebecca W. got some CDs. There were a few that I wanted but I decided that I could just buy them another time. We walked around Orchard for a bit. The Chingay Parade was on so the streets were closed and it was jam packed with people watching the parade. The only way to get to the other side is to find an underpass. I got home about midnight which A.Angeline wasnt that keen on ahah but it was because of a miscommunication so yeah.

My mum is here spending the day with me. We're going out soon so I'm gonna go off. Just to let you know that my mum is gonna be taking my lappie (whose name is Mira after the constellation) for repair as my LCD screen is spoilt..so I wont be online or blogging much. I dunno for how long I will be computer-deprived so just bear with me. If you want to contact me,just sms me :) .Oh btw,during the Sydney trip (7th - 12th), I'll be using my Malaysian number so use that number to contact me. Right, enjoy school and whatever stuff that's coming your way and I'll contact whenever I can. L8er xxx

2006-02-02T16:44:00.000+08:00

Shaza, the obese bitch
Shaz FM: Sore Ga,Ai Deshou by Shimokawa Mikuni
Feeling: Itchy

Lol,before I continue on the title has nothing to do with me! XD Let me explain. There's this new guy named Justin. He's hilarious. He has a dog and he calls it Shaza. Its a labrador and he says its obese because it weighs 65 kg O____O. XD He didnt need to compare me to his dog lol. I am clearly not obese and I found it rather insulting but it was funny so I didnt take it to heart.

Hah,obviously I'm not in the right mindset for school. First,I went to the wrong homegroup today lol but it was alright cause I had fun in there :P. Then they went and changed our timetables <__< .Since I'm going to Sydney next week, I'll be missing on a heap of lessons so I'll have to catch up. Lol,its not gonna be a real term for me yet cause the week after we get two days off..most people got a lot of homework but Im suprised that I havent got quite a lot. I've only got to study for a business studies test tomorrow.

Tomorrow is Friday woot. My parents might be coming down this weekend so that'll be good. I still need to pack a bit more. I think I won't be able to fit everything in the small black pulley bag that I have so I might bring a bagpack? Hah,we'll see. That's it for now. L8er xxx

2006-02-01T16:46:00.000+08:00

Seeing the tiny pieces
Shaz FM: Me and You by Cassie
Feeling: Normal

"The body was placed in the lounge with the head area of the kapan un-knotted for viewing. Lots of cuzzin-muzzins visited the house throughout the morning. My mum could not travel but sent her salam. Tuanku Sultan Kedah & Sultanah arrived at Lorong Kelompang at about 12.30hrs and paid their last respects. Then, the children and spouses, nephews & nieces, grandchildren & greatgrandchildren paid their final respects by mainly kissing her on the forehead before the kapan (head area) was re-knotted for burial." - Ezani Abu Bakar (My uncle,dad's side)

Hajjah Hosna Bt Ismail passed away on Friday night 27 January 2006 at 7.20pm at the Kuala Trengganu General Hospital. She was 84 years old. Alfatihah.She was my Grand Aunt, whom I would normally call Tok Umi. The sister of my grandmother,Tok Mummy (dad's side). It seemed like it was only yesterday that I saw her but how time can dissapear beneath our feet. A little part of the email I received from my uncle. Muslim burials are very different to western ones and there is a big process before the deceased is burried. I have not been to a burial because I was very young the last time it occured..but when in KL,I wont hesistate to follow my parents to pay respect to the dead,a tradition since I can remember..it sometimes makes me sad when Im in Singapore because I'm losing valuable time with the relatives whose time might come soon.

It got me thinking of how big my family really is and of all the connections we have. I have a big number of relatives, thanks to my mum and dad's big family so I still find it amazing to know when there are many powerful/famous figures to whom have great respect for my older relatives.

With school life, Im experiencing new things and some old things are coming back so its gonna be a very interesting 3 terms. There was a dragon dance today which was very fascinating. With all the problems lately, I should try not to over-exert myself about them. Life is too short to worry all the time about it. That's all for now..ta.

2006-01-31T12:15:00.000+08:00

Turn the light on and save yourself sometime
Shaz FM: Nothing but You by Paul van Dyk
Feeling: A pain in my knee

XD Such different comments I get from the lot of you. Yet,I still sound like a depressed suicidal? Lol,thats the way it comes off cause we all read 'text' differently. What im doing in advance english is "the outsider",the text being the merchant of venice but its all how the reader intercepts the text by the composer. I dont intend on sounding like I want to kill myself because I have a shitty life,its just sometimes its hard to put emotion into words.

Gah,we shall move on. I have received about $28 of angpow money which I think is pretty nice of the Leongs to do so. Just rang my parents up.They're coming back from Japan tomorrow and Nana bought lots of stuff,can't wait till i get to check them out. At least Adam wont be bored at home. Whenever I ask him what he did that day,he'd always say "same thing as yesterday" which is cute. My parents might come down this weekend before I go for my Sydney Drama trip which is, *gasps* one week from now! Woot *dances around*

In about 2 hours, I'll be heading to what might be my last bible study thingy with the leongs. Kenan is having a CNY party so we're going there to celebrate with the bible study group. That's it for now. L8er xxx

2006-01-29T12:32:00.000+08:00

Mixed Signals
Shaz FM: Castles in the Sky (DDR)
Feeling: Fine yet confused

Hows it going? Happy Chinese New Year to you guys who celebrate it! Hope you guys have a good one and get lots of ang pow ^_^. I'm at Bec's house, sleeping over for the weekend cause my guardian insisted on me doing my own thing because she thought I would get bored following them to visit their relatives. I think I would have been especially since most of them speak no or very little English. Ah well, I'm having fun here.

Yesterday I went out with Bec,Jane and Meisya around Orchard. We went out for lunch at N.Y.D.C then after that we went for karaoke. Lol it was the best ever. At the end of the day,I had no voice but I sang the proper way so it eventually subsided. There was supposedly very loud fireworks on last night but I didnt hear anything prolly cause I was so tired! I didnt get much sleep the night before. Was thinking about so many things. Parents and Dina leaving for Tokyo that morning, all the things that happened Oliver (will get to that soon) and with Chris. *sigh*

I guess you would say that I don't know what I want. Its funny how you think you want something,then when you get it you realise that it wasnt really how you thought it would be. Why is love so confusing? Why can't it just be simple and it doesnt cause much problems? When my friends tell me about their relationship woes, I'm thinking to myself, "Wow,what have you gotten yourself into?" or how one issue can join with other problems so you just have one big disaster. Not saying that all my friends go through with this, cause I'm finding that there are a few great couples. XD It's funny how sometimes my friends listen to my advice when I haven't had any experience of being in a relationship or being someone's girlfriend. There were some instances when I nearly did but I felt like it didnt count because we found that we couldnt go further because of other problems happening in our lives, other people interferring or just because of distance.

Alright, I think I have to start from the beginning for you to understand this. I apologise in advance for not letting you know,Rae..I knew I let you down the last time I did it (that was cause I didnt know how you felt about it) but this time,its because I'm more confused then ever. In AISS,I've got this friend named Oliver. We got to know each other when I hung out with Anthony cause there were in the same group. After that weird episode with Anna,I didnt talk to those guys much until term 4. In this school,its not uncommon for girls and guys to go out one on one and not become an item. With the last time that I did this, I told myself not to think that someone likes me cause I am like always wrong..but this time I wasnt..I went out with Oliver to watch a movie as friends..last friday,despite the funny interference of one Luke Vink (who apologised to me yesterday about it), he asked me out,and this time it's completely different. Like Rebecca Shelley said, this is a trial. I said that we'd give it a shot and see how it goes.

If that wasnt nerve wrecking and confusing much, I've got another issue at hand. This one is somewhat more important then Oliver but I cant solve the whole problem without going through him first so I'll have to take it slow. You know when you leave something out in the open for too long and when you want to talk about it again, you find that you dont know what of the issue you can talk about cause time changes views and people? This has been going on for 3 years. We do nothing bout the issue but when something comes up, it just goes back to the start and I'm left wondering what the hell just happened and why does it feel so weird? *sigh* I want to clear this all up,get everything out in the open so we know where we stand.

Last year,I had so much problems that I got sick of it all. With Rae,Chris,Lang..it's like one whole revolution that won't stop going around. It's funny how I can easily get myself out of it but I don't because they're my friends. With Rae,we've had one bumpy ride since day one but I still hold on because in the end,she's still one of my best friends. Excuse me for giving you such a long entry but I've just got so much going on in my head,its no suprise that I'm not getting enough sleep. *sigh* That's it for now,I feel like I need to clear my head. Have a good CNY. L8er xxx

2006-01-27T18:00:00.000+08:00

Something's gotta go wrong because I'm feeling way too damn good
Shaz FM: Breakthrough by Hope 7
Feeling: My heart pounding like it hasnt been before which is omg weird

Its the end of the first week. New students that all seem to be a great crowd. I was chosen to be a buddy to one of them and I talked and intro myself to some of them. Its the quiet girls and the other guys I need to work on. There's James who seems like a cool guy and we have a few classes together, Justin whose funny and there's Matt who seems real easy to talk to. There's Holly and Billy,two UWC girls who are mad as, Ellie is easy to talk to, Lasette and Johanna are swedish girls who are really nice... Its still weird around school but eventually,we're gonna settle into the new year just fine.

Its a long weekend because of CNY. Ooh,which reminds me that my parents and Dina are going to Japan tomorrow. I have very little homework and Im gonna be spending the weekend at Bec's house which is gonna be fun. Why do I have such a weird feeling? Its because I just ended the week with a bang. Cant explain it because I have no idea what the hell happened but it did so its still a blur,soz.

If you would so nicely look at my taggie, and you will see that I have been tagged by my dear friend RAELENE (when have you ever called my by my full name???) Loong Wei Yen. This means that I have to describe a few things as shown below:

Name five of life's simple pleasures that you like most, then pick five people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not use things that someone else has already used.
1) Looking through old photos from your early secondary school life and realising what total idiots you and your friends were.
2) Having a family that gives you the love,support and things you need.
3)Having friends who give you a great time
4)Appreciating the art of mother nature (reality is like a big painting)
5)Exceeding your limits
Im tagging: Chris,Olivia,Bec,Dina and Lang

The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover. Need to mention the sex of the target. Tag 8 victims to join this game & leave a comment on their page saying they've been tagged. If tagged the 2nd time, theres no need to post again.
Sex:Male
1) A person who will compromise everything with me so that we both lead a happy life.
2) Has subtle ways in showing that he loves me without using words.
3) Will support me through thick and thin, not leave me when its the time I need him the most.
4) Does not keep secrets and hides things from me.
5) Will stay faithful for as long as we are in a relationship.
6) Someone who accepts me the way I am and won't try to change me.
7) He wouldnt be ashamed of being seen with me or being romantic infront of others.
8) Trusts me and isnt too protective when I need to spend time with my friends or family.
I'm tagging: Dina,Olivia, Bec,Chris, Amy, Zehan, Tom and Adam.

That's all for now. Will update soon. Happy Chinese New Year to those of you who celebrate it! Hope you get a lot of ang pow money ;) Gong Xi Fai Chai! As far as chinese goes, zai jian. L8er xxx

2006-01-22T16:57:00.000+08:00

Back to the start again
Shaz FM: Get Your Freak On by Missy Elliott
Feeling: Tired

Its the end of the summer break. School starts tomorrow (which means Im obviously in Singapore now XD) and thus we begin the new school year as Year 11 students (in some cases Year 10 or college ;)),well in actual fact just me and AISS cause you lot have like one more week or something pfft.

The end of 05' and the beginning of 06' has brought on some amazing and new experiences,and its safe to say that it was the best and most interesting summer ever. I turned 16, I got my first diamond necklace, cool converse chucks, had a kick ass time with my cousins, hosted a party in over a year, saw Chris again, went on 3 rides I would have never ridden by myself,got myself the first season of Prince of Tennis etc...along with some roller coaster things, but that's all between me and those people ;)

Alright-y,just to fill in space because I felt like I needed to officially end my summer. I can't wait till April when I get to see some of you guys face to face again aha. Thanks for giving me a great time! Shall post about current schooling status on another day. xxx L8er

Question: Do I look like a depressed suicidal to you? (Lol,Chris!)